Now that I have talked nerdy to you, we can get down to the betrayal and sex part, which is probably why you are reading this anyhow. The question posed here is, "where do you draw the line?" Is intentional deception leading to sex a rape, even if the victim is all-in at the end? And if so, is giving in to carefully planned deceit forgivable? Or should we just, as is the case with a lot of the stories on this site, kill the bitch? That answer is up to you but there is a lot more of this story to tell. I will drop the other parts over the next couple of weeks. Thanks for reading me and I enjoy your messages.
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I was teaching third grade at the local elementary school when I met Tom. I have always been interested in helping others and I love kids. So it was probably inevitable that I would end-up as a teacher.
It was lucky that I met him at that particular time in my life because he was the right guy and I was definitely ready.
My body developed early and by the time I was fourteen I looked like I was twenty-five, with breasts bigger than most adult women. Of course putting somebody with the emotional maturity of a child into a smoking hot woman's body is a recipe for disaster. And there were a lot of times growing up when I regretted how I looked.
But I managed to survive the packs of horny teenagers and dirty old men, albeit narrowly, to mature into a woman who had danced around the usual pitfalls of looking like I did.
I had some bumps and bruises and a couple of broken hearts but I now understood that men were a species you couldn't trust; especially when it came to the things they told you as they were unsnapping your bra.
I had been living the single professional girl life for three years and I had finally come to the realization that there was a lot more fulfilling existence out there than the one that I was presently involved in, which amounted to getting picked up at local clubs for casual sex.
Love at first sight is such a sad pathetic clichΓ© but that is exactly the way it happened for us. I wasn't actually husband hunting. But the minute I saw Tom I knew I that I was destined to be his. It was probably some complex mix of past experiences, acquired attitudes and body chemistry, but the minute I saw him I just knew that he and I would grow old together.
He was at our school to talk to the students about what he did for a living, which was internet security. We connected from across the room.
I liked his looks of course. He was tall and slim and had mischievous blue eyes, which seemed to sparkle with intelligence. But it was the confident way he held himself, his graceful easy manner and the goofy lopsided grin that he gave me when we locked eyes that made my heart thump and my panties get very damp.
I sidled over to him after his presentation and stood silently next to him, while keeping a close eye on the unruly little ruffians who were under my supervision. He looked directly at me for a long time, like he was deciding something, and said. Let's have dinner tonight.
That was all it took. We had a short courtship over dinner. That culminated with me falling into bed with him at the end of the evening.
I hadn't exactly fucked around. But by that stage in my life I had plenty of experience with men. And I had expected Tom to be just like the rest.
The best of them spend a little time trying to ensure my satisfaction, the worst of them just rutted and hopped off. Tom, on the other hand, totally blew my mind.
Part of it was my total attraction to him, he was sweet, kind, funny, smart and an already well-established professional man.
The eight years difference in our ages was what a woman like me requires, since all of the men my age acted like glorified frat boys.
Tom took his time when we first made love. He assiduously explored my body to identify all of the hot buttons. Then he proceeded to push every one of them in the exact order that is required to turn me into a crazy woman.
We fucked, I blew him for round two, we fucked some more, I worked him over again, he did me doggy style, which unbelievably was a new experience for me, all the other men before him were way too eager.
We took a shower and I sat on top of him and shrieked my orgasm for the entire world to hear. Then the sun came up.
I don't throw the term love slave, around lightly but that more-or-less summed it up.
I was coy. I waited an entire week before I moved in with him. We lived like that for six months. The sex was exquisite, the conversation and the companionship even more so.
He proposed on one knee in Central Park on a beautiful fall day. I cried. We were married in St. Pats three months later.
Our life together was perfect except for one small problem. I couldn't have children.
I didn't find that out until six years after we were married. But we finally saw the doctor after a fruitless year of trying to get me pregnant and discovered that it just wasn't going to happen.
I wept for a solid month because I love kids. But Tom was as kind, gentle, and understanding as a man could possibly be during that period, and I loved him even more for his tenderness in that awful situation.
Plus, I still had a new crop of bright young faces to nurture every fall. And our love just kept getting stronger and stronger.
Even in my early forties we were still having sex like young married people. We experimented with the positions that interested both of us and we continued to grow closer.
Somehow the term - love - just doesn't describe my feelings for him. It was more a total connection, husband and wife and I was proud to be his and his alone.
His business grew all the time I am describing, and his company had many employees. But there was one guy who Tom took a special liking to.
I could see the reason why as soon as I met him. He was a couple of years younger than me, tall and with a devilishly handsome Irish face, which always had a hint of larceny in it.
Murphy was smart and he was the sort of devil-may-care kind of guy who other men instinctively bonded with. That was because he had all the charm of the Irish people in his soul.
He was quick with a song and seemed to know how to do every dance ever invented. He was literate. He could cite whole passages from Yeats and Wilde and Joyce, and Behan.
More importantly he was almost in Tom's class as an internet genius, so he could give Tom a helping hand when he needed it.
Murph was Tom's protΓ©gΓ©. Accordingly, he was around our house all of the time, so much so that I would usually forget that he was there.
One day I was working around the pool deck, scrubbing the weatherproof cushions of the chairs. I was wearing something I would never have worn in public.
It was hot so I had on a thin t-shirt, no bra and a pair of very short nylon running shorts.
I could feel my big breasts swaying as I worked and their moving back and forth had stimulated my nipples until they were at full mast. It looked like I was pointing two little fingers in front of me.
He must have been watching me for a while. But the first hint I had that he was even there was when I heard somebody right behind me say with laughter in his voice, "Now that's a sight isn't it."
I shrieked and almost fell in the pool.
He reached out to steady me.
I turned and there was Murph with a grin that could only be described as shit-eating.
I said, "You nearly frightened me to death!"
He said apologetically, "Didn't mean to. I just wanted to know if Tom was home."