Haley Alverado moved in next door when I was four and she was three. She spoke funny and I liked how it sounded. Her hair was as black as my room without the nightlight, and her brown eyes were as warm as Mom's hugs. I was captivated, but she was so weird. She would mostly say words that I knew, but once in a while there was something thrown in that didn't register. She would refer to herself as a 'princesa' instead of a princess and she told me stories about where she used to live, with the servants, horses and her 'poni', Esteban.
Her daddy couldn't live with them, but he was a very important man. That was sad, but it was okay. My dad became their Mr. Fix-It and my mom became best friends with Mrs. Alverado. My family sort of pulled the two of them into our orbit, and Haley and I became inseparable.
When we first met, Haley couldn't walk and had some metal and plastic stuff on her legs. I couldn't imagine not being able to run and play, and seeing her legs scared me. I woke a few times crying, thinking of what lay under the braces. It had to be horrible if it kept her from playing in the backyard. Maybe there were no legs and it was braces all the way through.
When we were older, both our mothers loved pulling out old photos of me sitting on her bed, reading to Haley. My mother was an elementary teacher, and I always had a huge stack of basic readers. They cautioned me time and again that I had to be careful to not jostle her. Their favorite photo was when she was lying in bed, recumbent under her
Beauty and the Beast
blankets, propped up on extra pillows, legs straight out, me sitting at the end of the bed,
Winnie the Pooh
book in hand.
I learned that she did have legs, but they just didn't work as well as they should. The braces were the result of her second operation. After they came off, our parents had a hard time keeping track of us. At least, we thought they did.
We were Peter and Tink in the woods behind the house, or we had proper tea parties at old Mrs. Sullivan's place. Neither of us knew that Snapple wasn't a reasonable substitute for Harney and Sons. As we got older, we realized that our grand adventures in the 100 Acre Wood was actually well-monitored by our parents watching the dozen trees in my backyard, and the long treks to Mrs. Sullivan's was from our porch to the next. The lonely widow lived on the other side of our house and doted on us like we were grandchildren.
When she would tell me that we were going to get married and live happily ever after, I just grunted. How do you reply when someone said something so obvious? Haley would use every crayon in the box to draw pictures of us as adults. Sometimes I was a knight, other times I was a prince or an astronaut. She was always Princesa because that's what her daddy called her.
We weren't isolated from the outside world. We both had plenty of other friends. She would do girly things and I played every sport possible. I knew girls who were as good or better than the boys on my teams and always tried to get Haley interested. It was a lost cause. She had very strong ideas of what boys should do and what girls should do. She wasn't going to get smelly and dirty with a bunch of boys.
What never changed was that we were always each other's priorities. When I broke my arm sliding into third, Haley needed more consoling than I did. In Junior High, she helped me ace Spanish. In return, I helped keep hormonal teenaged boys away from her. Okay, that was probably helping myself. Haley was the first girl whose hand I held. She was the first girl I kissed. She was my first confidant and my first love.
She was 5'3 when she was sixteen. Her doctors determined that she wasn't going to grow any taller, and Haley underwent her final surgery on her legs. Like her with my arm, I was a wreck. I researched the surgery on my own and asked the doctors as many questions as her mother did. They were very patient with the oddly determined, questioning and overly large seventeen-year-old.
I'd get a lift home after football practice, take a quick shower and head over to her house. We'd work on the homework she'd been assigned by the tutors whom the school district paid to come by three days a week. I'd offer whatever assistance I could, but mostly spent my time staring at her. She was a younger version of her mother, radiant and beautiful. I was her thrall and she was my benevolent ruler.
She'd look up from her book, see me staring and Haley would smile, ducking her head, her thick black hair becoming a curtain covering her blush.
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Helmet in hand, sweat pouring from my body, I jogged off the field and headed towards the gym. Mr. Groust saw me and nodded to the side, letting me know he wanted to talk to me. For an English teacher, he was oddly non-verbal. He was also the football coach, so I kept my opinions to myself.
"Mr. Santori, you're friends with the Alverado girl?"
"Yes, Coach."
"Stop by my office before you leave. I have some prep materials for her if she still wants to take the early SATs."
"Okay, Coach."
I showered at the gym, saw the coach, grabbed the four books and managed to get a ride with Smitty. He had a car, and if you were also on the offensive line, you got dibs on rides. The two of us crowded his front seat, but it was better than waiting another hour for a cramped bus.
