No. 12 Options

Thanks for taking some of your time to read this, it might, but I doubt it, please someone else to read my scribbles.

Just a take on how to make it different, some options that would be running through your mind as life throws something rotten at you, or maybe not.

Options.

It wasn't anywhere near the end of our evening that I would ever have thought possible, no no no, I'm getting in front of myself.

Let me start again.

I work for a large national company that sells machines to other companies, Su worked in a bookshop part time. We are not rich but we aren't poor either.

We shared our lives in most ways as married couples do, we had no children, but that was a medical condition that stopped us from that, we hurt when we discovered that but moved on and thought that we might adopt some time in the future, but like lots of things it just never happened.

Ups and downs were not uncommon as I expect most other couples have experienced, but mostly we have had a very nice life.

We were a part of a group of friends that all lived in the same village, or very near by. We belonged to the local working man's club and had for years, even before most of us were married, we would socialise with dinners at each other's houses, parties at home or if a big event even hire somewhere, we even went to Greece as a group for a 2 week holiday.

Ben was my cousin and he'd married Beth but it had come to an end pretty quickly when he found her on their second anniversary party, bent over in what should have been an empty room and in his words 'being ridden hard like the whore she clearly was', to say it put a dampener on the evening was an understatement, it was only 9.00 o'clock, and the bar was booked until 2.00 am...

It was a bit difficult for a while, everyone knew what happened, her excuse was that she thought that she would put some spice into the marriage by giving Ben a threesome, but felt she should test the good's before bringing Ben into it, she had a woman lined up to treat Ben but refused to name her. Beth and boyfriend shot away after that little reveal.

Su and I took him home later, after he had drunk himself into a stupor, Su helped me with him upstairs and I part undressed him laid him on the bed put a big glass of water by the bed and a bucket, he might need it I thought.

I said I would stay here until morning, make sure he was alright, I'd thought Su would go home but she, bless her heart sat and dozed with me on the sofa. We were roused by headlights sweeping across the room, a car door and the key in the lock, Beth stepped in with him behind her.

"What are you doing here?" She asked.

"Looking after Ben, after what you did earlier he's really upset, I don't think that you being here is going to help, and especially with knobhead here as well."

"It was a mistake, I should have waited until we got home, and I was just so excited, and didn't call Barry knobhead"

"Well you might think that Ben was going to be ok with what you just pulled but I think you don't know Ben at all, I think you should go, come back in the afternoon, let Ben wake up and think. If you stay you'll only make it worse, if Ben sees knobhead here in his home there will be bloodshed, it might be his but I would have to back Ben up.

If you want to get your marriage back you have to think, think about Ben, go sleep somewhere else but not with knobhead, he's fucked you in more ways tonight than you realise."

She moaned and tried to stay but Su backed me up, Su even went and packed an overnight bag for her, they left.

I didn't think I ever saw him again. Beth returned after we had gone home, and tried to get Ben to see her side of it but by the following weekend she had left, we heard that most of the week the close where they lived were treated to screaming matches into the night.

It was sad to see. But life went on.

I keep getting sidetracked. Su and I.

Sex, oh yes, we had sex, lots of sex, and I believed that Su was as happy with out time in bed as I was.

I say bed..... we made love and we fucked everywhere, bed, car, sofa, stairs, beach, fields, friends bathrooms, dance floor, the list is endless.

Some were all night long love in's.

Some like the friends bathroom were quick, but they sparked into a long night when we got home if not before.

We didn't share, we had both been clear that, it, sex, was between us, just the 2 of us. That was something that we both knew we wanted as we become at first a couple then married.

It was something that was reinforced now and again in bed after having made love.

So down to 'that' night.

"I need to ask something, or maybe tell you really.

Said Su as she rose from ridding me cowgirl, our mixed juices dripping from her pussy onto my chest and her leg as she moved over to the side of me.

"I love you and feeling so loved by you, I love how we taste."

As she leaned in and sucked up what was on my chest.

"I need you to know that I'm going to be meeting with someone.

Once a week, you won't notice.

