When my wife Amanda finally revealed to me that she had been raped by her coworkers *refers to "Sharing My Wife Amanda, Chapter 7"*, I was enraged.
Enraged that someone would dare harm and violate my wife.
Enraged that she didn't immediately call the police.
Enraged that she didn't immediately tell me.
But most of all, I was enraged because I wasn't there to protect her. Amanda's coworkers had their way with her for days, and I was totally oblivious. The guilt I experienced literally brought me to tears because I felt responsible for the horrors that she endured. Had I not surprised her with the gangbang on that fateful night *Chapter 1*, she never would've started sleeping with her boss Glenn *Chapter 2*. Unfortunately, it was that latter piece that precipitated the rape.
I was dumbstruck when Amanda wouldn't divulge the names of her rapists. She adamantly told me - several times - that she just wanted to put the ordeal behind her and not create further repercussions.
I didn't quite understand what she meant by that, but it sent me into another fit of rage. How could she protect the men who had caused her such physical and emotional harm?
Why
would she protect them???
I demanded that Amanda tell me; I begged her. I even threatened to beat their names out of Glenn despite her repeatedly telling me that he had no idea what had happened to her. My wife and I argued fiercely. I was becoming irrational, without a doubt. I just wanted justice for my wife, and I couldn't understand why she wasn't looking for the same thing, and how she could possibly remain so calm.
But, like always, Amanda managed to pacify me. Without telling me directly, she let me know that she needed a husband to support and comfort her, not someone to seek revenge on her behalf.
I knew in my heart that I would've hunted my wife's rapists down and killed them with my bare hands had she wanted me to. But, after much effort from within and without, I eventually focused on being the comforting shoulder that she needed.
That's not to say things became easy for us.
For weeks afterwards, there was a palpable despair and gloominess around Amanda that broke my heart. No matter what I said or did, I couldn't lift her spirits. It hurt as much as anything to see her that way since she was a naturally cheerful person. My wife gradually became distant with me. As much as I wanted to hold her, I was now afraid to...as if touching her would invoke some horrible memory of her the repeated assaults. I even brought up counseling, but Amanda assured me she was ok and didn't require professional help.
Amanda's gangbang partners began calling for her. She had ended her individual relationships with them some time ago *Chapters 1-6*, but unsurprisingly they were going through withdrawal and needing more of her. Each time one of her former lovers called her, she would just stare at her cell phone with a forlorn expression, and ignore them.
After my wife avoided their phone calls for nearly 2 weeks, they began contacting me instead, asking if I would share her with them again. Once, not too long ago, the mere idea would've aroused me to no end. Now, it just elicited an angry response from me, as I told them to leave my wife alone, and to stop calling us.
Even my best friend Dimitri wasn't exempt from my anger.
The phone calls from her gangbang partners seemed to make Amanda fall deeper into despair. I wanted so badly to hold her, but all I could do was be there for her, and closely monitor her. I realized she needed space to work things out on her own, so I did my best to be present when she needed me, while not crowding her. She knew that I loved her more than life itself, and, fortunately, that was still enough to get herself past the ordeal.
It was perhaps 6 weeks later when we noticed the moving vans next door. The house had recently been put on the market, and it appeared as though Amanda and I were getting new neighbors. We met them for the first time when they knocked on our door.
"Hi, we just wanted to introduce ourselves. I'm Scott, and this is my wife Brandy. We're your new neighbors."
As difficult as the last month and a half had been, I suddenly felt a little bit better... and even a tinge of arousal. Scott was a handsome man. Standing at a shade over 6ft tall, he possessed a muscular build with broad shoulders, penetrating blue eyes, and shoulder-length, wavy brown hair. Brandy DEFINITELY caught my eye. She was a short blonde with long hair, hazel eyes and a fantastic, curvy ass. She also had the biggest tits I had ever seen, even bigger than my cousin Breanne's, whose chest was forever etched in my mind *refers to "Sinful Needs of the Flesh Vols 1 & 2"*.
When our new neighbors left, Amanda closed the door, turned, and actually did a little jig. "He is SO hot!" My wife giggled girlishly.
After having shared my wife with so many men * Chapters 1-6*, Amanda's remark did not bother me or make me jealous in the least bit. In fact, her reaction was encouraging because it indicated that she was feeling more like herself again.
