"Mother! How could you!"
Katherine was rebuking Helen, but Helen wasn't yet clear how much Katherine knew.
"I know all of it. How could you cheat on Daddy like that? I know you fuck old guys like Paulsen, but why would you fuck guys my age? Why? Why?"
All Helen could say was,
"I'm sorry, honey. How did you find out?"
Katherine said,
"Arnie's sister talks to me nearly every week. Arnie thought he had died and gone to heaven. He told his sister, and she couldn't wait to tell me. She said it was like old times! They're calling you the Mother-I'd-Like-to-Fuck!"
"I don't understand, what do you mean, like old times?"
"My girlfriends and I would talk about you, trying to figure out if you were a whore or not. Missy Paulsen was certain of it. She said, she 'knew for sure.' Arnie's sister said that a woman wasn't a whore unless she got paid for it, and we didn't think you got paid. I said you were a lawyer and lawyer's couldn't be whores."
"Oh, honey! I had no idea you knew anything back then. I'm sorry. I've always had a bad reputation, but I didn't know I had a bad reputation with you. That 'whore' thing has been around a long time. I went to high school with Bob Paulsen and his wife -- she's never liked me, and she's the main one that keeps up the 'whore' talk -- not that I haven't given her provocation. How long have you been wondering?"
"Mom, I've always thought of you as a beautiful and sexy mother. I've been more proud of you than ashamed. My girlfriends and I would talk, but you looked powerful to us. When I was eleven, I remember watching you dress up in that black velvet dress and red lipstick. I thought you were the most beautiful woman in the world, and then that old gray-haired guy would come over!"
"What gray-haired guy? You mean my boss? The head of the firm?"
"Yeah, we called him 'Gagger.' You'd put me to bed, but I couldn't help sneaking a look at you walking down the hall to the door, and he'd give you a peck on the cheek -- so sophisticated -- but then he'd put his hand on your shoulder and you'd start to kneel, and I'd be crestfallen."
"Oh, honey! I'm so sorry. I thought you were asleep. What's with the 'Gagger' nickname?"
"Mom, how could anybody sleep through the noise you make when you're having sex -- with Dad or with anyone else! We called him 'Gagger' because, like, each guy seemed to have a specialty. That guy obviously wanted oral. I didn't know what it was, but I called my girlfriend and told her that my mother was choking and gagging while having sex and she told me what oral sex was. That was better than when I found out what anal sex was!"
"You talked to your girlfriends while I was having sex?"
"What would you do? I couldn't sleep. By the time I was thirteen, I knew a lot more about sex, and I could visualize what they were doing to you, especially Mr. A."
"Mr. A? What do you mean?"
"The ass-fucker guy. We called him Mr. A."
"Oh my God! I wish you hadn't heard all that."
"You remember, then?"
"Yes, I do. I won't kid you, I love anal sex, but that guy was all about talking filthy."
"Well, it was just part of my sex education, and I turned out alright -- a lot more conservative than you, I might add."
"Honey, I think I'm changing. But listen, I've been addicted to sex since I was thirteen. You're old enough to hear my story and I hope it helps. I thought I was hot stuff at thirteen and I dated a lot. Everybody seemed to be having intercourse, but I held out until I was fourteen. I was a freshman and this guy was a senior, and when I resisted he said,
"Yeah, you're right. I don't have a condom and you're not on birth control, so we'll skip your cunt, but we don't need to give up, right? After you've had it in the butt, you won't want to go back!"
I wanted to be sophisticated and cool -- I sure wasn't going to tell him that I was a virgin. Well, he was right. I loved it. I had more than one orgasm the very first time we did it even though it hurt. It's always a pain/pleasure thing for me. I never did use my cunt. I never had to use birth control. Most guys never knew it, and the ones that did loved it. It is amazing how unaware guys can be of where their cocks are! I remained a virgin until I got married."
"Mom, I can't believe you were a virgin at age twenty!"
"Uh, no -- I was eighteen. I was married once before your Dad."
"I never knew that."
"Well, it's not a nice story, but it'll explain why Missy Paulson would have had a negative impression of me. I've never been a nice person. I guess I'm old enough to admit it, now. When I was a senior I dated the football captain and I was very proud. He was really square and he wanted to get married before we had sex. I couldn't go without sex, and I cheated on him a lot. I was a virgin, which he could tell because he'd finger me, so I had to go to other guys for anal sex,"
"One day we were suppose to go to the movies, and I was over at another guy's house. I called my fiancΓ© and told him to pick me up there, thinking it was innocent enough because we hadn't done anything yet. But then, the guy gets all frisky, and I got aroused, and we started to do it, like fast and in a hurry β you know, 'cause my boyfriend was coming. It was really animal-like, and hot, sweaty, and dirty. I was looking out the window for my fiancΓ©'s car and the guy just banged my ass relentlessly doggy style. When you have a reputation like mine, guys don't treat you very well, and I was getting used to feeling pretty degraded, but it never stopped me from wanting it. I felt him enlarging and about to cum, and then I didn't feel that squirt in my ass. I thought that was strange, but he had stopped moving. I saw my fiancΓ©'s car drive up, and in a panic, I pulled away from him, threw my clothes on, and rushed out the door,"