I love you like no other, you and I will grow old together, nothing will come between us, promise."

Right at the start of her little speech I was saying to myself, how does asking and telling me something join together in the same sentence?

I didn't say anything for a while.

Su kept telling me how much she loves me, then my brain started to work.

"So this I love you talk is intended to make me what? I hope this is a new way to spice things up between us, you need to fill out all the details to get me going, why someone? Why not pick a name, will he have a 12 inch cock? Last all night and go again and again in the morning?

And why won't he change your feelings for?"

Then the penny dropped....

"You what?

Fuckkkkk, you really mean that you are going to do this for real, you mean that you aren't just going to have lunch with them are you, what you mean is that you and someone are going to be having sex."

I took a deep breath, and Su started to play with me, I hadn't gone completely soft, I was starting to get harder when, once again my brain restarted.

I stiffened, but my cock disappeared completely, Su was left holding... well very little.

Both reactions were noted by Su, she slid lower, taking me back into that sweet talented mouth, the mouth that had been mine for, how long?

Is it or more to the point has it been mine and mine alone for how long?

She tried she truly tried, but what man wants to hear that his lover, his soul mate his wife, wants someone else as well.

Not this man I can tell you, not this man.

"So how do you see this happening?

What's the endpoint?.....

Let me get this right, tell me if I get anything wrong.....

You and 'someone', are going to be in a relationship, and you think that you and me will be just the same as we are now.

Now you want, what? My approval? My my my blessing?

How long have you been going behind my back with 'someone'?

How many other someone's have there been?

OH God..... "

"It's not like that, no there has never been anyone else since we became a couple, no one else since Margaret and I parted.

Margaret's relationship with Makepeace, was love, I told you that Makepeace had died last year.

It took everything for Margaret to come back here and start again, we're been having lunch together for the last two months, once or twice a week.

We both have felt that our feelings were returning for each other.

We have decided that we don't want us, you and me, to be any different.

We, Margaret and I will just have a loving couple of hours each week together, it will not affect our lives in any way, I can't tell you how much I love you, but I need you to let me have this.

We haven't been together yet."

"Margaret, it's bloody Margaret, again, she was and has always been the greatest problem in your life before we got together, and now she's crawling back out of the cave she disappeared into and low and behold she's fucked your life up again.

Well you have certainly made me think about my life, I'm not sure about OUR lives, not sure what to think.

Should I thank you for that pity fuck session just now or not, I don't know what to believe anymore.

I think you had better go sleep in the spare bedroom.

I don't want to wake from this nightmare and strangle you, I can only hope to wake soon, find out if you're a figment of my imagination or this is really happening."

With that I walked into our bathroom to shower, I put it on cold, trying to bring some ideas to mind.

Su wasn't there when I walked back, but as I got into bed she walked in and asked to, 'please' let her sleep with me.

For the first time in my life I screamed at her, 'GET OUT.'

We didn't sleep, I know because all I heard was Su's crying.

The morning didn't bring relief for me, I still had trouble thinking about what Su had done, it wasn't a request was it, it was a fact, get on with it.

Could I?

No.

The day passed, not sure what happened, I didn't talk to anyone all day.

Work? No I didn't do any of that. I just got on with my thinking and planned.

When I opened the front door, it was with the worst feelings I think I'd ever had.

Su was busy making something in the kitchen, I just went upstairs undressed and had a shower, I climbed into bed and lay awake, daydreams, daytime nightmares really.

Su came in.

"I'v made dinner, it's your favourite, be ready in 10 minutes.

I didn't move, not sure what I'd do if I did.

"Please let's talk, I really do love you, you know that, I didn't think that you would take it like this, I'm sorry I am so sorry." And burst into tears.

I didn't say anything for a while.

"You have no idea do you, no idea, I'd call you a killer, but I'm still here breathing, I'm not alive anymore just breathing.

I can't eat, I'll be sick if I do, have you thought this through?

How well do you think you know Magy?

Tell me honestly, have you kissed her? Done anything?"

With a look of pain on her face Su answered.

"No, no nothing, a kiss on her cheek but I swear to you, no full on kiss, nothing more."

