Monday morning I pampered myself after I'd seen Randy off to work and took the kids to my sister's for the day.
Randy had sex with me the previous night. He was hornier than usual, in anticipation of the three-way he had planned for me later in the week.
Although a day hadn't been set; he hadn't even talked to Manny yet.
I wasn't feeling quite as horny as he when he started, but he got me in the mood. It was a respectable fuck, just enough action to get my 'O' and then he was out and I slept dirty, sticky and content.
Thinking about Billy, I took a hot shower, shampooed and painted my finger and toe nails green. I put on green eyeshadow. I had a pair of pastel green hi-cut briefs and dark green nylon hose that came to mid-thigh.
I looked at my thick thighs. Looked at myself in the mirror, pushed up my tits and made kissy faces. I had been wearing a short cut bob last year, but was letting my brown hair grow.
It was wavy, full-bodied and a couple inches south of my shoulders now.
I went to the drawer and pulled out a lace aqua green comfort bra. I wasn't happy with the greens, they didn't match and the bra was old and fraying at the edges. But what the hell, my body looked so fine and anyway: I was trailer trash! A man would have certain expectations.
I put on an coral tiered dress. It was a faux silk of nylon and polyester with shoulder straps the showed off my shoulders and a V-cut that barely showed the top of my chest cleavage. I put on a fake pearl necklace, smokey purple pearls, wiggled into my green vinyl pumps and got out of that ratty trailer.
Made it to Billy's house by 9:45 a.m. He greeted me at the door with a smile and took my hand and kissed it. He was such a gentleman! I knew why I was there.
Randy never treated me like a lady. From day one - but being a teenager when we met and eager to start my lessons from the boy the rep as a slutmaker, what did I expect? - Randy had
always treated me like I was a dirty slut.
In bed, in the kitchen, in front of his friends.
Now that I was about to let him turn me out, I just wanted to know what it was like to be with someone who had this whole different idea of relations between the sexes.
Holding me hand as we walked into the living room, Billy said, "I've been thinking of you ever since your last visit.
Well, even long before that. But especially since we ... "
I embraced him and we kissed passionately. I wanted him. He was melting my heart. We broke kiss, stared at each other and smiled. I walked with him some more and he offered me a seat in his breakfast nook.
"Would you like something to drink?" he asked. We sat next to each other and I nodded a 'no.' I ran my hands through his gray hair and admired the weathered face of a man who had spent his life outdoors nurturing trees.
I leaned in and kissed him again.
Then with my face by his ear, I said, "I'm just here to make love to a sweet, sweet man. You make me feel like a good person, Billy."
"You are a good person, Terry."
I felt myself stiffen at that statement.
"I wish sometimes I were, Billy, but I'm not. I'm a ... so-so person. Sometimes, I'm a bad person."
"Well, maybe I can help you with that," he said.
We sat and look out into his back yard and I admired the tall trees and all the birds and I asked him the names of the trees. As we talked, my hand explored his lap and I aroused his cock. In a moment he groaned and I looked at him and knelt to the floor. I unzipped his pants and scooped the semi-hardon out.
"Did you take your Viagra this morning, Billy?"
"No, Terry. I don't think I'm going to need it with you."
I smiled and sucked his cock, watching the appreciation in his eyes and he silently, with bittersweet expression, watched me work his member. I closed my eyes and felt his hand so gently caress my hair it made me want to cry.
I slowly stroked his cock in and out of my wet, warm mouth, and softly thumbed his testicles. Cupping the jewels in my hand and lightly scratching the backs of his balls, and stopped my bobbing suck and held his cockhead in
my mouth, tongue swaying left and right under the head, my teeth gripping his manhood.
My other hand massaged his hairy thigh and I enjoyed the continuing caress of his hand through my brown hair. There was no dirty talk from him, no grabbing my hair, no skull-fucking, no thought of it. He held me like a man in love,
I felt his love for me. I felt an anger build up in me from the knowing that I never felt Randy act this way. But that subsided.
I wondered, was I trained to be a slut before I had a chance to know true love?
Was it right that I let Randy involve me in three-ways, and in the gangbangs I knew would follow? But I felt my fate sealed, for my own lust and fascination with such sex seemed all-consuming.
No, I would sneak away to Billy when I wanted this. This other special thing.
WHen Billy was good and hard, I lifted my head and gently jacked his cock with my hand. "I want you now, Billy. Put it in me."
We went to the living room sofa. I didn't want to wait to get to his bedroom. I had him sit slouched on the leather seats and I straddled him. He gladly succumbed to the weight of me and admired my 175-pound, 5-foot-7-inch frame.
I had stripped in front of the sofa, leaving on only my nylon leggings and pearl necklace.
I tucked his cock into my wet pussy and slowly rocked my hips into him. We looked at each other and he took my 40-D white tits into the
palms of his hands, holding them firmly.
"You like my tits, Billy?"
"I love your breasts, Terry. I love all of you. You're a beautiful, shapely, incredible woman."
"Suck my nipple."
