Chapter 4: Maria's Test
Last part in which all will be revealed. What is Maria's test? What is going on between her and Mike? Will Peter find he is a better man only to find his love is not as good a woman? Again, I am responsible any errors in translations. As always, many thanks to friend, fiend, and editor, LadyCibelle.
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My name is Maria Marlene Lucinea. Until a year ago, has it been so long? It seems like just yesterday I had met the man who would bring fulfillment to me. My dear Peter. Until a year ago when we met I had been alive but never so full of life. Peter is a good man, but at times he doesn't know this. Sometimes, in those unguarded moments when he is lost in his thoughts I can see the strength and peace in him. But there are demons as well. It was one such demon which threatened the peace of my home and I would dispel it.
Making love with Peter was the most fulfilling that I have ever experienced. It is not because he is particularly adept. He is not particularly well-endowed, as you say. I have had lovers who were bigger, some more practiced, many with more self-confidence. But these are but mere aspects of sex. Peter touches me where no man has before; he touches me in meus coraΓ§Γ£o e alma, how you would say my heart and soul. We meld together our spirits, not just our bodies. This is what a woman wants and my Peter gives me this, every time.
But the shadow does come upon occasion. Peter and I have had but one disagreement in the year we have been wife and husband. I wanted a child. I wanted his child. One night after our love making I told him of my feelings and of my need for a child to make us complete. He had been running his fingers across my thigh in a vacant way, a small smile creasing his features. Peter is not handsome to many women but he has an inner strength which shows there and in his brown eyes.
"Meu homem velho, are you awake?" I asked.
His eyes opened and focused on me. "You know I am." He moved closer and buried is face in my hair. Like many women from my country, it is long and black. He loves this as do I because it gives him pleasure.
"Peter, I want something from you, something very important to me."
His answer to this was to push his face closer to me and kiss my neck. "If this is about your mother coming up for a visit, I already said she could." he replied sleepily.
I pushed his face away so could look into is eyes. "Peter I want us to have a child."
His head moved away slowly. "Are you serious?"
"Yes. I want us to complete our love with a baby. A child, our child. This is wrong?" I asked surprised at his reaction.
He looked at me for a moment. "Maria, sweetheart, you have never mentioned this before. Why now?"
"Because we are having our first anniversary next week. I wanted a year for myself with you alone. Now it is time to look to the future," I explained. Wasn't this obvious?
"Maria, I am 52 years old. I had one child and made a mess of it. I don't think I am the best candidate"
I waved aside his protest. "Foolishness. You are a good father. Was your daughter not here just last month and stayed a week?"
"Yes, but..."
"There are no 'buts'. I want a child," I insisted.
He ran his hand through his thin hair and look at me. His eyes softened and he smiled in his way. "Well, can I have sometime to think about this? Do we have to decide tonight?"
I agreed. "You can have until our anniversary. Then we will begin to make our baby" He really did have little choice.
Despite his protests of age I knew what really had bothered him. He did not trust himself!
He had been married once and had cheated on his wife of that time. This resulted in a divorce and she and this daughter had moved to California. Peter had little contact with his daughter and felt guilty about this; guilt about the affair, guilt about what he considered the abandonment of his family and his own values. I knew that he was not the same man. We all change from our experience and that the experience had changed him and made him stronger. Peter, on the other hand, had a nagging thought that he had been born to be unfaithful. Men are so foolish at times.
The next day, I rose and sent Peter off to his work. As I worked about cozying up the house, my mind was filled with the thought of how I could drive this demon away. I even wondered if I would have to. Slowly, a plan began to develop in my mind. If we had a child it would also help to show my husband that he was a good man and worthy of the happiness we shared.
That night Peter seemed distracted. I thought it was perhaps due to the pressures of his work. He had taken a more responsible desk job at a firm in order to spend more time at home and with me. I asked him what was bothering him but he brushed the question aside. He doesn't like when I worry about him and his work.
The next day or so was spent with more discussions about how to spend our anniversary. Peter is a dear, but I wanted to go to a friend's Brazilian restaurant which she had opened in our city. The music was authentic Tropicali and brought to me the memories of home. Peter thought we should go to a B&B we had frequented before. I did not want to spend time alone. I wanted to spend time with friends and let them share in my happiness.
I finished in the kitchen and glanced at the time. I had promised to fix my husband a special dinner the next evening and to do so, there were some special ingredients needed. Also, I wanted to stop by the bookstore and pick up a couple of books Peter had wanted written by the Spanish author Roberto Perez-Reverte in the original Spanish.
I dressed and walked out to the little Cooper which meu caro had bought for me. I loved it. It was inexpensive and cute. I looked around it. Peter had used it the previous day and I knew that the people at his work were not that careful in the parking lot. I opened the door and stepped in. I reached to adjust the seat when my eyes fell on a piece of pale blue cloth. I picked it up. It was a pair of women's panties! I was shocked! How did they get in there? I inspected then. They certainly were not mine as they were far too big and certainly not to my taste! But where had they come from? My mind refused to believe what my eyes were telling me. Peter had had another woman in my car! I would find out the truth. A woman must if she is to fight for her home. I would find the cadela barata who had dared to touch him and kill her! But first I need to know the truth.
That night, I wore his favorite perfume, and dressed in just his shirt. I often did this when he was at work because I could feel closer to him even when he was gone. After our dinner, we talked of insignificant things. Peter told me of how he had been upset because a former co-worker had managed to comeback to work for Peter's firm. Peter was not happy about it. I knew of this man, Mike, and to me he was a pig. To those of you who had read of how Peter and I met, you are familiar with the porco, Mike, so I will not go into any detail. It is enough to say he was a pig
I took Peter to our bed and we made love until we were both spent. I made certain that he knew he was loved, he was wanted and that he was my man and none others. In my heart, I knew that my Peter had not been unfaithful to our vows but my mind needed to be reassured. As sleep came to us that night I turned to him.
"I love you, Peter." I said hoping he would understand with this terrible thing I must do.
"I love you, too, meu caro. Only you."
My heart sang with these words. I knew he was mine. Nothing would change that. "Remember that, meu homem velho"
The next day I went to an appointment with a private investigator. I was not proud of what I was about to do but a woman must do what she must to save her marriage and her life. From the yellow pages I knew that he performed something called "fidelity investigations". This was what I would use to prove to my husband that he was a good man.
Upon my arrival I was escorted by a young woman to a rather empty conference room. She bade me to sit which I did.
"Mrs. Molloy, Mr. Baxter will be with you shortly. Would you care for some coffee while you wait? " she asked.