"Ok, how did tits and lips die?"

"Please don't call her that, it's not kind. Margaret said it was sudden, something about her breathing, she had always been chesty."

Chesty, I thought, she could open the door with the way they stood out in front of her without touching the handle.

"Mmmmmm would it surprise you if she died from AIDS, or HIV?

I'v been doing some research today, that sudden death of hers was in fact a long time coming, she had been in and out of hospital for the last few years. Don't believe me?

You only have to go look at her Facebook page, it's all there, and reading some of the comments, well she hadn't changed her ways from the day she took Magy away from you, turned out that she liked it all ways, some kind person posted a link to her porn site.

Oh she was a busy busy girl, quite freaky, she was into and lots of people and things were well into her, so when do you think Magy was going to tell you about that?

If she's been with her all this time, what's the chances that she's looking for her carer, shall we ask her to go with you for a checkup?

Say it will just prove that you're clean, and maybe she'd like to do the same?

What's the chances?"

"I don't know what to say, are you sure? She wouldn't do that to me." But I could see she didn't believe that, that she believed me.

"I'm going to bed, I don't know what you're going to do, but if you do anything with her, that's it. Done, over with the end."

Option Two.

It all happened as above up to the point where I wrote.........

"You what?"

Fuckkkkk, you really mean that you are going to do this for real, you mean that you aren't just going to have lunch with them are you, what you mean is that you and someone are going to be having sex together.

I think you should go sleep in the spare bedroom."

She tried to talk to me but I shouted at her, GET OUT, I'd never shouted at her before.

6 o'clock in the morning Su crawled into bed with me. I'm a man, I wake with morning wood.

She took advantage of me, not for the first time.

I came wide awake instantly, took a firm grip of her nipples and bucked upwards, and we were off, it was great ride, I enjoyed it.

I rolled us over and started to drive into her.

"Are you over last night? Are we going to be alright?"She asked

"Are you still planning on going pussy munching?

It's got to be your decision, but whatever you decide, there are going to be consequences, you have a choice, so do I." I replied.

"Oh please, you won't know about us, I will never say no, I never have, have I!"

"So that's a yes, you're going to be having an affair with 'someone'."

With that I pulled out of her, moved up and pinned her arms by sitting on her, and proceeded to pull myself off over her face, she hated me doing that, sucked cock, but hated to be painted with cum on her face.

I walked into the shower, and cleaned up, as Su came in I walked out.

I was out the door before she had finished her shower, I parked in the office space, walked to the taxi rank, I was looking for a car that had dark rear windows, and wasn't part of a firm, found one and had a chat with the driver, he told me a day rate, I explained that it wouldn't be many miles and could be boring for the whole day, but we agreed terms and set off.

I had Tim, we had to get on first names if we were going to be in the car all day, park down the road from my house, I was pretty certain that Su hadn't had time to go to work yet, so we sat waiting, me in the back Tim behind the wheel. He tried to engage me in conversation but I wasn't in a good mood was I.

I spotted Su locking the front door, told Tim to follow that car, he laughed but did, he was good at keeping her close but not too close, we parked in the car park Su used for work, from here I had Tim park so I could see Su's office. And we waited, and waited. Midday Su appeared and got back in her car, Tim followed, as we pulled into a chain hotel I asked him if he would follow her in and see if he could find out the room number and the name used to book it.

I sat numbly waiting for Tim to reappear.

"Oh you're going to love this, it's room 122, booked in the name of Baker. Judy, on the front desk says that she, the woman we're following, usual arrives first, but it's the other woman who is Ms Baker and pays. She has a deal with the hotel manager, cash and if she's out before 2.30, it's £40, these two have been meeting for just over a month, twice a week, all that's cost me a £50 note, hope that was alright."

Yes I had seen her walking in just after Su, bold as brass as the saying goes. I thanked Tim and got him to take me back to the taxi rank, settled his bill and went off to think.

While she showered I packed her suitcase, and one of mine with as much of her stuff as I could get in them, I tried to give her a bit of everything, day, relaxation and going out clothes.

