Quotes From A Diary

Hi, I'm Jennifer (Jenny) Boyd. I grew up underprivileged in a dilapidated trailer and with a poor self-image. In my teenage years I was pretty ordinary looking. I did have one desirable characteristic throughout my life, however -- I never got even a small amount of excess fat on my body. Because of my high metabolism I quickly burned up everything that I ate and because of my lack of money when growing up I was skinny.

After I matured I also had one other desirable characteristic that I didn't realize until later -- that's part of my story.

I made it to 18 despite my parents and the poor schools that I attended, not because of them; and with some luck. I had no parental or societal supervision or assistance whatsoever. I was just trailer trash.

I'm telling my story through unedited diary entries, which I religiously kept most of my life. In my early years as an adult I have included lots of entries; as I get toward age 34, which I will be in 2022, the frequency of entries I'm sharing lessens.

I know that my lifestyle in years past is not what good parents want for their daughters, but since I had to make my way with zero parental or societal positive involvement maybe you'll cut me some slack and realize that in some ways I've done way better than could be predicted for trailer trash. If you don't cut me some slack, then fuck you and the ass that you rode in on.

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July 5, 2006

So now I ternned 18 this day. I ain't gonna goes back toward Hi Skool next fall cause I get an A in math but Ds and Fs in everthin else so's I ain't gettin any degree. Since I gots a job of work at the plant swepping floors I can lives OK and it sure's better then skool. To celebrigth my big day I lets Johnny Rebar fuck me, my first ever. It's OK, but I ain't sure he does it rite.

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Sept. 7, 2006

Me and Johnny Rebar have gone kinda steady like the last too months so's I'se startin to like him more. He seems to fuck btr. than the first time and I'se got a bc shot at a clinic so know pregnant gonna happn. He likes it for me to suck cock so I does it but no really likin it.

I'se don't no why he don't like my ass. Johnny kept tellin He likes big buts, an I cant help I'm thin.

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Dec. 12, 2006

Johnny asked me to mary him. He aint got a ring yet but says his next paychek wil get him one. I said yes cause I'm havin trouble payin rent and he says too can live as cheaplike as one. We gonna get maryed in Valentin Day.

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Feb. 14, 2007

Well today Johnny and I got hitched. I gues I'm Jenny Rebar now. It was real nice, cept for one thing. Johnny got drunk and couldn get it up that nite. Anyway I hadda finger myself and it was OK, I gues.

Feb. 15, 2007

Johnny was real like embaresed bout las nite. He did fuck me real good at a motel, the firs one I ever staid in. Didn't like the matres much, but it was two nicer fucks, an I sucked his cock tween em.

Feb. 16, 2007

Our honey moon was two fas, but at lest we got away one nite. I didn't go inna work cause we's got back late. I wil go in tomorro, Satrday, cause we needs the money. Johnny says we can take a weding trip latter on to make up for short honey moon.

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April 20, 2007

I herd at work today that if I get a GED I can gets a job of work doin machine stuf on the floor cause I'se been a grate sweeper. I'd get 4 dollar / hour more. Johnny says we cant aford the $150 cost of GED class or my time away froms the house, so we fogt bout it.

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July 20, 2007

Me and Johnny took a 3 day wkend as a late celebrit for my bday and weddin trip. The place near the beech we stay at aint the best cause the bath aint in the room, but Johnny says its all we can cost, an anyways we're gonna be at the beech most a the time.

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July 23, 2007

This is gonna be the most I ever rote bout something. Since it is Im havin my friend Doris right it; I tells her everythin; she rights real good and smart cause she has a year of communitie colege. So this's Doris riting for me:

Johnny and I both got drunk Saturday night, the 21st. It was the most drunk I ever got. It was real hot in our room so I slept in the nude. When I got up to go to the bathroom down the hall I forgot I was nude, and the door closed on me coming back to our room. I pounded a little but Johnny didn't wake up.

I was standing in front of the door nude figuring out what to do when this big guy comes up the stairs into the hallway. I tried to cover up, but don't know if I did a good job; I thought one of my tits was easy to see. He gets this wide-eyed look at me and asks what's going on. I tell him; he says he can get me a shirt, and opens the door to his room.

