Preface: Before I start this chapter, I just want to mention it's been six months since I submitted my last story.
There's two reasons for that. First is I gave birth to a baby boy last September and that kept me busy.
Second is I did some soul-searching and didn't like what I saw about myself. The marriage years leading up to my first gangbang, I felt I could blame my behavior on my husband, on how he pressured me. But what I became after that, I can't blame on nobody but me. I done some things with men and women that is just plain evil and it don't square with the image of myself I wanted. Looking back further, I come to realize that even years before, I was dishonest with myself somewhat about the kind of woman I am. Well, it is what it is.
Moving on, I start this next chapter four months after my first gangbang.
It was a Saturday morning in late November 2005 and I'm 30 years and four months old. It's the last four months I skipped because that was just a series of wicked weekends with wicked men and me willingly letting them abuse me in the privacy of my home.
But on this day I was with the church youth group at a car wash, helping with a fundraiser. I had not been involved with the church youth before I started fucking Randy's friends, but after that first gangbang I felt a need to spend more time in church.
This may seem strange and illogical behavior, but my guilt over my immoral sexual behavior grew as my domestic life got wilder and nastier.
I felt a need to balance out my karma by being more involved in church activities, kind of like Catholic girls that figure they can run around all Saturday night, then wash their faces in the morning, go to confession and say a few Hail Marys.
It wasn't just enough to get the kids to church Sunday mornings. No, now I was getting to church for Sunday evening service and sometimes even the Wednesday bible studies. I was more prayerful, too.
There was a lot of "Please help me Lord beat this sexual addiction. You know I don't want to, but I can't help myself. I love that wicked life. The flesh is weak! Oh God, have mercy on me."
Sigh -- me and my mixed up head.
The youth director took to noticing I was being more active. Actually, five weeks after that first gangbang he came up to me after a Sunday evening service and asked if I'd be interested in being his assistant with the youth program. He could use some help corraling them antsy teens, as they had a tendency to wander off during structured activities.
This required some time commitment. They met every Friday evening for rehearsals for their music activities in the Sunday program. And they spent Saturday mornings together on various activities such as cleaning around the church property, visiting with other church youth groups and fundraisers.
I thought: "Thank you Lord for showing favor on me. I'm usefull for something besides whoring."
But that secret life I was living was roaring along. My Saturday nights, and even some Fridays were wicked affairs of drunken debauchery. I was getting sandwiched so much by double and triple cock action I was thinking of changing my middle name to mayonaisse.
Listening to the youth minister ask me for spiritually uplifting favors came fresh on the heels of a Saturday night not 24 hours old where Randy had three Mexicans, ''distant relatives of Chuey's'' he said, over to cock slap me.
They was heavy breathers all, sitting me on the sofa, I was riding atop one and sucking off the other two, turning my head right and left to swallow brown bazookas while the beaner I was riding chewed my bid ole' nipples til they was red and stinging.
They chatted some vulgar Spanish at me the whole time. I didn't hardly understand a word of it but I could tell they was thrilled to be having such a nasty time with a 'guera putona,' that's a big-time whoring, blonde-haired white woman.
Well, don't they have a way with words!
I still dressed modestly in public - in fact, I dressed even more modestly than before. I'd become obsessive about my public appearance of modesty because more men knew what I really was and I got a lotta of lewd looks and rude comments at the diner where I waitressed the lunch crowd still, and around the trailer park where my activities where most obvious; the Saturday night gangbangs could get noisy and anyone passing by could see there was a lot of happy, low-life looking men going in and out my domicile.
Randy went to a lot of trouble to respect my wishes for discretion, though. He didn't want to lose a good thing after all the trouble he'd gone to, to turn his wife into a 'pass-around slut.' That was one of the easy references his friends had for me.
The men he brought around couldn't have any association with the social circles I hung around in. They couldn't be close to my family or my church world.
This usually involved inviting men from neighboring small towns, and that involved using his business contacts in the mechanics and drag racing circles. What I didn't know in the early months was that it also involved using Roland-the-Pimp's "business" contacts. Randy was bringing colored men to me that had paid Roland fuck a white trash MILF slut and Randy was passing them off as his own contacts!
But I figured that out two months into this activity when one of those black ballers came by during a weekday unannounced - knocked on my door on a Tuesday morning at 10 a.m. just as I was getting ready to head over to the diner! He offered me $50 for a blowjob and we got to talking and I realized Roland and Randy had been making income off of me and not telling! The bastards.
