WARNING LABEL: Seeing as I keep getting complaints from a minority of readers who wander into my stories expecting refined erotic literature - as if! - I feel obliged to tack a WARNING LABEL on this chapter. This ain't "Literature."
I am not some cultivated geisha. I am not a college educated $1000 an hour Manhattan call girl.
I am barely college educated at all. I finished high school and took in 10 credits, mostly in English courses, at an east Texas community college. That's all the formal learning I've got under my glossy hot pink, two-inch wide vinyl belt.
My stories are my guilty pleasures, and yours if you're into tales about low-income, working class, country folk with low morals and self-destructive habits - not that all low-income country folk are that way but a shitload of us are.
My characters are shallow people because my friends are shallow people and so am I! I hang with mechanics, plumbers, bartenders, general contract laborers and an occassionaly drug dealer or pimp.
Our pleasures are simple and cheap. We watch trashy talk shows, drink cases of beer, and wrestling is a sport!
We've been known to cavort naked in the bayou, and we fuck like there's no tomorrow!
I'm not some dainty, paint-brushed, skinny Internet porn queen. I'm a working mama with real curves, stretch marks and broke-in breasts. I don't have a flat tummy and have given up hope of ever having one.
As a slut, I'm a late bloomer. I got the Devil's religion at age 30.
Some reader's express doubts that such a creature as I could exist or that my life would be an interesting read, yet somehow they don't have a problem with the fact that there are millions of "ladies" displaying themselves on the Internet doing hardcore porn, or that Jerry Springer marches up his stage an endless parade of women who make questionable decisions about what they do with their bodies and what they do with the men in their lives, or that domestic violence is epidemic in this nation and a ton of that has to do with sexual exploitation and the women that gladly put up with it.
I went through a phase where I was slutting and whoring hardcore for 20 months. I'm taking a break now, but I can tell you from my experience and from the women I've since partied with over the past almost three years now, there are sluts everywhere. Nasty bitches, and they're proud of it!
If any of these comments offend your refined senses, read no further. It don't get better. You're wasting your time.
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"SPRING CLEANING AND A VISIT FROM IMELDA"
I was cleaning the house on a Friday afternoon, the week after I got that devoted man of God to fuck me in my bed and cry his guilt-ridden eyes out while his white pecker wilted in my pussy after cumming up my semen depository.
The special significance of that statement should be dissected into two parts.
First part, I was cleaning our single-wide trailer abode, not something I do every day or even once a week. It's more like once a month.
And on this occassion I was especially motivated - and not by the fact that my dear hubby had a "date" scheduled for me the next evening. My dates hardly notice the condition of our living quarters. They are too busy oggling my impure white flesh and poking their hard-ons into every hole I've got.
No, I was motivated by the Friday morning delivery of a package I had ordered off a cable TV shopping channel.
Two bottles with orange scented liquid guaranteed to clean everything, magically converting my hog pen into a citrus scented, nostril pleasing, sparkling bright as diamonds, sterile environment fit for a country clubbing rich woman's baby to crawl around in.
The box came. I said, "Yes!" I flirted with the delivery driver in my baggy house shorts and skimpy tank top.
I wiggled my wide hips in front of him like I was ready to throw myself on him, but just long enough to give him a boner, then sent him on his poor sexually frustrated way. Then I said to myself, "I gotta call the diner. Gotta call in sick. I'm gonna clee-eee-eeen!"
Now normally I'm a slob. Piles of dirty clothes and kids toys all over the house. Piles of junk mail on the kitchen counter, piles of dishes in the sink and on the counter and on the stove. Piles of beer cans around the garbage can. Dust and grime and dried food coated on counters, cum-crusted sheets and the stink of sweat, decaying food crap, and the musky aroma of semen. Grey windows, crusty, spotted faucets. The shit's everywhere.
There's even mold growing in every fourth tupperware tub of leftovers in the fridge, but everybody's got that problem, right?
Well, once awhile I gets me motivated. I just get so sick of it all. Gotta clean! And it helps if "motivation" comes Special Delivery in a package brought to my door rusting off the hinges by a sexy man in shorts. Oh, those hard, hairy legs! Mmmm.
Need I mention it? Cable shopping is inspirational. You should try it.
Second part: By Friday afternoon, I am in a state of heightened sexual anxiety. It wasn't easy resisting the urge to offer the delivery man a blowjob. But I made a promise to myself shortly after my first gangbang to avoid sex during the week. It's a promise I break occassionally - the Edmond affair with my church's youth director is a case in point - but most of the time I keep to it, especially with Randy.
That husband of mine needs to suffer once in awhile, don't you know?
