If I weren't telling this story I wouldn't believe it! This is one of those stories which occasionally one hears about but never experiences! I made a terrible mistake when I courted the woman who is my wife. I should have known better. Unfortunately, from my point of view, it just kept on getting worse. I knew she came from a good family but that was a long time ago. She is now 52 years old. I had known her almost all of my life. She and I went to kindergarten and then primary school together and, as well, we learned music together. It almost seemed we were meant to be together.
We did a lot of petting when we were courting. She would take my cock in her hand and jerk me off. She would never consider putting my cock in her mouth and so there was no chance of a blow job. On the other hand, she was never reluctant to jerk me off. She also allowed me to either open her shirt or lift up her jumper to expose her cute tits, or she would allow me to remove her knickers so I could play with her cunt and clit - but never both of these positions. It was either tits or cunt! I got the distinct feeling she was allowing me to grope her because she might have thought I would leave her if she didn't allow me to do what I wanted.
We had been going out together for well on a year before she allowed me to fuck her! I had been asking to let me fuck her but she always refused. At last, when her parents had gone out to a parade which was being held in our town and we were all alone in her parent's home, she agreed to let me fuck her! I asked if it would be O.K. without pulling out and she said it was O.K. As soon as I had stripped her and caressed her body for a reasonable time, I lifted her legs and slid in between them. It didn't take me long to get my cock ready to push into her cunt. I again asked her if it was O.K. to fuck her and she said yes!
So, without any more preliminaries, I gave my hips a shove and pushed my cock right into her cunt. I had assumed she was a virgin and was quite surprised when there was no hymen to break and I slid all the way into her body. Although I had been jerking myself off for a couple of years in anticipation of this occasion, I had not previously fucked any girl. Here I was, deep inside my girlfriend and loving every minute of it. It didn't take me very long before I felt my balls contracting and knew I was about to cum. I asked her again if it was O.K. to cum in her and she said yes again! She wasn't reacting in any way to what I was doing - I expected her to be jerking around and cumming at the same time I was. Well, cum I did and right into her cunt! It felt really good - it was the first time and I guess it had to feel good. When I pulled out of her, I again asked her if it was really O.K. to cum in her and then she said, " Well I guess so - I don't really know!" Boy, was I worried now. I asked her if she was in a safe period and she simply said, "I don't know much about that!"
I told her to immediately pull her dress on and to come outside with me! She did this and by this time I was dressed too. I took her out into the garden and asked her to squat over the flower bed. It was quite dark and I knew the neighbors had also gone to the parade and so wasn't worried about being seen by anyone. I then picked up the garden hose and placed it just inside her cunt. I then turned the hose on gently and allowed the hose to pour lots of water into her cunt. I was certainly making sure I was washing out any cum I had deposited in her. After a couple of minutes of this water flowing in her cunt, I allowed the hose to fall out of her and then handed her a towel I had collected earlier and told her to dry herself. This she did.
Suddenly I realized she wasn't as experienced in sexual matters as I had thought every girl was. She didn't know anything about safe periods. Well, we dressed ourselves properly and went to watch the same parade the rest of her family was watching. She told me, on the way to the parade, that she hadn't felt anything and it hadn't given her anything like an orgasm. I had been stroking her clit on previous encounters and this had given her some sort of orgasm.
Although this sounds queer, she never reached an orgasm through sexual intercourse for the rest of her life up until the time she was 52.
Anyway, back to the story. I had to take precautions from there on. I used a condom whenever we fucked and although I enjoyed the whole process she would always just lay there and let me fuck her - never participating at all. I should have recognized the symptoms of problems ahead and the alarm bells should have been ringing loud and clear. For some reason, we just kept on going our together and fucking whenever I wanted it. Although she allowed me to fuck her, she would never allow me to see her naked (except for the very first time we fucked) and she would always keep her top half covered whilst I took off her panties and fucked her. We became engaged! I thought she might relax more now that she had a sign that we were going to get married! No, that didn't make any difference.
About a month before the wedding, we were parked out in our car at a very deserted spot and for once I had insisted she take off all of her clothes so I could fuck her whilst she was naked. She protested and said, "No, I don't like being screwed with no clothes on (she wouldn't use any so-called dirty words), I don't like it when other men are looking at me while that is being done to me!" Alarm bells started ringing at that time. "Don't like other men looking at you while this is being done to you? What do you mean by that?" She started to cry and there seemed as though there was nothing I could do to stop the tears. I just held her and slowly began to caress her breasts through her blouse. This didn't calm her down and she just kept on sobbing.
I don't know what made me do it, but I had had enough so I sat her up straight and slapped her face quite hard! She jerked her head back and suddenly stopped crying. I then said, in a very stern voice, "Now, you had better tell me all about this problem. What do you mean other men looking at you while you are doing that?"
She began to sob again and said, between the sobs, "I thought you knew - everyone else seems to know. My last boyfriend used to do that to me and he let lots of his mates come and watch and he also made me do things with them! I am very sorry, I thought you knew!" Well, this was news to me. I knew she had a boyfriend before me and he was about 5 years older than she was, but they didn't seem to be very close and I had thought they were more friends than lovers.
Over a period of about an hour I managed to get most of the story from her, in between bouts of crying. It appears this boyfriend was a real bastard and soon after they had started going out, he had taken her to his flat and tore off her clothes and raped her! She was too scared to tell her parents or anyone else and had nobody else to turn to. It just meant that from thereon, whenever they went to his flat, they fucked and fucked! She didn't like it at all and hated all the sex and him in particular. He seemed to have some sort of power over her and she just couldn't break away from him.
It became much worse when he invited his mates to come to his flat when he was taking her there and then he would strip her and make her parade around naked in front of his mates. He would also allow them to feel her up by playing with her breasts and sticking their fingers in her cunt. She was too afraid to attempt to stop them and so they just continued.
It wasn't very long before this group activity advanced further when, after her boyfriend had fucked her and the other men had felt her up, that he told her to get on the bed and let the others fuck her too. In all, that afternoon, 9 men fucked her! Her boyfriend always wore a condom and made his mates use them too. She hated this and didn't know what to do about this. Sometimes he wouldn't allow his mates to be present and just kept her to himself but the occasions of the group sessions became more and more regular. She was just being used as a sex object.
When she was having her period and couldn't fuck him or his mates, she was made to suck their cocks until they came and made to swallow their cum or, at times, they would pull out and cum all over her small tits.
Although I had never heard a word about this it appears it was fairly common knowledge and lots and lots of people knew she was being fucked regularly by lots of men. When she had just about reached the end of her tether and appeared to be on the start of a nervous breakdown, it just happened that her boyfriend had to go away and at the same time I happened to ask her out for the first time! She was so grateful to be able to go out with someone who would perhaps be able to keep her boyfriend away from her that she accepted quickly and that was the beginning of our relationship.
When she told me the whole story, I was bewildered and didn't know what to say. I guess at the back of every man's thinking he would like to think the first girl he fucks would be a virgin and also that he would be the only person to have fucked her when they got married. This wasn't going to happen to me - she had been well and truly used by a lot of men!