I leaned in and kept a slow stroke in rhythm and he sucked at my big right nipple, the diameter of it was wide as a beer can.
I held his cock in my snapper, squeezing it only occassionally. I didn't want him to cum.
I kept telling him, "Talk to me, Billy. Tell me if I need to go faster. Do you need me to squeeze it more?"
He got the idea. At 58, he was going to need me to respond correctly and swiftly to his commands. We found we
communicated well at this. Finally, he said he couldn't hold it anymore. I debated stopping to let his urge
subside, but we had been at it almost 30 minutes.
I didn't think I should push him anymore. So I sped up and told him, "It's okay, Billy. Cum. Cum inside me. I want your cum in me."
* * *
When Randy got home Monday night, he told me Manny had agreed to the threesome. I tensed. At his prodding - he
was eager to talk about it - I said I was eager to do it. I pretended it would be fine, but he could see I was
nervous. He stroked my big bottom and tried to assure me, "It'll be alright, Terry. You'll see. You're gonna
love it."
That's what I was afraid of. That I was going to love it - too much. My anxiety grew all through the night.
I couldn't sleep. I woke up weary and my anxiety kept turning in my abdomen like bad food.
Through the next day I was so antsy, just fighting off waves of anxiety. I was horny and sick and tense, like all my wires were being pulled out and getting all jumbled.
What was happening to me?
I went to the sex toy box like a heroin addict screaming for a fix and spent the morning fucking my pussy viciously with a 12-inch dildo. I wanted it to hurt. I came. And I kept going. I came again. I just would't stop and
I was beyond exhaustion. Hours passed and it came time to go to work.
I took a cold shower, dressed in bluejeans and a blouse for my shift at the diner. When I got to the car, my thighs were shaking. I couldn't open the car door. I looked back at the trailer. I turned, went back inside,
took my pants off, got my Rocket Pocket and snipped a hold in the bottom of the left pocket of my jeans.
I took off my panties and left them on the floor. I put my jeans on and shoved that little vibrator up my pussy, zipped up and went to work. I worked a three-hour shift with tissue stuffed around my crotch to hide the fuck
juice from my customers. I had to go to the restroom four times to change tissue. I kept asking myself, why
am I doing this? This is crazy.
I knew. I knew it was the tension of anticipation, of the impending transformation. I knew I was terrified of Randy turning me into a whore.
When we turned in that Tuesday night for bed, I wouldn't let him touch me. I didn't want sex. Not with him. Not with Manny. I wanted Billy. I felt like he was my salvation and it was slipping away. I was falling into a
deep, filthy underworld from which I would never return.
Over the next few days, I couldn't get our scheduled Saturday threesome off my mind. I was tense, irritable. On Friday evening when Randy got come from work, I called it off. I told him
I just couldn't go through with it. He tried to talk me down, calm me down. I wouldn't be reasoned with. I was so upset.
It turned into a big fight and he nearly gave up. He called Manny and said it didn't look like it was happening.
The fighting continued off and on into the next day. But he finally broke me down.
He threatened to leave me and take the kids, and that scared me worse than the threesome.
It helped that he was ate my pussy as reward for my renewed cooperation. The shit.
But I had some conditions. I just didn't want it getting around that I was doing that.
Could he please be more discreet than he had been in the past, I begged.
And I wanted my first time with Manny to be alone. He was pissed at that but I wouldn't budge.
He agreed to that, "Anything you want to get you started, baby."
So, finally, the Saturday came that I was supposed to be Manny.
That Saturday morning I took my daughter to her grandma after breakfast, came home to a quiet
and lonely trailer. I spent hours in the master bathroom assessing myself. It occurred to me that for
a guy like Manny who had killer looks and a big reputation for seducing beautiful women, that I might
not be much of a catch. I felt like for him this was some kind of favor fuck for his old buddy.
I didn't think I wanted to be treated like an "I'm doing my buddy a favor fuck by nailing his
fat old lady!"
I excercised for over an hour, toning up my curves. I sweated, oh my. I worked out until I was
so shaky I couldn't stand up anymore.
I looked in the full-length mirror at my naked self, talking to myself:
"Okay, Terry. You're 30 years old. 5 feet, 7 inches tall, a big girl with big jugs."
Pushing up my tits, I made a lewd face and said, "40-D tatas, Manny. Mmmmmmm, you want a hot
nasty titty-fuck?"
I got back on the weight scale: "173 pounds today. That's a couple pounds below the usual."
I had a 40-32-44 figure, some stretch marks on my tummy that weren't all that noticeable, but
the cellulose on the back of my thigh was just annoying me to the ends of my frazzled ego.
"Fuck it," I said. "I am what I am."
I cooked some lasagna for Manny and tossed a salad, hoped he like salad. I got dressed in the
white bikini short and wide leather belt outfit with the small white vest and red lacy bra that I had
first put on in Houston when I went whoring on a lark, the one Randy had caught on video.
I anticipated correctly that Randy had told Manny about that and he would be looking forward
to seeing me dressed that way.