I probably shouldn't have gone in, but like I said, I was drunk, so I did. When I get in his room he real nice like -- not mean or nasty -- moves my hands away from my tits. "You got the most perfect round tits, and ellongate [note from Doris; I looked it up and I think that she means "elongated"] nipples I've ever seen." Well Johnny is an ass man, not a tit man, so he never commented on my tits so I didn't think they were anything special; but this guy -- said his name was George -- really smiled looking at them.

I got a little shy and tried to cover my tits up again, but he held my hands fast -- although real gentle like. I told him he was embarrassing me and asked for a shirt, so he let's my hands go and pulls a big-ass T-shirt out of a drawer. Then he surprises me.

"Tell you what," he says, "if you let me suck on those perfect round tits and your nipples for twenty minutes I'll give you $100," and he pulls a $100 bill out of his jeans pocket.

"What the fuck?" I'm thinking to myself. Shit, $50 more and I could take that GED course. Remember I'm still pretty drunk, but Johnny hardly ever sucks my tits -- he just wants his tube sucked -- so I think no harm, no fowl. So I says to him "$150 for thirty minutes and you got a deal."

He fumbles round a little more in his pockets and pulls our more folding money -- seems like a lot of cash for a guy staying in a dump like this motel -- and eventually hands me a $100 bill, two twenties and a ten. I got no place to put it, but there's a table near the door so I put it there.

George lays me down on one of the two beds in the room real nice and gentle like. Then he starts sucking my tits and saying about how perfect round they are, and how my nipples are like pencil erasers. It seems that he's really enjoying himself and I'm starting to really like it also. In fact after a while I really, really like it. My nipples are almost like vibrating and I'm starting to sweat and get turned on. I don't have a real place for my hands so I put one on his neck.

Before I know it I'm moaning real loud like, and then suddenly I get off. I mean I never got off much before even from Johnny fucking me -- although it's really nice -- but here I'm getting off just from this George guy sucking my nipples and massaging my tits which I now know are round and he says that's really great.

I know that I got off at least three more times from him working on my tits; I don't know how long that took, probably more than the 30 minutes I allowed him, but at that point I'd have paid him, so I didn't care. I'm all sweating and hot both from sex and temperature when he whispers "I gotta fuck you." At that point in time I'm so hot sexually I don't say no, so next thing I find out there's this big fucking wang over me.

I found out later that George ain't circumcised and I never saw a cock like that before -- Johnny's is cut and about 25% smaller than this tool. He straddles me and slowly puts his big tool into my little V-Jay. Once he's buried he starts stroking and suddenly I'm fucking losing it. My nerves and brain get fried and I'm cumming like a volcano. I must have passed out for a while cause when I came to George's prick is laying next to me, out of my V-jay, and he's smiling like a possum.

"What the fuck?" I said a bunch of times. Now I felt so good that I wasn't mad, but I hadn't agreed to let him fuck me. So I said "I didn't say you could fuck me," and he says "I couldn't help it. Sucking your tits was so nice I was about to burst. If I give you another fifty will you be happy -- you sure seemed to enjoy it, that's the most I ever had a fuck squirm and squeal."

I think, "OK -- he's right; I did enjoy it and it's not like I set out to cheat on Johnny so I say it out loud; OK." He gets up, his wang swinging back and forth, and pulls some more bills out of his jeans and puts them by the table.

Then George says "Here's a T-shirt for you. Why don't you try to get back into your room; if you can't come back here and you can spend the night."

His T-shirt comes down to my knees when I put it on. I go back to my room and pound on the door, but not so loud as to wake up other people. After ten minutes I go back to George's room and rap lightly on the door. He lets me in with a big smile on his face, still buck naked with his wang swinging back and forth. He gives me a couple of shots of vodka -- just what I needed, like NOT,

I crawl into the second bed in the room and pass out more than fall asleep. I have two very sexy dreams. Both times some guy is spooning me and fucking me like crazy. I get off really hard both times. I think that they're dreams until the next morning when I wake up George is spooning me -- and then I look over to the other bed in the room, the one where George sucked my tits -- and see another big dude laying in it.

I crawl out of bed, and look at my V-Jay and white stuff is running out of it like from a faucet, and I suddenly think I was actually fucked twice in the middle of the night.

