"I don't know Amanda, I guess I'm just bored."
I think that was how it started. I was sitting in my best friend Amanda's living room sipping wine. My name is Alissa Wallman. I had just turned thirty-nine which may have something to do with the dramatic change in our life that I track to that day. I've been married to my high school sweetheart Logan for twenty years. Our daughter Emily just turned twenty is off to college. No, she wasn't a wedding night baby, Emily was born three months after we got married. We had talked about getting married but one night of drinking and forgetting a condom sped that process up.
Amanda is my best friend. To many of our friends, we were referred to as double A. Amanda like me married young. I think that is why we became such good friends. She is a year older, already hitting the big four zero. She is married to Russell and they have a son Jimmy who is now in the army.
Our husbands are the best of friends also. They are away on a fishing weekend leaving Amanda and me to drink wine and gossip.
"I don't know; there is just no excitement in our lives. We do the same thing all the time," I said.
"I know what you mean. Is your sex life as shitty as mine?" Amanda asked laughing.
"Damn Amanda, I didn't think we've had drunk that much."
"What, we're too mature to talk about our sex lives now? We used to talk about sex all the time now that we're old we can't. Russell and I have sex maybe once a month, what about you and Logan?"
She was right; we used to talk about sex to compare and trade ideas to enhance our own sex lives. It had been at least five years since we had talked about our sex lives. I'm betting it was because we both had our sex lives diminish.
"Logan and I are about the same. If we have sex more than once a month that's a big month. I'm just as much to blame though. I like to go to bed early, while Logan likes to stay up late. I just wish there was a way I could shake things up."
Amanda laughed, "I know, we could have affairs."
"Amanda, don't even kid about that."
"Hey, I'm just kidding. I know Logan would never cheat on you." Involuntarily I looked down. "Wait, you're hiding something. Oh God, did Logan cheat on you?"
I looked up surprised, "No he didn't do that."
"Oh fuck, it was you. You had an affair?"
There was a long silence. Amanda knew me well. She had me. "I wouldn't call it an affair; it was just four times."
"Four times? And you've never told me. When, where and who? I want details."
"It was when Emily was in kindergarten. Logan was working incredible hours; I hardly saw him much less got any attention from him. I signed up to help with the Valentine party and was paired up with one of the dads to do the decorations. I don't know if you remember Mindy Black, but it was her dad, Robert."
"Yeah, I remember her. Her parents were divorced. Robert was hot."
"Robert invited me to his house make the decorations. Robert and I worked really hard for a couple of hours cutting hearts and making other decorations. Robert brings out some wine and we start drinking while we work. I don't know how it happened, but we were working closely together. His arms were around me helping me glue some paper. His hot breath was on my neck while his arms encircled me. My head was telling me to stop him, but my body was on fire."
"Damn, you're turning me on."
"I turned my head to tell him to stop and our lips met. His hands were inside my shirt massaging my breasts before I knew it. Somehow, I got turned around and my hand was on his crotch. The next thing I knew my pants were off and Robert's face was buried in my crotch. After my first orgasm, he scooped me up and took me to his bed where we had sex twice."
"Oh my God, you slut. That is so hot. I can't believe you kept that from me. Wait, you said four times. Why four and why only four?"
"We did it one time at his house, two times at our house and then we spent a weekend together."
"A weekend? How the hell did you pull that off?"
"You remember when my aunt Alice was sick, and I was having to go to St. Louis to help her? One of the trips I had planned on staying with her for an entire week. My sister called letting me know she was going to take over for the weekend. It just so happened that Robert was at a conference in downtown St. Louis. We got a hotel room and spent the weekend eating room service and having sex."
"Shit, that is so incredible. Was he hung?"
"He was about the same size as Logan but if was different how he did it. It was so exciting and naughty. I wasn't a mom or a wife; I could be nasty with Robert. I was able to let go and just have wild sex. I let him play with my ass and I kissed and licked his."
"Why did it end? Did you get caught?"
