I'm worried about my marriage. I love my husband and he loves me. In most ways we get along fine, we care deeply about each other. But our sex life has left both of us frustrated.
Rick is 33, I'm 32. We've been married five years, we've been talking about having a baby. But should we bring a child into a marriage like this? One that, I have to say, might not last. We do have sex—it's just not very good. I suck his cock for a bit, he licks my pussy, he fucks me. He gets off, I never do.
I masturbate quite often. I'm sure Rick does as well. In fact, that's what I'm doing now—lying on the bed, fondling my breast with my left hand, slowly rubbing my pussy with my right. I took today off work to get a lot of house cleaning done. Now, I'm on a break.
It's not that Rick is a poor lover. He tries hard, I'd say he's got the moves. It just doesn't work for me. Maybe he's too nice, too gentle, maybe a I need someone rougher. Or maybe it's just me. I never had a great time with my two previous lovers. My best orgasms (usually my only ones) come when I'm all alone, like now.
I'm fondling myself slowly, don't want to rush. I'm fantasizing about Anthony, Rick's very hot 25-year-old assistant. Rick and I have joked about my attraction to Anthony but Rick doesn't know I think of Anthony when I masturbate. Rick once asked to watch me masturbate.
"That's personal," I said.
"I'm your husband," he said. I didn't let him, I should have but I just couldn't. He never asked again.
Real-life Anthony is very nice and polite, almost naïve. Fantasy Anthony is much stronger. He doesn't abuse me but he does order me around. He likes to spank me and he knows I love it. I always have a good orgasm when Anthony is on my mind. Right now, I'm still moving slowly—I want to make this last.
Ding goes my phone, a text coming in. I better look at it. It's Rick:
"I'm hoping to get inside you later."
I smile. Gotta love that boy, he never gives up. This is a new twist for him—sexy texts are rare for us and we've never sent nude photos. I just couldn't.
But I have to answer him. What should I say? "Me too, can't wait."? I'm a writer, I should be able to come up with something better than that. I think for a minute, then type quickly before I chicken out.
"Come home now. I'm playing with myself."
Do I dare hit "send"? The normal me would not but I've roused myself up pretty good. I tap on "send."
My heart jumps. What is he going to think? Hopefully, he'll love it. A few minutes pass. Why isn't he answering? Don't tell me he's showing this around the office—to Anthony? No, Rick wouldn't do that, would he?
Finally, another ding and here's his answer.
"I can't. I'm interviewing people."
What the fuck? Your wife makes an offer like this and you're worried about some strangers? It's lunch time, you can come home. These people will reschedule, they need a job.
I sit up in bed, my mood broken. What an asshole! The least he could have done was add to his message, something like "Sorry, I wish I could." The jerk couldn't even do that. Ding. Another text. I pick up the phone, more pissed than ever.
"Lie on top of the bed. Put a blindfold on. Don't wear anything else. I'm sending Anthony. Ten minutes. I gave him my key."
Yikes! Anthony is coming??? No, no, don't be ridiculous. Rick would never do that. The blindfold means Rick is coming and he's going to pretend to be Anthony. That's got to be it . . . doesn't it? . . . but he knows I'm attracted to Anthony . . . Rick couldn't do something that crazy . . . or could he send Arnie (I hate Arnie and he's ugly). No, Rick's not a mean person. Or could he just not come at all, send nobody, just to play a trick on me? He's not that big an asshole.