I'm more disgusted than pissed, and I wonder whether the other dude fucked me in addition to George. Anyway I walk to the door -- both guys are still asleep and I think they have big smiles on their faces and the guy in the other bed has an uncircumcised wang even bigger than George's with a glassy sheen -- looks like they really enjoyed fucking me -- and on the table there's not $200, like I left it, but $300; a $100 bill, six twenties, seven tens and two fives. I guess at least they paid to fuck.

I look at the clock in George's room and it says 7:33, obviously in the morning. I walked out into the hallway, go to the communal bathroom, shower all of the jism and sweat off me, and get the jism out of my cooch the best that I can. There's no towel from my room but the Big-ass T-shirt that George gave me is enough for a towel and coverup.

I pound on the door to our room, and finally Johnny answers, obviously having just gotten up he's so bleary eyed. "What the fuck?" he says.

"I went to shower and locked myself out. There was no towel but I found this big ass T-shirt in the bathroom so I put it on to dry me off." Then I walk right past him, take off the T-shirt and get into bed. He comes in next to me, but falls asleep again, obviously hungover.

I can't sleep. I keep thinking "Do I really have perfect round tits and big sensitive nipples. I mean, come on, I got off three times from George sucking me alone, not counting the three pussy fucks which also got me off." These things keep rolling around in my mind. I'm getting hotter and hotter sexually. I look at the clock and it says 8:41. I roll Johnny over and start playing with his dick. Even though it's not a monster like George's or the other guy's it's the size I want and I like it better without foreskin so I start sucking on it.

Johnny's cock reacts and gets hard. He wakes up as I'm mounting him. I start bouncing on him like I am on a trampoline and soon he is grunting like a boar and spewing jism into my V-jay like a fire hose and I cum so hard I almost pass out. When he recovers he asks "What the hell happened to you?"

"You liked it?" I ask with a smile.

"Fuck yeah -- whatever got you juiced up to do that, do it again!" he laughs.

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July 27, 2007

I call up about a GED since I'se got twice the money I needs for it -- and Johnny aint got know ideas bout it. I can star Septmbr 4, rite affer Labor Day. After work I brung em $150 cash and gets a list o books. I go by the books latter that day.

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Sept. 4, 2007

This is the #1 GED clas. The teach is Mrs. Morton, and she's reel nice. I'se happy findin out that I ain't needin as many credits as I thoughts so's if I works hard maybe I kin get my GED in 6 months.

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Oct. 9, 2007

Mrs. M is really helpin me. She likes me. Shes specially workin on my riting since she says its poor. Shes givin tips on spellin and other things and tells me to draft my dairy enters and thens correct em and do em final in my dairy.

Class is good cept too guys keep tellin me what nice titties I got and they aint even seen em bear.

I keeps asin Johnny if Ise got perfect round tits but he just says "they's nice," but never complement me.

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Dec. 4, 2007

I am trying reel hard to right beter. Mrs. M says I'm making progress. I now put a g at the end of words like "being" and "doing" and I look up some spelling in a dictionary (including 'dictionary,' lol). One of the guys in class -- Daryl -- makes lots of doe walking hi up on steel in constructing a skyscraper. He offered me 200 bucks to see and suck my nude titties. I need an Xmas present for Johnny so I may do it -- but no fucking like with George in the dump motel.

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Dec. 13, 2007

I found out yesterday that I cant let guys suck my tits cause it leds to fucking. Daryl sucked my tits at his apartmnt for some time and I got off so much that when he went to fuck me I didn't stop him. I was pissed after, and told him so, so he gave me $400 and kept telling me how perfect my round titties is. Today I got Johnny a staireo for Xmas for $359.45. Also I fucked Johnny real good at night. He loved it. 'best since the motel," he grined. I did wondr if hed think that ifs he new that Daryl fucked me earleer.

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Dec. 26, 2007

We went to Johnny's folks for Xmas yesterday cause my mom's trailer burned up a few days ago, but Johnny's folks were nice enough to invite her. Johnny loved the staireo. He got me a real nice necklace with a stone pennat. It was a good time until Johnny's drunk older brother said "Nice titties," and squeezed my left one. I needed him in the balls; he stayed down groaning a long time and I played all innocent. Lol.

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Jan. 18, 2008

I got a surprize this Friday, payday. The leadman told me Id transfer to another job and get $2 per hour more. When I got home and told Johnny he fucked me real nice. I asked him to suck my titties but he did a p-e-r-f-u-n-c-t-o-r-y (I just learned that word from Mrs. M last week) job, but I still sucked his cock. He's never told me I have perfect round titties but lots of leches (is that spelled rite) does.

