Secrets and Lies

This is the ending that I had originally planned for the story Secrets and Lies before I decided to let you use your imaginations to provide your own ending. However, so much of the feedback requested closure of the story I have decided to flesh it out into something that I hope is worth reading. If you have not already read Secrets and Lies I suggest you do so as it will help you make sense of this part.

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The story so far

Harry has been married to Susan for 17 years and they have three children aged 14, 12 and 11. Following a road accident their eldest son required a kidney transplant and Harry finds that his wife has told the doctors that he is not the boy's father. Harry leaves Susan and cuts off all contact with her other than that necessary to ensure access to his children. He seeks out the probable father of the child intent on doing him serious damage but instead embarks on a relationship with the man's lovely wife Sarah. Harry is intent on a new life while maintaining his relationship with his children. However, on meeting Sarah, Harry's eldest son, Alex, decides that his father's affair is the cause of his leaving the family home and cuts off contact. Sarah declares her love for Harry but insists that he sorts things out with Susan first. At his first attempt to do so he discovers that Alex is back in Hospital and is unable to continue with Dialysis. A transplant is now the only solution.

Harry insists on a tissue test and is found to be a match. He becomes a live donor for his son. Susan finds him at the Hospital and accepts that she has done wrong but explains that her attempts to have a baby with another man's sperm were carried out using a turkey baster and she has never had sex with anyone other than Harry.

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Now read on

That afternoon they removed the drain from my wound and I got up and got dressed left a note for Sarah and went off in search of Alex. I found him and Susan still in the same room as I had seen them before. He was sitting up and looking fitter than I had seen him in months. As I walked in the door his face dropped and he looked at his mother. She was looking at me with a big beaming smile.

"How are you feeling Harry?" she asked.

"I am fine" I said then turned to Alex. "More to the point how are you young man?"

" OK I guess" he said "They found me a donor and I had a transplant the day before yesterday"

I came close to the bed and grabbed his hand to shake it, I half expected him to pull it away but he didn't.

"I am sorry it has taken me so long to get here," I said. "I hurt my back and couldn't get out of bed for a few days" Susan shot me another smile, reached across the bed, took my hand and squeezed it.

"Hey what's all this?" Alex asked. "Have you two kissed and made up or something?"

"Not exactly" his mother said. "But we have talked and cleared the air between us."

"Yes" I laughed, "she caught me in a position where I couldn't get away. My ears are still ringing."

Alex grinned, "No jokes dad it hurts to laugh"

"What we have done is to open lines of communication." I told him. "Now have you got your phone with you?"

Susan passed the phone from his locker and I punched in my new mobile number.

"That's my new mobile number" I said "please share it with your mum and brother and sister"

"You can get me on that number or you can just call my old office number"

Susan looked at me with a shocked look on her face

"You mean that all this time all I had to do was call your office number to get hold of you?"

"Yeah of course," I said. "I still had to work you know"

Susan and Alex started to laugh until Alex felt his stitches pulling. I stayed for a while and told him how he would have to be more careful in future and reminded him that he would still have all the anti-rejection drugs to take.

"Don't worry dad I know that this is my second chance. Everybody deserves a second chance don't they."

"Yes" I said pretending to miss what he was getting at, "but they rarely get a third."

As I started to leave Susan got up and came to the door. She took my hand in hers and said "Thank you Harry" Then surprised me by going up onto tip toes, kissing me on the cheek and whispering in my ear, "I love you"

I placed my other hand on hers and said "One step at a time Susan, One step at a time".

When I got back to the ward I found Sarah waiting for me at the nurses station. She grabbed my arm and took me back to my room.

"Come on" she said, "You are supposed to be a patient, not a visitor"

As soon as we were back in my room she asked, "So how is he Harry?"

I told her how well Alex looked, and that I had a reasonable conversation with him.

"Did Susan come to see you?" she asked.

"Yes she did" I said "and who told her I was here?"

"Ah, that would be me I guess. Sorry Harry I just couldn't bare the idea of Gary getting all the credit for Alex's recovery"

Sarah told me that the nurses were expecting me to be discharged the following day and assured me that she would be there to collect me.

