They say that shock can cause a heart attack, I have no idea how I survived.
I was on my back, Lori, my best friend's wife and...well.. the mother of my son was on top of me, naked.
We were in the throes of orgasm when I heard my daughter Sammi scream and run from the room.
My little girl, the one I would have given my life to protect. Brought up to feel comfortable with her body, comfortable with nudity, certain things were normal to her.
Daddy having sex with Mommy's best friend was not normal.
I realized Sammi had not seen her mother on the couch, the back of it was towards her, it would have been worse if she had seen Mommy on her back with her legs wide, letting Lori's husband Kevin have at her.
I dressed and headed towards the house, a thousand possible excuses running through my head.
Yea, sure, like any of them would work, Sammi had seen us clearly, a straight shot from 10 feet way at Lori's bare behind bouncing up and down on me.
Heat of the moment and all of that, sure. People have sex. People have sex with other than their partners, too.
But not Daddy! Not from Sammi's point of view. Years of teaching, years of listening, years and years of work to bring up a beautiful little girl, to help keep her safe from the world.
Sammi was sitting on the couch. Her eyes were red, but the tears had stopped. I sat down beside her, giving her a good two feet of space.
I waited. Sammi always let everything go once she was ready, and she never let anything go at all until she was.
Just like Sharon, her mother.
Sharon of course was smart enough to stay out on the deck, Sammi and I were the ones who always had the deep discussions.
Finally Sammi turned and looked at me, it was like looking at my wife 20 years earlier. Exact right down to the voice, the mannerisms, the tip of the head, the flash in her eyes when she was angry.
She was angry.
"Why, Daddy? How could you cheat on Mommy?"
"It wasn't..." no other words fit.
"I SAW you!"
"Yes, but it was just sex, we are friends."
That was lame.
She turned away, going quiet on me again. I just waited.
"Do you need sex, Daddy? Doesn't Mommy...?"
"Things are fine with your Mom and I, Hon. It's not a problem."
"How long has this been going on!" she demanded.
"That was the first time, well...since..."
"And what about when Mommy finds out?"
I steeled myself for that one.
"Your Mom was with Kevin, Hon."
Sammi stared at me for a second, leaped up and fled upstairs to her bedroom. I heard the door slam, sighed.
I went back out onto the deck, everyone was dressed, the air seemed way too quiet. I looked around at the sheepish expressions, God.
"Well, this is a bit of a mess."
"Hey man, she is a big girl!" Kevin said. I had the sudden urge to pop him one, let that go.
"Now what?" Sharon looked at me, worry in her eyes.
"We wait. You know Sammi, she will talk when she is damn good and ready."
Kevin and Lori left soon after, she slipped in my arms and hugged me.
"I don't want this to change anything, I like it with you sometimes."
Kevin heard that, he leaned over and gave Sharon a kiss, eyeing me sideways as he did.
I could see some problems forming, the last thing I wanted was a competition. Sex for fun with friends is one thing, sex with complications can be worse than doing without, I had already learned that years ago.
Sammi came down for dinner later, she ate quietly, not a word. I didn't push the issue, no point. Sammi would lock up tight if I did, we would get nowhere until she was ready.
She hopped in and helped her Mom with the dishes, that was different. I was in the living room, I could hear whispers, then giggling.
Maybe things weren't so bad after all.
I did hear Sharon say clearly, "Ask your father."