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Feb. 6, 2008

Daryl keeps wanting to get together. I finally had to shut him down cold with a knee to his balls and the display of a 6 inch blade knife. Today Mrs. M said that he dropped out.

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Sat., March 8, 2008

I got my GED today. Mrs. M was very proud of me. She said that I still needed to work every day on my writing, and don't be embarrassed by previous diary entries. She says "Take your time, use a dictionary, tell someone more educated and ask if its right." I will

At work they were happy I got my GED cause they need machine operators that can do math calculations -- the only school thing I was ever really good at -- and Monday I start on the line with a $5/hour pay increase. Whoopee!

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July 7, 2008

My 19th birthday on the 5th was blah. The present Johnny got me was cheap. I still pretended that I liked it. Today I left work early and treated myself today to my first real swimsuit. Saturday the 12th the big boss at work is having all employees from the factory over to his estate (I think that's the right word) where he has a pool, for a big bbq. I don't know how to swim but I like to splash around. I bought a two piece bathing suit. The sales lady said my tits were perfect for the top I got -- she was probably just saying it, but it made me feel good that a woman would say it and not just horny guys.

I modelled my suit for Johnny and he said that my ass didn't fill it out right. No comment about my boobs. Makes me wonder if I married the right guy -- there are plenty of tit men how did I get an ass man?

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Sunday, July 13, 2008

I wasn't able to write yesterday after the bbq and pool party. I spent a good amount of time in the hospital, not for me, for Johnny.

I guess I was partly to blame for what happened to Johnny. I didn't know, and the sales lady didn't tell me, that my top becomes almost clear when wet. After I took a few dips in the pool -- without trying to swim (though I convinced myself that I need lessons) -- I wondered why all sorts of guys were hanging around me.

Johnny was off playing volleyball or something and I was sitting with four guys who all had sunglasses on talking to me. I couldn't see where their eyes were focused -- but I guess on my tits. Just as one guy says "You sure got yourself some perfect round titties Jenny" up comes Johnny. He hears the guy, sees my tits, and goes bonkers. I blame myself for not knowing about my clear top but Johnny shouldn't try to fight some guy thirty pounds heavier then him. The guy apologized but Johnny hit him anyway. The guy hit him back -- just once -- but Johnny was out cold.

I put on a cover-up, with help from the guys who had been staring at my titties got him into our car, and drove him to the emergency room. I never did get to eat the bbq but Doris, my best friend at work, brought me some when we got back to the trailer that night. Johnny didn't seem to enjoy it because his jaw was sore, but even not completely hot I sure did.

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August 4, 2008

It took until today for the events at the bbq and pool party to not be a topic of conversation at work. Seems like all the guys still smile at me when they see me, and while some women were standoffs at first they now seem to be chill. Doris said any woman not chill was just jealous of my titties.

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August 9, 2008

We finally moved out of our rented trailer into an apartment. It was hard to talk Johnny into that but since with my earnings we were able to afford it we finally did it. I know I'll like the apartment better -- and it's close to work and the community college I intend to start in two weeks.

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August 25, 2008

Today I started community college. Since the machine I operate at work is one that not everyone can run I was able to get them to agree that I could go to classes during the day on Tuesdays and Thursdays, and could work ten hours Monday, Wednesday and Friday, and four hours on Saturday. I'm excited about the classes I'm taking. I'm taking the lowest level English course because I still have trouble writing and using proper grammar when talking. Writing in my diary takes a long time because I still do a draft, and use a dictionary, before writing.

One class I'm taking -- computer, including word processing -- should help a lot. I'm going to make my diary digital once I learn what I need to.

In addition to computer and English I'm taking a somewhat advanced math class, and for fun a fashion class. I didn't even know that they had such a class in community college but the one I'm going to has lots of fashion majors and is one of the best community colleges in the country for fashion design. Of course Johnny thinks that the fashion course is frivolous (not his word -- it's too big for him -- but I just learned it looking at a thesaurus which I now use in addition to a dictionary when doing my diary). We had a fight about it -- seems like we're doing a lot of that lately. I told him I don't tell him what beer to drink and he don't tell me what classes to take; end of story.