It had been weighing on my mind for several years but I had never acted on it. My wife and I had gotten married very early and had been together for almost 25 years. We got married not because we had to, although the rumors persisted but because we knew we were meant for each other. I graduated high school and waited a year for her to graduate and then we were married. Six weeks after getting married I left for basic training and within 6 months we were stationed in Columbus Ga. A year later we had our first child, a girl and two years later a son.
We have always been a very happy couple who doted on our children and lived a very conservative lifestyle. I went to college and got my degree and she was a stay at home mom with the exception of a few years right after I left the military. Once I got my career off and running she was able to once again stay home and be a full time mother.
Our children were now grown and our son lived in Atlanta and our daughter lived with her husband in Macon, Ga. We live in Jacksonville so getting to either of them is pretty quick if we need to. We really did have it all but I may have thrown it all way. It all started about 3 years ago and I have no one to blame but myself. The question is can I actually stop the train wreck I see coming.
Let me introduce myself. My name is Scott and I am 45 years old. I am a well educated executive with a salary well over 6 figures. My beautiful wife Cheryl is 43 and one of those blessed women who never seems to age. I can honestly say she is prettier and sexier today than she was when I married her. For many years she was a typical soccer mom who seemed to focus more on our children than she did trying to be a sexy wife for me. I did not begrudge her devotion to our kids because I was the same way. We were both focused on our children which is how it should be.
The problem actually started when our daughter went off to college and came to a head when our son also left for college two years later. So what was the problem and what had been on my mind. I decided to just bring it up to her and let the chips fall where they may. I did not realize that all of my efforts would leave us in our current situation.
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"Have you lost your mind," Cheryl asked. "Normal people do not do that sort of thing. How long have you wanted to try this?"
"Years. I know it sounds crazy but it is something I have always wanted to try. I just think we missed out on a lot getting married so young and having children. We are now at a point where we can try some things and experiment."
"So this is about you wanting to play with other women. Are you tired of me? Having a great family and comfortable life does not seem like it is missing out on much. Most people would love to have what we have been blessed with," Cheryl replied angrily.
"That is not what I meant. I know we have been very blessed. I would not trade what we have for anything. I just think now is the time we can try some things that a lot of our friends did in their early twenties. Be honest. You were a virgin when we started dating. You have never been with anyone but me. I only played with 3 girls in high school so I was practically a virgin also. This is not about me wanting other women. I just want to experience some things sexually that neither of us ever had the opportunity to do. I would love to see you with another guy, play with a couple maybe go to some swing clubs. It really has nothing to do with being dissatisfied with you or us. I would just like to experience some things with you before we get to old."
"Forget it. Getting in bed with other people is a sure fire way of ruining a marriage."
"Look. I signed us up on a couple off swing sites and created a yahoo account so we can talk to people without revealing our real names. At least go look at our profiles and talk to some people. If you at least give it some consideration I will live with whatever you decide but do not just dismiss it out of hand."
Deciding I had given it my best shot I tried to hand her a piece of paper that had the web sites and our profiles with the passwords. She pulled away so I ended up sitting it on the coffee table and left the room. It sat on the table for two days before I noticed it was no longer there. Assuming she had thrown it away I just decided I would never realize my fantasies and decided to be true to my word and drop it. But fate intervened.
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Cheryl was stunned. What was Scott thinking? She had caught him a few times over the years looking at porn and let him know how strongly she disapproved and now he had the nerve to bring this up. He had to know she would never go for it. She was very concerned about what might happen because it was evident he really wanted to try this or he would have never dared to bring it up. Scott had always been faithful, she was sure of that and she had to give him some credit for having this fantasy but never acting on it.
After two days she took the paper he had written the information on and sat down at her computer and signed on. The first thing she noticed was a message that told her the last time they had signed on was three days ago which was before they had talked. For some reason it made her feel better knowing he was not pursuing this without her approval. The second thing she noticed was they had several e-mails. Dismissing this for a moment she went to the link that was labeled view profile. The profile was well written and said they were new to the lifestyle and they were interested in couples and single men.
Going to the e-mails there were seven, four from single men and three from couples. Looking at the profiles of each she could not imagine actually getting naked in front of any of them. Opening the e-mails one by one she found most were crudely written and had no interest in them. There was one from a single guy that told a little about himself and his interest that she thought was ok.
Signing off she went to the second site and found basically the same thing. A few e-mails from people she had no interest in meeting. Why did Scott find this interesting? She knew they were not real experienced sexually and that was fine with her. Sex had never really been that big of a thing for her. She enjoyed it when they played but did not get into porn or toys.
Signing off she signed onto the yahoo account that Scott had created. She was not that experienced on the computer but as soon as she logged in two messages popped up and she recognized one of the names from the site. Clicking the reply button she said thanks for the message but she was not interested. Almost immediately a response came back.
"That is to bad and my loss. You seem like a nice couple."
"Thanks. I am not sure we are going to get into the lifestyle. We were just looking," she typed.
"Your husband's idea?"
"Lol. How did you know?"
"Not unusual. Most of the time it is the husband that brings it up and then the wife who really gets into it. I am Brett by the way. Has he been talking to you very long about it?"
"No. He just brought it up. I really do not think it is for us. I hope it is just a passing phase he is going through. Nice to meet you Brett. I am Cheryl," she typed back.
"Well if you decide you would like to talk about it feel free to ask anything you like. You are actually several hours away from me so I will take myself out of the running and you are free to ask questions without worrying about ever meeting me."
"Thanks. I did not look at your profile. Where are you from?"
"Based in Boston but travel a lot to South Florida. You two are in the Jacksonville area?"
"Yes. Have you been in the lifestyle long?"
They continued to talk for almost an hour before Cheryl had to break and fix dinner for Scott. She liked Brett and had enjoyed talking to him but still did not think getting into the lifestyle was a good idea. It did at least give her something to think about. She had decided to make lasagna for Scott. It was his favorite and she felt a little bad about how she had acted since he brought up the swinging idea. He had been honest with her and she should respect that rather than get angry and shut him out. She would try to make it up to him and hopefully he would just forget this silly idea.
Two hours later she was setting the table for dinner when she heard him come in. He was singing which he often did, as anyone at his work could tell you and eventually made his way into the kitchen.
"Hello there beautiful," he said obviously in a great mood.
"Hey baby. How was your day," she asked as she gave him a tight hug.
"It was great. Nothing like a nice quite day at work to put you in a good mood. Is that lasagna I smell? What have I done to deserve that?"
"Nothing....but I have not been very nice lately and I wanted to say I am sorry. You were honest with me the other day and instead of talking things out I got angry. I still am not interested in the whole swinging idea but you tried to talk to me and I should have been willing to listen instead of get angry."
"Well I appreciate that. I know it was a shock but I probably could have done a better job of bringing it up," Scott replied.
"Face it babe. There is not a good way to bring that up. You did fine. I just reacted badly."
"Does that mean you are willing to discuss it?"
Cheryl thought for a moment. This was what she was afraid he would think. She really was not open to it but if he wanted to talk about it she would at least listen politely before she said no.
"If you want to talk about it we can. There is zero chance you will change my mind but I will listen without getting angry. Then I will take you up stairs and try to get you to forget the whole idea. Let's eat dinner and then we can have some wine and talk about it."