"What are you doing."

"Pretty obvious really, packing your things, you can come back some other time to get the rest, we'll sort things out somehow, now you can have breakfast and then I'll call you a taxi I'll keep the car, have a think where you want to go while you dress."

Her face, it was as if I'd slapped it, mouth open, and in shock.

"But, but, I thought you would be more..... I thought you would be ok with me..... You know, having some me time, it won't be any different between us, you can have as much sex as you want.

Please don't think that I'll love you any less.

Can't we talk about this, really sit down and talk?"

"Nothing to talk about, you'v made your decision, I have made mine. You want to go slutting around and break your wedding vows.

So I'm moving on as well, like you I'm going to go and find another pussy to fuck, I might be lucky, I might find one somewhere nearly as good as yours, but I'll not hold my breath.

So killer, get dressed and leave, leave me to what I thought was going to be a good old age.

Fat chance of that now."

I went and made breakfast.

She chose to go to her sisters house.

Daisy was on the phone straight away.

"What have you done, Su's in tears, why is she here?"

I just told her to ask Su, she had to explain it, but it wasn't me.

Two days later Daisy was on my doorstep when I got home.

"Oh god what has she done, how much has she fucked it up with you, will you take her back? she says that she's sorry, says that nothing has happened yet. Oh god she's such a silly bitch."

"You want tea or something stronger, something to eat?" I asked.

"Tea might be better, I'm so pissed off at her, if I have a drink I might make a fool of myself.

Oh fuck give me a big drink."

So I did, I made sure that I didn't take advantage of her, I knew that she was putting herself forward to me, for my pleasure.

I was trying to make my mind up if it was for Su, or, or was it for her.

She ended up staying the night, in the spare room.

"I thank you for last night, or rather for what didn't happen last night, you know that you could have done anything with me and I would have loved it? Su must be going through hell right now, she knows where I was going last night."

"I thank you for your generous offer, I will say that it was very hard not to take you up on it, very hard. Su deserves some pain, I can't trust her can I, every time we are apart now, I'd be wondering who she's with, what she's doing with them, I can't live like that.

I gave her the chance, she made her decision, I have to live with it as well.

S...... oh god she's killing me slowly."

"I'm sorry, I'm just so scared of what Su will do now, I should have told you last night, Beth doesn't want to know about her life, she as much as told Su that she only wanted a playmate for sex, it wasn't ever love, she thought that Su knew that and was happy with that.

I'll look out for her as best as I can, but I work, I have a life as well, she can't stay with me indefinitely, can I beg you to let her come back, stay in the spare room?" Daisy asked me.

I let her come home, more for Daisy than Su's sake, she did her best to make it up to me, trying to bed me day and night.

Note the word trying, I refused outright.

Daisy turned into a much more regular visitor, she had dinner with us and took Su out some weekends.

It all came to a head one Saturday evening, they had been out for the afternoon, had had lunch somewhere, I'd made dinner, I made a Meze, Greek food, little dishes to share, I thought we had a good time, the ozo flowed, then the Metaxa, (Greek brandy).

I went to bed, on my own leaving them talking and watching a movie.

I just thought that they would share Su's room.

Surprise.......

I felt a body cuddle up to me, as I rolled onto my back a hand reached round and grasped my cock.

I hardened instantly, it had been months since anything apart from my own hand had touched it.

"Don't think about this, I'm not drunk, I'm just happy, and want you to make me even happier, now stay still, let me suck that first load out of you and then you can last for me getting the next load ready."

And that's just what happened.

She teased me, edged me with her mouth, took her time, and then I came, she nearly drowned.

The second load was driven into her hard and fast, I needed that and I heard no complaints.

We dozed, I went to use the bathroom somewhere in the night, cleaned up a bit, on the way back Su was sat at the top of the stairs crying.

"I'm sorry Su, but I have my needs as well as yours, we'll talk in the morning."

Daisy found the same thing later.

Breakfast was uneventful, but there was the elephant in the room, sex.

"Ok, we have to talk, the three of us, who wants to start?" I said.