Well, I ain't stupid. I took his money, took his black ass in the bedroom and licked and sucked balls and cock for 20 minutes until he shot his jizz all over my face. We both left happy and I started making Randy give me a cut of the Roland connections.
I underestimated how many men would be fucking me. I had this idea in my head in the early days that it would never be more than maybe 10 men. I figured that becauase there was only about 10 men Randy was that close to.
But surprise! Men have their own lives to live. They have wives and fiances and girlfriends. They have people that they don't want knowing they're doing this kind of thing. So Randy's buddies were only occasional sex partners of mine.
And it wasn't always easy, I also learned, to organize a gangbang.
I was surprised to find out (I don't know why, I should have figures this out quick, it's common sense) that some men are too shy or modest or morally upright to participate in a gangbang. They don't want to perform in that way with other men looking.
What with all these constant changes in the lineup, the number of different men that got the privilege of being intimate with Mrs. Teresa the church-going slut grew to 21 in the first four months!
Now, to my shame, I learned by some of the rejections we received that some men just don't fuck a "nasty skank that would fuck just anybody." I also learned to my hypocritical moral standards that some racist fucks won't put their extra precious special white cocks where a black man's been. I say hypocritical moral standard because look at me: a slut going to church!
Oh, I clung tight to my old life. I so wanted my friends and family to continue to think good things of me.
I desperately didn't want to disappoint them. But you can't always have it both ways. And that I was to learn soon enough.
Edmond, that was the youth director, was younger than me by a few years. He was 28, had been married nine years to JoAnne and she was 27 and they had a 6-year-old girl. From what I could tell, Edmond and his seriously overweight wife were lukewarm to each other in the sexual department. It was my guess all he got out of her was the missionary position, and then not very often.
I knew from her own lips that she disapproved of oral sex and I couldn't imagine her letting him give it to her up the ass.
Now me being a slut, of course, I thought about these things when I was around him.
I was older than her, but easily better looking. So the idea of me spending extra time with Edmond soon appealed to my dark side. After a few weeks of working with him, I could see he liked to eye my ass and tits when he thought I wasn't looking, and even sometimes when he knew I was looking.
I did not wear revealing clothing in his presence, but I had my ways with my eyes and body language, of letting him know I enjoyed the looks he threw my way.
By the time I had got myself to that November car wash fundraiser I had been shaking me ass and tits in his face for near to two months. I was teasing him, discretely, but teasing him. I wanted to see how long it would take him to break down and make a pass at me.
I smiled at him long and often, gave him approving looks when his eyes wandered down to my chest, and when I got up and walked around at some youth activity, once the children were out of sight, I'd show my backside to him and bend over and rub my ass - the dress might be loose-fitting but the hands helped him see the sweet, lusty curve of my 44 hips and the inviting great divide of my ass cheeks.
At the car wash, I was in a loose-fitting pair of yellow shorts and a XX-large green t-shirt with printed letters across my 40D chest that said: 'Honk for Jesus.' But on this day, I left the panties and bra at home and, wouldn't you know it, I had an 'accident' with the water and got my chest wet.
The boys and girls in the youth group were wide-eyed at the sight of my soaked-hugging t-shirt and the shapely 40D tits - nipples and all popping out even more. There were immodest laughs at the provocative sight of me in a wet t-shirt, but my jugs stopped traffic and we made a killing.
Edmond was red-face for a while. And he struggled with trying to hide a boner. I flaunted my body in front of him like I never had before. The teens were whispering to each other at the obvious flirtations I made toward their spiritual mentor.
I even got in front of him once, bent over and stroked my ass crack against his hard boner. He was terrified we'd be seen and begged me to stop in a hysterical whisper. He was also terrified, I suspect, of cumming right then and there.
I had arranged for him to be my ride to the car wash. That was a tense ride for him, all horny to start the day and me telling him on the way to the car wash that I believed he wanted to have sex with me and that if that were so, "I'm willing and it will be our secret. I won't cause you no problems with your Mrs."
He squirmed! Didn't say anything, just turned beet red.
Well, naturally, he was my ride back to my trailer and I had arranged that no one would be home when we got there. On the way back, I took command. I was in cheerful spirits and feeling devilish. He protested weakly, but did nothing physically to dissuade me when on the way home I lay my hand on his hard cock. I unzipped his pants and gave him a gentle handjob while he drove us to my bed.
I kept gentle pressure on his cock so as not to force him to cum too soon.
We got to my driveway, Edmond's cumload still boiling in his ballsack. I smiled at him and said, "You can cum inside now."
He shook his head, his hands shaking, "No, Terry. I think I should leave."