It all started with a confession. One New Year’s Eve, after a few drinks, I told my wife Carol that I often fantasized about her undressing for a group of men while I watched. Her reaction was abrupt. The tipsy smile left her face and she looked away from me. I thought she was angry. I was about to start apologizing, but then realized that she was aroused. We made love that night like we were possessed.
After that, everything was different. For many reasons, we couldn’t discuss our hidden desires. Carol was quiet and reserved by nature. She was self-conscious about her body. She had full breasts and a round bum, with strong thighs. She was a little shorter than average, which just seemed to accentuate her curves even more. She had never been fat but she always worried about her weight. No matter what she wore, her breasts and bum seemed to burst from her clothes. Men looked at her often, which intimidated her.
And we were both from strict backgrounds where sexual feelings were kept tightly locked up. Even when we made love, we kept our desires secret from each other. But when I looked down on my wife’s flushed breasts, wobbling with our rhythmic thrusting, I imagined rolling off and inviting a stranger to take my place. And I could see that Carol was off in her own fantasies, too. What they were, I could only guess. We were together in body, but inside we were in different worlds.
After my confession, our unspoken obsessions began to take over our lives. We seldom spoke and we stopped making love. The tension was too great. We knew that we were escaping into a private fantasy world whenever we became physically close, and that only pushed us apart.
We had to release the pressure, even if we were afraid of where it might lead. I organized an evening out of town to which I invited two men to make love to my wife while I watched. It was an evening of exquisite sexual arousal for both of us. We repeated this with the same men. The third time, one of the men – Nick – took my wife out for the evening and left me behind. When they returned from their date, he said that he had shared my wife with a group of men at an exclusive club. The three of us ended up in bed together.
At the end of that encounter, I’d seen something in Carol’s face, an expression of sadness mixed with something else. I felt that our relationship was on the verge of collapse. Consumed by lust, we were using each other to satisfy deeply hidden urges. To that extent, we needed each other. But we were losing the affection that had kept us together as man and wife for so many years. We had to talk, or at least to try.
Nick had invited us to visit him for a few days at what he said was his summer residence, a house near the ocean in southern Florida. He had become increasingly active in organizing our adventures, and we had agreed to his proposal without much discussion.
I was watching Carol pack the evening before we were scheduled to leave. She was wearing loose shorts and a snug T-shirt. Her breasts pressed against the soft white material of her shirt. Everything trembled slightly when she moved. Maybe she’s not wearing a bra, I thought. That was unusual for her. I couldn’t help but think of her slowly peeling her T-shirt over her head, showing Nick her breasts. I felt my cock stir.
I was standing in the door of the bedroom, my hands in my pockets. “Carol,” I said, “what do you …” I realized I had no idea what I should say. “Are you looking forward to this trip?” She finished folding a blouse and lay it carefully in her suitcase, then walked over to the dresser and opened a drawer. She didn’t look at me and she didn’t reply. “We don’t have to go, you know,” I said. “Maybe we should take a break, from Nick and .. all that.”
Carol looked up at me. “I thought you liked this,” she said, then turned back to the open drawer. She lifted out some more clothes and took them over to the bed. “Don’t you?” She started to sort out the clothes on the bed.
I didn’t know how to continue. “The fact that I want to watch other men to make love to you and then … everything else. What do you think? About that.” I cleared my throat. “About me.”
She kept sorting out her clothes. I stood rooted to the floor. I needed her to say something, to release me or condemn me. Something flickered on the bedside table. The time had changed on the alarm clock. The red numbers glowed 7:23.
Carol dropped another blouse into the suitcase and walked over to me. She looked into my eyes for a moment then lowered her gaze to my chest. She fiddled with one of the buttons on my shirt. “I don’t know what to think.” She glanced quickly up at me, then back to my buttons. “It isn’t right, what we’re doing.” She took a deep breath. “But … when I make men hard … ” She brushed a hair our of her face. “ … I can’t describe how it feels, but I like it. I want it.”
My cock stirred. Carol seemed to sense it. She reached down and pressed on the front of my trousers. “Like what’s happening to you right now.” She rubbed her hand down in one stroke. I pushed against her hand and stretched my cock up. “I want that feeling just like you want it,” she said. It was almost a whisper. My breathing accelerated.
“What about Nick?” I asked. She went back to the bed and resumed her packing. “Nick … makes everything easy,” she said. “I don’t have to think about anything with him. I can just let go.” She picked up some panties from a small pile on the bed and put them in the suitcase. “Maybe it’s wrong,” she said. “But I want to go.”
So it was decided. The next day we travelled down to Nick’s summer place. It was a small bungalow with a large garden and a pool. The garden was surrounded by a high wooden fence that blocked the views from the neighbors. After Nick picked us up from the airport, he suggested we get to work on our tans while he went grocery shopping.
I changed into my swim trunks and went onto the patio. The sun was blinding, and the heat intense. There were a couple of drinks already mixed and standing on the bar under a large umbrella. I took one and sat down in a lounge chair in the shade. A moment later, Carol walked out through the patio doorway.
Normally she wore a one-piece bathing suit. She felt it covered her breasts and hips more effectively. Today she was wearing a black bikini. My heart skipped a beat. I’d never seen her dressed like that before. The panty was fairly modest, not cut very high. Her bum bulged out slightly from the bottom. But the bra was clearly too small. Her full breasts squeezed out the sides and even out from the bottom. Everything wobbled as she walked towards me. She seemed embarrassed. She was wearing sunglasses and had lip gloss on. She looked extraordinary.