"You want me to have an affair," cried my husband. "With my secretary!"
"It's not an affair if I suggest it," I grumbled.
"You know she isn't the same Maya," responded my husband defensibly. "I'm completely over her. You are my present and future."
I took a deep breath. My husband's reaction wasn't unexpected. How many wives would propose that their husbands start an extramarital relationship.
We met in college when I was a freshman and he was a sophomore. I was a 5'8" redhead with an athletic body and a flirty personality. Michael, stood at 5'11 with frat boy good looks and the cocky attitude to go with it. We hit it off from the start and dated for the next three years.
The wrinkle in what would've been a storybook relationship occurred when we agreed to take a gap year when Michael graduated. During our break, I took advantage of my freedom and experimented with a female classmate and after graduation my girlfriend and I went our separate ways and I sought out Michael.
That's when I found out about Maya, not his current secretary, but the original Vietnamese beauty. Standing 5'4" she had the perfect figure, beautiful olive skin, short black hair, a bewitchingly beautiful face and a personality you could not help falling in love with. Combined with Michael's all American good looks, they made a handsome couple, the perfect mix of sugar and spice. Add her flirty personality and wild sex drive and it was no contest. When I told Michael I thought we would only be apart for a year and that I loved him, he told me he was sorry, but he loved someone else.
His statement devastated me, the perfect man for me was with the perfect woman for him, and it wasn't me. I cried myself to sleep that night and several after. It was when I masturbated thinking of Michael that my infatuation started. The image quickly switched to Michael and Maya, resulting in the strongest orgasm of my life. My attitude shifted after that, and for the next six months I had no interest in dating. My sex life consisted of masturbating to the thought of the two of them together.
Then out of the blue, she left him. A few years older, Maya became bored with the relationship and hooked up with an older rich man. Michael was devastated.
It was then that we reestablished our relationship, him losing the love of his life and me gaining mine back. We dated for a year and married. Michael, an ok computer consultant, discovered he was a much better project manager and quickly moved up to division head with a corner office and secretary. I capitalized on my cute but non-threatening looks and outgoing attitude to build a successful real estate practice, and together we led a happy married life. I even got to reap the benefits from Maya's training, as Michael was now a far better lover.
My fantasies of Michael and Maya returned when his secretary retired and he was assigned a new one. Maya, the secretary and not his old lover, was a 5" 4', 20-year-old Hispanic woman with long dark hair and olive skin. Her physical similarities to the original Maya were obvious. So much that Michael tried to downplay the resemblance, stating his new secretary was shy and a little overweight. Not the confident, aggressive femme fatale his old lover was.
However, all those assertions dissolved when I made a surprise visit to his office and saw the woman myself. There was no mistaking that bright smile and bedroom eyes. With a little weight training and a trip to the salon, she would look exactly like the old Maya. It was also obvious that the new Maya had a bit of a crush on my husband. Michael defended himself, stating that the company assigned her, and he had no input. But that made no difference, the connection was made and that night we had the best sex we ever had. My husband's fantasy lover was back.
I started teasing him about his 'work wife' and after he realized I had no issues he started opening up. Maya was a good girl but made poor relationship choices. Both of her high school boyfriends cheated on her, and she even continued to date one while he saw the other woman. After high school she dated an older guy. Because she could not yet drink, he'd hooked up with other women at bars. Her most recent boyfriend broke it off when his wife found out about their relationship, so I knew she would accept being a mistress. It was only her hesitation that kept her from coming on to him. If Michael made the first move, she would willingly accept his advances.
"Michael," I continued, taking hold of his hand. "I love you with all my heart, and I know you love me. When you were dating Maya I was devastated, but I was also highly aroused thinking of the two of you together and got off on your relationship. So much so that I had dreams of being her bridesmaid at your wedding and helping her get dressed for the big event knowing it would be you who undressed her. I even dreamed of watching the two of you making love. When she broke your heart, I was happy to have you back and took a perverse pleasure from being the second choice, yet I was a bit saddened that I lost that fantasy."
"You got a thrill of seeing Maya and me together," questioned my husband. "Is that why you wanted to be our friend? You weren't trying to sabotage the relationship? You wanted to watch?"
"Yes," I whimpered, speaking of my feelings for the first time. "I wanted to be a cuckquean, I got off on the thought of you being with her. In an odd way, I wanted that more than being with you."
"A cuckquean," asked my husband.
"It's a woman whose boyfriend, or husband, has sexual relations with another woman with her blessing," I described. "It is a fetish where a woman is aroused by the sexual infidelity of her partner, and I have it with Maya. Both of them."