The following day I was indeed discharged on the condition that there was someone at home to look after me. I lied and told him there was. I gave Sarah a call and asked her to delay picking me up so that I could go and see Alex again.

He was looking great and I had obviously got there before Susan. It didn't take him long to get straight to what he wanted to know.

"You and mum were getting on well yesterday" he said "does that mean you are coming home soon"

"It is too early to say" I told him "There is a lot of hurt to get over first."

"Still, we are talking now so that's a start isn't it"

"Yeah, I suppose" he said

"Anyway" I said, "I will still come over to see you and you are always welcome to come to my house"

"Will she be there?" he asked

"If by she you mean Sarah then yes she may be there from time to time," I told him.

"In that case I would rather not," he said.

"Now listen Alex," I said not trying to disguise my irritation. "Sarah is not the reason that I left your mother."

"No" he said "but she might be the reason you don't come back."

I changed the subject and talked about what he did all day now he was feeling so much better. We talked about how he was going to catch up on his school work. Just as I was about to leave Susan arrived.

"Don't leave on my account Harry," she said.

" I'm not" I said, "I've got someone coming to pick me up and I don't want to keep them waiting"

She decided to walk out with me. As we walked we talked about how I was and about Jacob and Maddy. She guessed who was coming to collect me and as we neared the entrance we could see her through the glass.

"Tell me that is not the little mouse that was Sarah," she said.

I laughed, "Sorry no can do" I said "Are you going to come out to meet her"

"Really Harry, I don't think that is a good idea, do you?"

I left her there and went out to meet Sarah.

"Hi Harry" she said before kissing me "I borrowed this" pointing to a black Audi 4x4, "I thought it would be a bit easier getting in and out of, in your condition."

For the next week she nursed me as much as she could. The biggest downside for me was that she would not risk lovemaking until the stitches were out. That happened some twelve days after the operation. I attended the outpatients department of the local hospital. The girl on reception told me they were about an hour behind schedule and asked me to take a seat. Sarah and I sat side-by-side waiting our turn. After a short while a pretty little nurse came into reception and collected patients notes. Sarah got up and walked over to her. I could see her nodding in my direction and the nurse put her hand over her mouth to stifle a giggle. Sarah came back and sat down.

"Not long now" she said.

The nurse came back into reception.

"Mr Anderson" she called

I followed her to a cubicle where she asked me to pull my shirt up and lie face down on the bed. As I did so she kept giggling to her self.

"Do you know Sarah?" I asked.

"Who" she said then realised and continued "Oh you mean the lady you came in with. No I have never met her before today."

"Well," I said, "the two of you seemed to be sharing a good joke at my expense. Would you mind sharing it with me."

"No it wasn't really at your expense," she said as she started clipping and pulling stitches out. "She told me that you were a live kidney donor and that you had not made love to her since before the operation twelve days ago. Then she said that she was now so horny that if we didn't hurry up she would have to mount you right there in reception."

We both laughed out loud before she got back down to business and finished the job. She was extremely proficient and I was out in a matter of minutes. As I walked through reception I took Sarah's hand.

"Come on" I said, "You and I have things to attend to."

We rushed out of the Hospital and back to the car. She had my belt undone and "Harry's Canon" as she called it in her hands all the way home. By the time we got to my place we were both so eager that we were undressing on the way to the front door. We were down to our underwear when we reached the bedroom. We didn't bother with lunch that day and it was mid afternoon when I asked if she was going to do the school run.

"Mum's doing it for me" she said "you have got me till six 'O' clock"

"Well we had better make the most of it, " I said as I pulled her to me and kissed her.

We were well into some more body exploration when the phone rang. I reached out and picked it up.

"Hello, Harry Anderson"

"I can't believe that this was all I had to do to get hold of you"

"Hello Susan." I said, "What can I do for you"

Sarah started kissing my stomach and moving downwards.

"Alex comes home tomorrow," she said "and we are going to have a coming home party"

"That sounds......n.n.nice," I said as I felt Sarah start to suck a fresh charge into the canon.

" Are you in pain Harry"

"No" I said "just a li.i.i.ttle uncomfortable" I said watching Sarah's head bobbing up and down.

