"So what do you do?" he asked me politely.
I breathed out one last sigh of anonymity. "I suck dick," I finally responded.
He gave a small choke on his water before he stammered back, "Pardon."
"You heard me correctly. There's no sense in covering it up, and I'm not ashamed to admit it anyway. I take pride in my work actually. I suck cock for a living. I take penises in my mouth and lovingly suck on them until they cum," I explained.
"...Huh, so are you like a prostitute?" he asked incredulously.
"No, I don't get paid per dick and the guys whose dicks I suck are just friends of mine who volunteer. And it's not about their gratification, although I do greatly enjoy that part of the job. I film the blowjobs and post them on the internet and make royalties relative to my viewership," I elaborated.
"So are you a pornstar then?" he asked.
"I don't think so but I'm something close. My face isn't in any of the videos. Even now you wouldn't be able to find me if you tried. Or actually you would, but you wouldn't know for sure it's me that you're looking at. I don't think of myself as a pornstar though, and definitely not as a prostitute. What I most prefer to think of myself as, honestly, is just a cocksucker. I love sucking cock and I'm fortunate that people on the internet enjoy sharing my passion enough that I can make money from it."
He seemed a little flushed, "Well, that's really fascinating actually. How long have you been doing this for?"
"About 3 years."
"Oh wow that's a lot of dick sucking."
"Yeah," I said matter of factly, "I suck a lot of dick."
"What did you do before you got into cocksucking professionally?"
His line of questioning was just cute before but the way he talked about my craft so casually as if it was not unlike any other hobby was starting to turn me on. "I was a lawyer," I responded.
He let out a deep laugh. "I'm somehow not the least bit surprised but I think I'll have to get to know you better to really understand why."
I decided that I liked him from then on.
Our date went on normally after that. We talked about normal things and even about careers and "work" as if nothing was amiss. It would seem that my courageous, albeit desperate stab at honesty set a standard of openness and respect that I was quite pleased to see him run with.
He walked me to my door at the end of our date. "What are you up to for the rest of the night?" he asked a little bit shyly.
"I had a really nice time tonight and I'd like to see you again if you're still interested. But I won't lie to you, so please don't ask questions that you don't want to know the answers to. The truth is I will be working tonight and also I will be thinking fondly about this charming man that I've just met and a very pleasant date that he took me on."
He looked forlorn but like he was trying his best, which goes a long way with me. "Tell me what you're thinking," I said in an understanding and breathy tone to draw a candid answer from him.
"The thought of you sucking someone else's dick right now makes me feel like I have a pit in my stomach. Especially the thought of you liking it, the thought of you being really good at it and another person besides me getting to know that about you, the thought of you sucking dick in a slutty or passionate way that you may never suck mine in. I also think you're beautiful, I'm so attracted to you and I would love for you to suck my dick."
He paused so I took the opportunity to interject, "Okay let's start there: the hard truth is that I am going to suck another guy's dick tonight. Probably two, and I'll probably suck them both at least twice. And you're right, I will love it, and I am slutty and passionate when I do it, and my friends do know that about me and I am good at it and I even know all the little things that each of them like. But to be fair all of my ex's know that dirt on me too and you've been with other people before too so who cares about that. If you and I get there, then it needs to be enough for you that you get to currently know what other people only used to know. Also if we get there, you will have exclusive rights to my sluttiness and passion in a way that these guys only really get a glimpse of. And I think you're very handsome. And cute, and sweet, and I would love to suck your dick but I'm resisting the urge because I'm a good girl and I don't suck cock on the first date. Does that make you feel any better?" I squinted my eyes a little and smiled.
He laughed nervously and made a few negotiating head shakes, "Actually yea a little but I can't put my finger on why."
"Well.. I think it's because everything's okay." I drew him in for a hug and he held me tightly for a moment like he was afraid to let me go, but then he did.