Author's Note: I was at least 1000 words into this when I realized the nameless narrator and wife are the same characters as in "I Heard Him Leave." The lover in that one and this one are different people, though. I hope that other guy is around somewhere, because I think she needs him, at least once in a while.
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He buys her gifts. He's a middle-aged single man who knows about me and what we do, but doesn't like to think about it. He pretends he's courting her. He gives her flowers. He takes her to dinner at expensive restaurants. He buys her clothes and jewelry. He makes love to her tenderly and conscientiously. He pouts when she leaves to come home to me.
He's NOT my favorite, but it isn't about me, is it?
She's tried the young, dumb, and full of cum pickups in clubs, one or even two at a time. Yes they're good looking, yes they're good fucks -- or if not good, at least they recover quickly for the second round -- but they don't care about her. They don't treat her with respect. They act like they're making a porn, not making love.
I like those ones, a little. The drawback with them is that I don't get to see everything, which I really love. I'll go to the clubs and sit in a corner while she dances and picks them up, or lets them pick her up, but whether it's a quickie in a car, or a trip to an apartment, I don't really know what she does with them. I have to wait for her to tell me. Still, seeing the start is arousing. Those guys inevitably try to "wreck her holes." That's not her ideal. I love seeing the results when she comes home walking funny, and when she shows me her gaping pussy, or cum leaking from her ass, or crusted on her face or in her hair.
She'll do that once in a while, but it's for me, and HER doing something for ME ends up detracting from both of our experiences.
I like the guys who are actual bulls. They want to fuck her in front of me. They understand my desire to be humiliated. I love it when I can sit in a chair and watch them pleasure her, use her body. I like when they want to compare dick size (they better really be big, because mine isn't really small. That's just how the game works), when they have me put it in her or thank them for fucking her so well, when she talks to me about what they're doing, how big their dicks are, how they're stretching her, they're touching a place inside her that I can't reach. I love to see her face when she's lost in passion, having an orgasm. I think she's most beautiful with a big dick in her mouth, or cum sprayed on her face.
But too often, for her, those experiences become self-conscious. One little misstep or misstatement and she's aware that the bull is more into fucking with me than fucking her. She feels used as a tool to fulfill his fantasy and mine. She feels disgust for herself, and for me. Sometimes her anger and disgust with me leads her to mistreat me after he's gone. I love that experience in the moment, but the aftermath is a strain.
So she found him, and they go on dates. I hate it, but I hate it the way cuckolds like me do. I spend her date time fantasizing about what they are doing. I imagine how big his dick is. I picture them: kissing and making out, caressing each other. He's stimulating her nipples, taking her bra off, going down on her. She's pulling his dick out, caressing it, rubbing it on her face, and sucking on it. They're going at it in cowgirl, missionary, and doggy positions (she will never do doggy with me, even when she lets me penetrate her).
By the time she comes home I am in a total frenzy.
My cuckold shame intrudes at odd times in our daily life. She tells a friend about her delicious dinner at an expensive restaurant I've never been to, or a new bar or club, a cocktail she's had. She brings home flowers he gives her and I put them as a centerpiece on the dining room table, where they mock me for a week or more. I find the lacy underthings he bought her in the laundry hamper for me to wash and dry. We're out at the pub, and I realize she's wearing earrings, or a bracelet, that he gave her.
I tried to compete. I took her out to dinner at the newest, hottest restaurant, and gave her a set of earrings. It was the night before our anniversary, but that's when we could get into the restaurant.
She looked at the prices on the menu and asked, "Why did we come here? We can't afford this place!"
I said, "It's for our anniversary. And I got you this." I gave her the little box with the earrings.
She looked at them, and at the box, and said, "These must have cost way too much."
I protested.
She looked at me closely, and realized. She took my hands in hers and said, "Honey, you can't compete on money, just like you can't compete on dick size or endurance. But you don't need to! I love you. When you buy expensive things, you're spending OUR money. You are my coworker and financial partner. I love you for that, and need you to be that. Our money is for the things we need. Tomorrow you will return those earrings and get our money back. But here's a gift I bought for you." She handed me a wrapped box. I unwrapped and opened it, just as the waitress arrived. I stared in dread and fascination at the cock cage, while the young woman smirked, waiting to set my plate down.
My wife said to the waitress, "Take the food and packaged it for us to go, please." To me she said, "I know you don't need to wear a cage, but it excites me to think about you having it on while I'm fucking. I'm going on a date tomorrow on OUR anniversary, and you are going to stay home, locked up."
I hate that fucking cage.
After that date, she came home, VERY late, carrying a shopping bag and wearing a different dress from the one she went out in. It was red, skin-tight, short at the hem, and deep in the cleavage. It was more appropriate for a tiny twenty-something, than my fortyish wife. Still she's in good shape. Her b-cup boobs might sag a little, and maybe there are some stretch marks on her belly and her butt. A dress like that smooths all of that out. The dΓ©colletage showed she wore no bra. The tightness of the dress revealed she now wore a thong. The only thongs she owns are ones he bought her, and she didn't wear one when she left the house. I should know, I helped her choose her clothes and get dressed. Frequently she'll have me wear one of those thongs when she goes out to meet him. That night, with the cage, she didn't.
"Help me get this dress off, and hang it up," were the first words she said. "God, what a fun night! We went shopping for clothes. The dress is sexy isn't it?"