"Not too uncomfortable I hope" she said, "I was hoping that you would come"

"Orgh! I would say that is a distinct possibly," I said as Sarah's nose pressed into my scrotum.

"Are you sure you are all right?" she asked. "I could come over if you need some help."

"No...... I can .. man..age" I said "What time do you want me there?"

"If you could come about four?" said Susan.

"Oh ...." I said "I think it may be earlier than that."

"Whatever Harry. I'll see you tomorrow. Bye"

I said good-bye and hung up. At that point I exploded into Sarah's mouth. I looked down at Sarah sucking the last drops from my dick. I slapped her delicious arse.

"You" I said "are a very naughty girl."

"Are you going to spank me sir," she asked as a smile spread across her face.

We spent the rest of the afternoon playing with pain and pleasure and the fine line between the two until she left me for the day.

I arrived at the party and immediately realised that I shouldn't have come. My mother was there along with Susan's mother and stepfather, my brother Bob and his wife Wendy. In short all the people who wanted me to move back home or know the reason why. Susan seemed overjoyed to see me and greeted me with a kiss on the lips. She was followed by Jacob and Maddy who ran up and hugged me. Even Alex came out to meet me. We had friends, neighbours and friends of the children. Susan had really pushed the boat out. She had cooked the food, which, as usual, was plentiful. She had even bought a case of my favourite beer. Susan fetched me a beer and I tried my hardest to surround myself with non-family members.

"Are you going to avoid your mother all evening then" My mother had managed to pin me down at last.

"I'm sorry mum, I know I have neglected you over the last six months or so. The fact of the matter is that it isn't you I have been trying to avoid, it is the lecture that I think I am going to get now."

"If you mean that I'm going to tell you to stop behaving like a spoiled child then you are right," she said.

My mother thought that Susan was the best thing that had happened to me and for seventeen years I would have agreed. I couldn't tell her why I now had my doubts. If she knew the story she would be screaming for paternity tests and if it showed that they were not mine then she would turn her back on them. The children would never understand why Grandma didn't want to see them any more.

"What has this new woman got that makes you abandon your wife and children?" she asked.

"This new woman as you call her was a result of my problems with Susan, not the cause of them. If it hadn't been for her you might have been talking to me through prison bars right now. If you are looking for someone to blame then blame me or blame Susan but leave Sarah out of it. Unfortunately mum you are doing what you always do, making judgements without knowing the whole story."

"So what else am I supposed to do when nobody will tell me anything? You tell me nothing and Susan only says that it is all her fault."

"Perhaps no one will tell you anything because, quite frankly mum, it is none of your business."

"My son walks out on his wife and my grand children" she was beginning to get loud now "and he tells me it's none of my business. Huh"

Susan came over and rescued me. "She means well," she said as she steered me back towards the kids.

"I know" I said "everybody thinks I am a bastard because I won't tell them the reason for our problems and unless I do they can't believe that it is not my fault. If I do tell them it will have a terrible effect on the kids. God Susan this is killing me I wish I had never come."

I grabbed another beer and took the children out to the garden. Alex, who had seen and heard everything, even gave me a sympathetic look. I sat outside with them for a while chatting about school and their friends. Maddy even asked after Sarah. Bob and Wendy came out to talk to me.

"Well," Bob said "Wendy told me you had changed but if she hadn't I wouldn't have recognised you. Whatever happened to my geeky brother?"

"He met a woman who saw more than a geek in him" I said.

"She certainly did a great job" Bob said. Then went on rather awkwardly "You're right what you said to mum, it is none of our business but you must see Harry, we only want to help and we can't do that if we don't know what the problem is."

"I know that." I said. "I really would like to be able to tell people, if only to stop them thinking of me as the devil incarnate. The problem is, if I did, it would change things forever and I am not prepared to let that happen. I would rather walk on cloven hooves."