"When I came home Emily was there to greet with a big hug. I started bawling with her in my arms. I told Logan and Emily that I was just so happy to see them that the stress of being away was too much for me. In reality, it scared me to death that I might have screwed up my family and my marriage for a couple nights of hot sex. I told Robert the next day to tell him we were done. He said he understood and thanked me for a great time. I vowed then I wouldn't do anything ever again to jeopardize my marriage or family. It did add some excitement to our bedroom. I tried to make it up to Logan by being a little more slutty in bed. He resisted me at first then he loved it."
Amanda demanded I give her more details. With the wine flowing, I told Amanda the intimate details of the hot sex Robert and I had. "See, that's what I'm talking about. We need that kind of excitement in our sex life," Amanda said.
"No way, I'm not cheating on Logan again. That was too stressful and not worth it."
"Yeah, you're right. I don't think I could cheat on Russell." There was a moment of silence. "What if it wasn't cheating?"
"I don't get it; how do we have sex with another person that would that not be cheating?" I asked.
"Is it cheating if Logan knows and agrees to you having sex?"
"Amanda, why in the world would Logan agree to me having sex with another man?"
Amanda gave me a sly smile, "He might if it meant he got to have sex with another woman."
"I don't want him having sex with some slut."
"What if it wasn't just some slut?"
"I can't believe we are talking about this, I'm not cheating on Logan and I don't want him cheating on me."
"Come on, walk this through with me. You said it yourself the excitement of the affair was that it was something new and different. You were able to be the sexpot you couldn't with your husband. So, we need to find a way to get that kind of sex without jeopardizing our marriages."
"I guess, but that's not possible," I said confused.
"Just work with me. We would need to find partners that we know are clean and safe." I nodded in agreement. "Those partners we would have trust that they would understand the idea of discretion. We don't need others knowing our business."
"You sound like you have someone in mind."
"I do, I think I know someone you would approve of fucking Logan."
"Would stop beating around the bush, who are you talking about?"
"Me, I will fuck Logan."
"What? You're going to sex with my husband and I guess I'm to have sex with Russell?"
"Now you're getting it. See how that will solve all the issues? Don't say no too quickly. Just think about it. We are both wanting some excitement in our sex lives. We both just agreed that we could get that excitement by fucking someone new, but we are not going to cheat on our husbands. This is perfect, Russell has the hots for you and I've seen how Logan looks at me."
"You're crazy; we are not having sex with each other's spouses. Are we?"
"You know Alissa, during this whole conversation we've had about sex, you have not said the word fuck. What we are talking about is just fucking for the excitement of it. To shake up our dull lives and our pitiful sex lives. Yes, we are going to do it; we just have to figure out how we are going to do it."
The two of us sat there in silence just staring at each other. I was trying to figure out if she was serious. I couldn't help but picture my best friend naked with my husband on top of her. The more I thought about it, I saw the logic, if you call it that, in what Amanda was saying. It wasn't as if I hadn't looked at Russell and imagined what he would be like in bed. Russell is a tall thin man with size fourteen shoes. You know what they say about guys with big feet. I have always wondered if that was true.
"You're thinking about it, I can tell. Are you picturing Logan banging the shit out of me, or Russell licking your pussy before he mounts you?"
"Shut up. Yes, I'm thinking about it. How do we know the guys would even go for this?"
"Oh my God, they are guys. They think with their dicks. If we tell them it is alright to fuck us, they will jump at it. I would bet anything they have plotted how to get us to swap with them. I want you to say it, tell me you want to fuck Russell."
We had another moment of silence. I finally broke it. "Alright fine, I want to fuck Russell."
Amanda jumped up shouting and cheering, "That's my girl."
"Not so fast with the 'my girl' crap, how do we do this. I can't just go to Logan and tell him I want to fuck my best friend's husband."
"You could, but we will make them think this is their idea."
Amanda and I went through another bottle of wine trying to come up with the right plan. We discussed everything from strip poker to spin the bottle. We couldn't come up with a plan that we thought would work.
Amanda spoke up, "Maybe we ask the Rolands for help."
"You mean Lana and Ryan Roland. Why them?"