I finally had to have a long talk with Tim. Regardless of what this story makes me out to be, I am an honest person. I do not enjoy lying to my husband. I love him dearly and it just makes my heart ache to think about lying to him, even by not telling him something. (A long Tim e somebody told me that the difference between a “secret” and a “surprise” is that a “surprise” is something that you intend on telling somebody when the Tim e is right.) So in my way of thinking, I have been saving a surprise for my hubbie. HE is the one who started this whole “I wish you would fuck somebody else” business. HE is the one who would jerk off thinking about me fucking some guy with a big dick. I never wanted anybody other that Al (hubbie). So, even though most of the world would say I have been cheating on Al, I consider it taking him up on his offer.
That having been said, it still does not set right with me. I love the sex! I really enjoy Tim, but knowing that Al thinks he would get off on it, it just seems wrong that I don’t at least tell Al. But Tim is also involved in this. And while hubbie talks a lot of shit about me being with another guy, I think he was thinking somebody who I just picked up or we met on line or whatever and not a co-worker. I needed to just get all my duckies in a row as it were.
So last night I had a little chat with Tim. He was cool, almost too cool, that whole “whatever” type attitude. It was like, I enjoy fucking you, but I understand. Which I don’t know what I expected, but a little concern would have gone a long way. I tried not to get upset. He picked up on my feelings. I had been there for him, and he knew it, he came around real quickly. I was about ready to read him the riot act, but he didn’t make me. He apologized and explained that he was just trying to protect himself and that he cared, but he respected me and did not want to complicate my life.
I explained to him that Al liked to think about me fucking somebody else. Tim did not understand. To be honest, I don’t quite understand it myself. Tim is very protective of his women and would not think of sharing his girlfriend with anybody. Of course, he did not mind sharing Al’s wife with Al! The more I think about this, the more I do not understand men! I don’t want to share Al with anybody and I would not fuck somebody else’s husband.
Tim asked “does this mean we were over?”
“It does not have to mean that we were “over,” it just means that Al needs to know!” I replied “If you are cool with Al knowing that we fuck, and whatever conditions Al puts on it, then we can fuck” I continued “but if you want to keep it hidden from Al, it has to be over because I can not keep a secret from Al any longer.”
Tim just sat there for a while without saying a word. His eyes would alternately make and break contact with mine, intense contact, as if he were trying to read my mind. Then he would break contact and look away, as if trying to figure out the costs of a major business deal.
“We are getting into some deep shit here,” He finally said, “Real deep shit, what if he kills you for fucking me?” I could not believe what I was hearing. Al was not a violent man; at least he had never been violent with me.
“Are you kidding? The whole thing was his idea!” I blurted out.
“Yes, of course, it WAS his idea, but it was an idea, not a fact!” Tim replied. I had never considered that Al had not meant it when he had talked to me about fucking somebody else. I had assumed that he was honestly telling me what he wanted.
“I tell you what we will do. Al has been talking about me picking up somebody at a bar. What if Al and I come to a bar and run into you. After a few drinks, I will start flirting with you and if Al goes along, then we will see what happens. If Al gets uptight or tries to shut it down, we will stop and he will not know the truth, because we will know that he could not handle it.” I suggested. Tim just sat there, again as if trying to reason it all out. “If Al goes along, and if we end up having sex, great and then someday I will tell Al the rest of the story.” Tim only looked half convinced.
“Let’s dance” Tim said.
“Ok,” I said as I stood up. He stood up and we moved to the dance floor. We danced and Tim started getting fresh. “Look, no more funny business, until we meet at the bar” I said in my sternest tone of voice. Tim gave me his best hurt puppy dog look, but I stood my ground.
“Fine, when and where?” He asked.
“We are both off this week-end. I need to do it soon, how about Saturday night?”
“OK, Saturday night it is then” Tim replied. So, this week-end we will see what we will see.
By Friday night my tummy was full of butterflies. I had really loved the sex Tim had shared with me. I wanted to keep fucking him, but I just couldn’t keep lying to Al. I was hopeful that my insecure husband was not full of shit as usual, oh, how I needed him to accept his wish come true.
Saturday morning I was up early. Actually, I had slept very little. I made Al his favorite breakfast and served it in bed. I spent the day making Al happy, coming on to him, flirting with him. By 6 PM, it was time to lower the boom on him. “Let’s go out dancing!” I suggested.
“Only if you are going to try and pick up another guy!” hubbie replied.
I just knew he was going to say that, and I was ready. Actually I had been practicing for a week. “O.k., you’re on!” I quipped. His jaw visibly dropped. I thought that only happened in the movies.
The air in the car was so thick it could be cut with a knife. “Your really not going to try and pick up somebody, are you?” Hubbie inquired.
“I tell you what, let’s make a bet. I bet I can pick up a guy and get him to do anything you tell me to before you can even buy a girl a drink and get a telephone number.” He looked at me, and nearly ran a red light. “Well, do we have a bet?” I asked.
“I’m not going to bet with you!” He muttered.
“Why not? Are you chicken?”
“No!” He answered “I’m not chicken, I’m just…”
“You’re just what?” I cut him off “No guts no glory, what’s the matter, you lost your college moves?”
“O.k., o.k., it’s a bet.”