He grinned and simply said, "You know where we are Harry, don't be a stranger"

Sometimes it can be surprising where support comes from. Susan's mother, Elaine, has never thought that I was good enough for her daughter. She wanted her to marry some social worker that was destined for higher things. He was running the child protection unit now. It didn't matter that I brought home twice as much cash as the said social worker, I was an engineer and so not worthy of her daughter. John was Susan's stepfather, her father having died young. While Elaine would not even acknowledge my existence. John came over and sat opposite me out in the garden.

"She is not a bad woman you know Harry, a little weak at times but not bad."

"Who are we talking about here John, cos if it's Elaine I might have to disagree with you"

"Susan you fool" he said with a grin. "I only know what she has told me, that it is all her fault and that she has hurt you very deeply. Elaine doesn't believe that, of course, but I have never known Susan own up to something she didn't do. She really loves you Harry, always has. The only time I have ever seen her stand up to her mother was when you asked her to marry you. Elaine was spitting feathers for weeks after she said yes."

"I can imagine," I said with a grin.

"You're a good bloke Harry," he continued "and you spend your life solving problems for one company or another. Think about it Harry, are you sure you can't find a solution for this one. I don't want to see you as one of those sad divorced men taking their kids to the park or the zoo every other weekend. You deserve better than that."

I got us both another beer and we sat and chatted about my work, the state of the world anything really other than Susan and me. However, his words kept coming back to me. Isn't that what I already was, a sad man who saw his kids once a fortnight. John stayed with me for quite some time, until Elaine came over and told him it was time to go. As he stood up he suddenly reached out for the table to steady himself.

"God Harry how strong is that stuff?" he said referring to the beer.

I looked at the label, "six point six per cent by volume." I said.

"Good grief and we have had three or four of them"

"That's it Elaine old girl, you're driving tonight" he said and handed her the keys. He gave me a sly wink as they left.

John's words kept going around in my head. I had seen those men he talked about, in the park or the zoo or McDonald's desperately trying to find interesting things to do in the few short hours that they saw their children. The mere thought of it had me reaching for another beer and then another. By the time the other guests had left Maddy was telling Susan that she thought daddy was ill because he was talking really funny. Susan came out and helped me get up and walk inside. I sat down on the sofa and just let the world go past me. She put Maddy and Jacob to bed and even Alex retired leaving just the two of us.

"I've got to go," I said.

"Harry you are in no fit state to drive, stay here" she told me.

"No I will get a cab" I replied.

"It's ten thirty on a Friday night. All the cabs will be in the town centre ferrying the clubbers" and drinkers around. No one is going to want to come all the way out here to take you to the other side of town. Stay the night here, it is your home after all."

"O.K. Just bring me a duvet and a pillow and I will sleep on the sofa," I said.

"I will do no such thing" she told me " I have been keeping a place for you to sleep for the last six months and you are not going to let it go to waste now."

With Susan on my left side and the banister rail on my right I made my way upstairs to the bedroom.

I was awoken by the sound of voices outside the bedroom door. It slowly opened and Jacob and Maddy came into the room. Maddy was carrying a tray with two cups of coffee and a plate piled high with Marmite toast. "Breakfast" she said.

"Thank you very much" I said "did you do all this yourselves"

"Yes" Maddy said "Alex said your car was still outside and that if we were good you might stay with us today. Will you daddy, will you stay with us today."

"I don't know, it is not my turn this weekend so perhaps we had better ask your mum"

Susan was still lying down with the sheet pulled up to her neck. "Your daddy can stay with us for as long as he likes," she said.

As the kids left the room I picked up my coffee looked down at her and asked "And how often does this happen around here these days?"

"About as often as me waking up naked" she said as she sat up revealing her lovely breasts "and that has been never in the last six months. I have got to say it Harry, even drunk you don't do a bad job."

At the children's suggestion we decided to go to the forest for a picnic. We took Susan's people carrier and put three of the kid's bikes in the back. I suggested that we swing by the house and pick up my bike and Sarah's so we could all have some fun. When we pulled up at the house and Susan just looked in wonder. Five minutes later we had the other two bikes on the rack and were off to forest. We had a picnic by the river and rode through the forest. Susan soon got tired so she and I walked. When she saw Alex speeding down one of the hills weaving in and out of the trees she screamed out in panic. I dropped the bike and ran round to hug her.