Here I am sitting on one of my two sofas that are facing each other with a coffee table in between. As I sit here on my sofa, watching my beloved beautiful wife Patti, and her black lover Ray, making love on the other sofa, I am filled with mixed emotions.
Watching them make love, is just ripping my heart out. Yet I am happy that he can give the pleasure to her, that she so much loves, desires and truly needs.
Ray came over a short while ago, and Patti was so glad to see him. She quickly ran over to him, kissed him and cuddled up with him on the other sofa. It wasn't long before they were making out and touching each other.
I can see the ecstasy on her beautiful face. I can almost feel her pleasure as he slowly strokes his big black cock in and out of her sweet pussy. I can hear Patti purring as she tenderly kisses him looking up lovingly into his eyes.
Patti is obviously loving every moment and every sensation as Ray strokes his BBC in and out of her. I am so torn up with the pain and heartache of knowing I will NEVER be able to pleasure the woman I love, with all my heart and soul, as much as my black buddy, Ray, can pleasure her.
I hear her purr and coo for him, I watch them french kiss. I catch some of the whispers they share. The sweet nothings of love and desire. I suspect that Patti and Ray actually love each other very deeply.
I don't blame him, she is the most beautiful woman I have ever seen. They have shared passionate sexual pleasure together many times since Patti and I have been married over 6 years ago.
Why do I keep sharing her? I can't understand the drive that makes me need to share her with Ray. I must not feel that I truly deserve her or that I am worthy of her love. I know in my heart, that I am not good enough for her.
She Loves his black cock deep inside her so much. She never refuses him. He will inseminate her soon and she will be content for awhile once again. I can't deny her.
I know she loves him and the sex she has with him. But at the same time I feel so emasculated and so sad. I want her to be pleasured, with all my heart. I want her satisfied completely.
I just wish it was me that was able to do it. I wish that I could be the one putting the smile on her face. I just wish that I could be the one that she fell so deeply in love with.
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6 years before...
It all started years ago when I was a biker. Patti was living with Ron and they wanted to rent out a room. I heard about it thru my biker buddie "Rabbit" who just recently got out of prison.
I didn't know it at the time, but Rabbit had an exceptionally large monster cock. I'm sure Patti tried him out and couldn't take it. It had to be the reason Rabbit let me know about the room.
Any way, when Rabbit took me over to meet Patti, she was breast feeding her new child. When she whipped out her breasts to feed her baby I was so totally amazed. I have never seen a more beautiful set of breasts in my life, and I have seen many.
Patti was proud to show me what she had. I just sat there staring at her beautiful breasts, she didn't do anything to cover up. I would have agreed to any price on the room rental at that point.
Turns out that Ron was the father of her child but they were't sleeping together anymore. A couple weeks later, Patti asked me if I wanted to "hook up" as she had seen the steady stream of young women that had come over to visit with me.
When Patti came in my room and opened her bathrobe to get in my bed I was beyond shocked. I've never seen a more beautiful woman's figure. Patti seemed to me, as beautiful and desirable as a Playboy Magazine centerfold.
Even though I was having almost constant sex with several other young women, I lasted only about 3 strokes before coming deep in Patti's sweet pussy.
I was so turned on by her beauty, her figure, her long Red Hair, her big full round breasts full of milk, her smooth belly, her beautiful eyes, Patti's soft voice and beautiful face. Patti was a goddess of beauty in every way.
Patti didn't want to move directly in with me, to our own place. She said she wanted to go stay with some friends up in the Santa Cruz mountains somewhere first.
I don't know for sure, but it seemed like she said something about taking a bath with someone's dad and sex. I tried not to be pissed or jealous, though I was both. I felt so lucky to be getting her. I figured it was just part of the price I had to pay for such a beautiful woman.
Eventually she came to me and we got our own place. I was starting to become a real biker by then and had pretty decent parties every night.
I have got to tell you that many bikers share their women. It is a big feeling of power when you tell your woman to fuck someone and she actually does it.
Believe me, a woman won't fuck someone if she doesn't want to. They may change their minds and not want to fuck them again. But that wasn't the case with Patti when my black friends came to our party.
It was a standard party, everybody drinking, snorting and smoking pot or cigs or both. Young women as young as 18 and maybe up to 25 or so. When all of a sudden my black buddies showed up.
Ray, James and Sylvester came in my open front door. We shook hands and I asked my 'ol lady to bring them some beers. I was a little nervous about any friction about the race thing but soon realized it would be no problem.
Patti proudly thrust her chest out as she handed out the beers and I introduced Patti to my black buddies.
"Honey, show the guys those beautiful breasts of yours." I said.
"OK, Jim. Just for you" as Patti smiles and lifts her T-shirt.
"Whoa, Jim! What did you do steal her from the Brass Rail?" says James.
"Yes Jim, those are amazing breasts" says Sylvester.
"Jim, I've never seen breasts that beautiful, up close before." says Ray as he leans over to kiss Patti's left breast and squeeze the right on.
"Yes Jim, you've outdone yourself this time. What a hot ol lady you have!" exclaims Sylvester.
"Honey, why don't you take the guys into the bedroom and show them a good time." I said.