Mom had made a bundt cake the night before. I scarfed down a piece and then grabbed one for Haley and another one for myself. I took her books and the cake next door to find the backdoor locked. I went to the front and Mrs. Alverado's car was missing. The front door was locked. I peeked in the window and the furniture was missing.
I could feel the pulse in my throat as I banged on the door. There was no answer.
I eventually walked home, carefully cupping her slice of cake in my shaking hand. I put it on a small plate which went in the refrigerator. Mom had parent-teacher conferences and wouldn't be home until late. I called Dad.
"Dad... Dad, they're gone. Dad, I, they..."
"Sam, what's the matter? Who's gone? Son, calm down and talk to me."
"Haley, Mrs. Alverado, they're gone. The car's gone. The house is locked up. The paintings, the furniture, it's all gone."
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Nine months went by before I let my mother throw away that piece of cake. I was destroyed. My grades plummeted, but my performance on the field made me all-county and then all-state. I was hurt, I was angry and I needed to share that with the sons of bitches who dared try to get to my quarterback.
I got my grades back on track my senior year and maintained enough anger and motivation to get serious looks from scouts from major colleges. I didn't date, I didn't socialize. I spent my time working out, playing, studying and doing layman's research trying to find Haley and her mother.
It was as if they had disappeared from the face of the earth.
I had a full ride scholarship to THE Ohio State University. From the first day that I arrived on campus, I was a starting Buckeye. There were a few established players that didn't appreciate that, but the quarterback sure as hell did. I still had a deep, dark resentment toward the world that took Haley from me.
Once again, I eschewed socializing. I went to class, played, worked out, studied and went to my dorm. The guy I replaced on the O line grew more and more frustrated as I established myself as a leader on the team. I was quiet, smart and stayed in my lane, so I had the respect of most of my teammates. He was becoming forgotten and rode the bench.
He was standing near the array of drink coolers when I walked towards them. There are people who get drinks and towels for the players, but that always made me feel uncomfortable. I could get my own Gatorade.
Staring at me as I approached, he seemed to sway a bit. As much of a dick as he was, I didn't want anyone to pass out from heat-stroke. Cup in hand, he headed my way, unsteady on his feet. Extending the cup, I thought it was a gesture. I was right about it being a gesture, but wrong about the message.
He pretended to stumble and tossed the liquid in my face. It was deliberate. You couldn't look at his face and not come to that conclusion.
"Oh, sorry, rook." He was slurring his words. The asshole had been drinking.
"Fuck you, you piece of shit. Alcohol is for starters. If you're on the bench, at least stay sober. You're a fucking embarrassment."
"Fuck you!" He wasn't an intellectual powerhouse.
Stepping forward, he hit me in the head with the helmet he was holding. Unfortunately, I wasn't wearing mine. I was familiar with the term "minimum effective dosage," and I knew how it translated into kinesiology and strength training. I also knew what it meant in more practical terms.
I was 6'7 and weighed right around 330. I was as strong as more than half the guys from last year's Combine who made it to the NFL. It didn't matter. He was also big and strong, and all he needed was enough force to break some bones and I would be the stronger guy who happened to be lying on the ground in need of surgery.
Looking through the blood streaming from my head, I saw him stepping forward again, helmet held in the air. I lurched forward and stiff armed him in the sternum. He collapsed, and I fell on my ass, suddenly dizzy. We were immediately surrounded by teammates and the coaches came running over. Time ran at an inconsistent rate. I remembered him trying to gasp in some breath. There were flashes of the team doctor standing over me with a flashlight in my eyes. The ambulance seemed to appear out of nowhere.
I had to get thirty-eight stitches and go through the concussion protocol, but I was fine. The idiot had a cracked sternum, was thrown off the team, lost his scholarship and was arrested for assault. I missed a game and we lost. I couldn't play, and my back-up was no longer on the team. He was destroyed in the media, and the story even made it to ESPN.
The team doctors made me go to the University's clinic every day to get checked out. They were medical professionals, so I didn't understand why they weren't able to do it themselves. I thought it might have something to do with blame shifting and possible lawsuits.
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She was tall and had hair that shone like burnished copper. Her curves held the eyes of every man in the clinic. She had to repeat herself before I realized she was talking to me. Being attracted to a woman was so foreign to me at that point that I didn't recognize what I was feeling.
"Sir?"
I realized that she had been talking to me while I spaced out. "I'm sorry, I wasn't paying attention."
"I asked if you were Samuel Santori."
"Yes, sorry. Sam. Uh, call me Sam."