Putting myself on a 'sex diet,' I believe, makes the weekend sex party more pleasureable. Instead of 'snacking' during the week, my attention is focused on what is going to happen to me on Saturday nights.
Saturday nights didn't always go well. Some of the men I was introduced to were lousy sex partners. I would request that they not be invited back, but that request was not always respected. But even a semi-hard cock is better than none when I haven't had any for seven days and nights.
Back to Friday, I'm working my broad butt off, bending over, getting to my knees, crawling on all fours, stroking this, rubbing that, sweating like a Mexican whore working a soccer team, and not a cock in sight. I was putting my fingers and rags into the most seldom seen netherworldly places: behind the toilet, under the garbage can, below the kitchen sink trap, along the running boards and a jillion other disgusting spots.
Wiping wallpaper, mopping linoleum, swiping window sills - all those moldy corners and cracks. Polishing pipe and in between it all catching up on load after load of laundry. Four hours of this and I'm plumb wore out when the phone rings.
It's Imelda, Chuey's better half. I'm beating her to the first word and going on about my cleansing experience, and inwardly happy 'cuz I've wore out my sexual anxiety. All the scrubbing just to get the obsessive mantra of "Gotta fuck, gotta fuck, gotta fuck," quieted down in my screwy head.
I'm back into my decent, righteous mind and she calls, which is mentally dangerous for me 'cuz she's liable to talk about some dirty sex. She's such a gossip about who's fucking who, so I'm not too eager to keep this conversation going. But on most occasions, I'd be greatful for her company. Since joining her circle of wicked friends, Imelda had become my most trusted counselor and a true friend. Most of the women that visited on our Saturday romps were true whores, girl sluts much younger than Imelda or me, and I could see Imelda was as uncomfortable with most of them as I was.
Most importantly, Imelda did more than anyone to advise me and help protect me in containing the influence of Roland the pimp.
Roland, an ever-present malevolent force, had too much influence over my husband. Randy, I swear, looked up to Roland, like he was some fucking role model. And Roland was giving my Randy young black bitch pussy on the side whenever Randy wanted it. It was part of their arrangement that gave Roland a say in who I fucked.
I feared, personally feared, Roland.
He had a way of dealing with me, talking to me and dominating my space that made me weak. I felt he could see in my eyes that if he were to force his will on me, I'd leave Randy some day to be just another one of his streetwalkers, just so I could - what? How did he make me want to take the punishment he dished out?
He brought the masochist in me out more than anyone and made me hate myself more than anyone. Imelda was the 'Angel' at my shoulder, balancing out the 'Devil' on my other side. She was my interceptor, helping to keep distance between me and that evil man.
My fear of Roland began with how he treated me on that first gangbang, and how intimidating he was not just to me but with the people around me. What made it all worse was an incident two weeks later. He called me up. I was alone. He was talking dirty to me, trying to engage me in phone sex. I would not hang up on him as I should have. I just kept listening to him and begging him to let me be:
"You gonna be my Ho, bitch," he said as if it was a foregone conclusion.
"Nooo," I whined.
"Yeahhh, I know you want somme more ah what I put up yo pussy, bitch. I knows a Ho when I seez one and I knows a Ho fo certain when I fuck her like I fucked you, Terry. You wanna strut yo shit in front my boyz, dontcha? Wanna give it away to alla the bruthas."
"No, nooo, leave me be, Roland," I'd tell him. "You fucked up cracker slut, getchyer big white ass ovuh here. I'm making a booty call on yer moneymaker, bitch!" he demanded.
He got me horny. He got me wet and begging him to stop, but I wouldn't cut him off. He just kept talking shit to me for 45 minutes and I just kept listening to it and getting weaker. It got to where I couldn't resist anymore and I gave in and drove to his place.
I dressed down to red bikini shorts, a pink tube top with a white mini-vest, red vinyl hi-heels, a push-up black bra and black thongs. Roland wanted me to show up looking like a ho ready for work.
Roland's place is a bar half-way to Houston, in the northeast suburbs. It's a 35-minute drive from my trailer.
The ground floor is a bar with pool tables. There's a second floor with six bedrooms, three on either side of a long hall that you reach from a set of stairs in the far back of the bar. You get to the stairs by leaving the bar and going into a storage room.
I kept thinking the whole way that he was going to imprison me in a room and force me to smoke crack until I was hooked. But then I'd reassure myself that it wouldn't happen that way, that he wouldn't dare mess with a woman from his hometown 'cuz a lotta menfolk close to him would retaliate.
I must've been in a self-destructive state of mind. I can only explain the fascination as being like watching a horror movie and then wanting to be in the horror movie. I was obsessed with the danger, with the risk-taking, with the adrenalin and sexually charged excitement that came with being in the presence of true evil.