"Oh yea? Well, Brandy ain't bad, either," I teased her. "She's got the largest tits I've ever seen!"
"No, she's definitely a stunner. And that chest! 38D's, I'm guessing."
I was definitely happy to have Scott and Brandy as our neighbors. My mind almost instantly began thinking naughty thoughts. Despite the fact that Amanda was rising out of the doldrums, we still hadn't had sex in quite a while, so my libido was raging.
Still, I forced myself to temper my sex drive. Until Amanda was fully herself again, I was resigned to relying on my own imagination (and hand!) for sexual relief.
It was late, 3 days after we had met Scott and Brandy for the first time. Amanda was already asleep. I was brushing my teeth in the bathroom and about to turn in. As I headed to bed, I casually glanced out the window, and froze.
I had always known that we could look into the bedroom window of the house next door. I never thought anything of it, but, then again, we never had such attractive neighbors before.
I crept quietly toward our window and continued staring.
Across our adjoining backyards, a small light flickered in Brandy and Scott's bedroom. Even through the distance, I could clearly see their bodies writhing in unison.
I grinned as I surreptitiously watched them have sex. Only the bottom of Scott's feet and Brandy's bare backside were visible as she rode him like a cowgirl. I began fervently praying that she would turn around so I could catch a glimpse of her enormous breasts...and, with any luck, Scott's cock.
"What are you doing?"
I was so transfixed that I didn't hear Amanda approach. I nearly jumped out of my skin, I was so startled.
My wife noticed I was staring, and follow my gaze.
"Uh, why don't we go to bed, and-"
Amanda turned and punched me in the shoulder. "Omigod, please tell me you are not spying on our neighbors!"
I tried to deflect. "Well... I mean, I saw the light on over there and just looked. I didn't realize what was going on, at first." It WAS the truth, after all.
Amanda sighed and shook her head. "You're horrible."
"Ok, I'm sorry, I'm sorry," I grumbled. "Let's just go to bed."
I started walking towards the bed expecting Amanda to follow me. But she didn't, I turned to look back at her. My wife was still standing by the window, but she wasn't looking at our neighbors.
She was looking directly at me.
"I'm sorry."
I chuckled. "No. You're right, as always. I shouldn't have been a peeping tom. Not a cool thing to do."
Amanda shook her head. "No, I don't mean that. I mean... I'm sorry... about neglecting you."
I was so stunned that I couldn't respond. My wife swallowed hard, and continued. "Ever since...ever since... things...happened, I know I haven't been myself. I've been trying to work through some things, but my mind is still spinning all over the place. I know I've pushed you away, and it wasn't intentional. It's just that-"
"Ok, stop right there, Mandy." I quickly went back over to her, and pressed her hand to my cheek. "You did NOT push me away. I know you've had a lot on your mind. I can't even begin to comprehend what you've been going through. I mean, shit, for god's sake, you were molested by 2 men! 2 of your coworkers! Frankly, I have no idea how you've managed to stay sane, because anyone else would've gone crazy by now."
Amanda hugged me, and I almost cried. "It's because of you that I've been able to make it through the pain. I couldn't have stayed strong without you."
"I love you so much, Mandy."
"I know, babe. I love you, too."
We held each other fiercely, and for the first time since her ordeal, I finally felt like everything was going to be ok.
I suddenly noticed Amanda was standing still like a statue, and staring out the window again. I turned my head to see what she was looking at.
Scott was sitting at the edge of his bed and leaning back onto his elbows, legs spread wide. Brandy was kneeling directly in front of him, her head bobbing up and down, and perfectly covering whatever was between his legs.
Even from our vantage point, we could see the rapturous expression on Scott's face.
Amanda and I watched our neighbors for a moment.
"Would you like me to do that to you?" she asked me quietly.
I looked into her eyes. The truth was, I DID want very badly to be intimate with my wife again. But more than anything, I just wanted Amanda to feel good about herself, and about life, again.
I told her earnestly, "When you're ready. And not before."
Amanda's smile was bright. It seemed like a lifetime since I had last seen it. I suddenly felt warm and tight all over.
She took me by the hand, and led me back to our bed.
Everything was alright again.