[Author's note: this story is in four parts. Yes, there's something unusual in the way Polly is able to process the world around her (check the tags). Does it excuse her behaviour?]
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SYMPATHY FOR THE DEVIL
When I get home, Mark is waiting up for me. He's surprised when I walk in through the door, and I remember that I was supposed to have called him to pick me up.
"Hey, you didn't ring," he says.
"No, just got a cab. Harrison dropped me off and then carried on home," I reply.
My husband comes up to me and wraps me in his arms, giving me a kiss. I know what's on his mind, because I know what I'm wearing under my wrap-around dress. Mark wants to unwrap me and see me in my lingerie. He wants to take me upstairs and lay me out on our bed and dive between my legs. I dangled that promise in front of him all night, but I can't let him do that now. I can't risk him discovering Harrison's seed inside me.
"How was Erica? Did you get her home okay?" I ask, diverting.
"Yeah. She was pretty hammered. I haven't seen her like that in a long time. Do you reckon everything's okay between her and Harrison?"
"Yeah, why wouldn't it be?"
"I don't know. She just seemed a little off, and she was knocking the drink back. She was oblivious. I had to sort out the babysitter."
"Did you put her to bed?"
I smile as I say it, but he can read between the lines.
"How was she naked?" I continue.
"Pol, I didn't. I just got her inside and paid the babysitter. I wouldn't, I..."
I kiss him, forestalling his rambling defence.
"I know, babe. You're all mine, right?"
"Yeah, Pol. I'm all yours. You're all mine."
"Of course."
I kiss him again, longer this time, even as I feel Harrison leaking out of me. At least, I think I can feel it. Maybe it's just my own moisture as I contemplate having two men inside me in the one night.
"Ready for bed?" Mark asks.
I give him a lopsided smile, cocking my head to one side. I could put him off, feign a headache, but what the hell, why not?
"Yeah, I just need to go pee. Give me a couple of minutes."
My little lacy panties smell of Harrison. In the end, I make up a story about dribbling piss on my panties to explain why I emerge from the ensuite in just my stockings and my basque. I let him lower his mouth to my crotch, watching how erect and eager he is. He slides his tongue into me, and I settle back onto the bedsheets to enjoy my husband's attentions. He knows what I like; I've trained him well. I douched to make sure he can't taste Harrison inside me.
I wouldn't feed my husband another man's seed. I'm not a monster.
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Sometimes, life just rolls your way. Harrison went radio silence for a couple of days, but then he popped back up again. We had a quick chat on the phone, and I made sure that he was still on-side. He hadn't said anything to Erica about fucking me in the park after the quiz night. Equally, he hadn't confronted Erica about her infidelity either. That last thing was a relief, because it was the one factor I couldn't control. If Harrison launched into accusations of Erica fucking my husband, my exquisitely concocted narrative would unwind very quickly. There's something fine and rare about living on that razor's edge, trusting other people to lie to each other. As far as I could tell, Harrison never asked, so Erica never refuted, and all the while, the idea of my husband and his wife having an affair was left to bloom. It was just perfect.
But, it's not as if I didn't have a contingency plan, just in case Harrison needed one more nudge. I have a pregnancy test at home that I've stencilled a cross on. It's an oldie, but it's a goodie.
Over coffee a few days after, Erica told me that Harrison was heading up the coast to oversee the building job later in the week. She sounded different, like it was more than him going away for work, like it was maybe a bit of distance between them. It made me squirm in my seat. Erica would be staying put, since it's the school term and she has to get the kids to school, so Harrison would be up the coast on his own.
When Mark latched onto my suggestion of taking our kids camping for the weekend on a daddy-daughters adventure, I felt like I'd won the lottery. With my family under canvas somewhere away from me, and Erica stuck at home, Harrison was on his own an hour north of us. As luck would have it, I manage to corner him at school pick up in the middle of the week.
Harrison is in his usual jeans and a t-shirt. The t-shirt's old, with a rip at the waist and a paint mark on the chest, but he carries it off, his unruly hair and three-day-old stubble somehow blending perfectly. I drift over to him through the groups of mothers.
"Hey," I say.
"Polly."
"How are you?"
"In general?"
"No, specifically. How did it go after the quiz night?"
Harrison shrugs, scanning for eavesdroppers.
"Oh, as you'd expect after she'd emptied the bar. She was fast asleep on top of the bed, still in her dress."
"Any sign?"