(Part 2 of 3)
Over the next few weeks I persuaded myself that it didn't happen. My wife never sat in the darkness of her co-worker's car while I watched a dumb movie. She never violated the sanctity of our marriage with her soft lips and his...well it didn't happen. Melanie is a woman of refinement, a real lady. She just wouldn't do something like that.
And yet the thought of her doing just that, in terrible detail, kept popping into my head.
The next occasion of my troubles was teacher professional services day. For years without fail Melanie would attend the mandatory morning sessions, have lunch with her staff and then skip the afternoon electives. I would take the day off and we would do something together. This year though she told me to go ahead and work that day. There were some afternoon sessions she wanted to attend, related to her certification.
I knew that was pure bullshit but I played it cool. I didn't request the day off work but instead called in sick. In the late morning I drove a friend's borrowed car to the school district offices and staked out the parking lot. Sure enough she emerged from the building promptly at noon, practically arm-in-arm with none other than chemistry teacher Tom. They got into his car, a Dodge Challenger, and I followed them to a motel near their school.
I watched through the lobby windows as they checked in and got on the elevator. There were only two floors so I went in and got a room on the second. I had no way of knowing what room they were in but when I walked the upstairs hallway I saw just one Do Not Disturb sign. That had to be them. Unfortunately it was two doors down and across the hall from me.
I wasn't sure what to do next so I left my door cracked and watched. An hour went by and I was about to give up when the housekeeper arrived on the elevator. I asked her to let me into an adjoining room, offering her a version of the truth along with two hundred dollars and a promise not to make any trouble. Shortly I was making myself comfortable in a chair and cautiously putting my ear to a glass pressed against the wall.
It was a bust at first. I could hear muffled conversation, some laughter, random clicks and clinks. At times I could hear Melanie's voice distantly but clearly. Tom's lower voice came through only as a murmur. But I didn't really care what he had to say anyway. It was kind of boring though I guess it was better than hearing a bunch of grunts and groans. Again, I was just about to give up when I heard two somethings fall heavily into the bed on the other side of the wall...and heard one side of a conversation.
"...murmur...murmur...murmur..."
"Yeah, I want to try everything."
"...murmur..."
"I don't know. Everything?"
"...murmur murmur..."
"What? No way. I've never even done THAT with my husband."
I could guess what THAT was and thankfully she wasn't going for it.
"Do you have something we can use as lube?"
What the fuck?
"Well, good thing you planned ahead."
Oh fuck. This was fucked up. I was in a panic. I wanted to yell, beat on the wall, beat down their door, do anything to stop it from happening. But could I have stopped it? Clearly she was Tom's girl now, not mine. If she wanted him, wanted THAT, then I could delay the inevitable but I couldn't stop it.
"Okay, so how do you want me?"
I took the glass away from the wall and stretched out on the bed. I felt sick...and, sorry to say, I was turned on. It was like I looked forward to it happening even as I dreaded it. Despise me if you want. I certainly despise myself for it. But the thought of Melanie, my prim and proper wife, assuming the position, getting herself ready to...to submit to...to being...being sodomized. It was...what is wrong with me? At the same time I was mortified. If only it could be me there with her.
Part of me wanted to put the glass back up, to hear her moans while her lily ass is abused. To hear the dirty words she says as her virginal anus gets stretched. I imagined the look on her face when she realizes...what is wrong with me?
I couldn't listen in though. They were about to do the most private, intimate act I can imagine and who deserves to be spied on during that? Even if I were the best of husbands, which I'm not, and she were the worst of wives, which she is not, even then she would be entitled to some privacy.
I hated her. Still, I hoped he would be gentle with her. I wished I could at least comfort her. But she could never know that I know. I got the fuck out of there.
Why in eight years of marriage had I never tried weird sex like that with Melanie? I've put it in a girl's ass before and LOVED it. Sheri, the girl who almost broke up my marriage...no, that's wrong...the girl who I almost broke up my own marriage over, had a very talented ass. She was proud of it, rightfully so. We didn't do it all the time but it was a real treat when the stars lined up that way.
There were a lot of things Sheri would do that I didn't do with Mel. Didn't do them with Mel not because she wouldn't do them, but because I didn't ask. In my mind there were things you did with your wife and things you did with your...your slut? Is that how I thought of Sheri? I guess I felt it was OK to treat her that way since I didn't really care about her. Is it fair that I treated her that way? Clearly she felt she deserved better from me.
Did I avoid doing those things with Mel because I thought she was too good for it? More likely, I didn't want her to know that I was capable of treating a girl like a fuck toy. I guess that's why I went to Sheri, so I could have my way without feeling guilty about it. I felt guilty now, especially since someone else was treating my own wife like a fuck toy.
If I had been more honest about my desires, if Melanie was into being treated more like a sex object, would it have strengthened the relationship more than weakened it? Would it have led me to resist the siren's call?
Doesn't matter now. I dropped the ball and another man is scoring the touchdown.
At this point you are probably wondering why I don't throw her out, or throw myself out, or throw myself off a bridge. The fact is I love her. Even after her betrayals I love her. And when you love someone they have power over you. I was determined to win her back. And I wasn't going to do it by waving the evidence in her face. And I wasn't going to do it by fist-fighting her boyfriend. I've known her a long time, know what makes her tick. What I needed to do was to prove myself the better man just like when I got her to marry me.
I kept myself cheerful and friendly. Moping around isn't attractive. Mel was a little mopey for a few days and I told myself she was feeling guilty. Good sign? I paid her attention but not too much. Didn't want to crowd her. I was present but gave the appearance of aloofness. Periodically I engineered little excuses to be nice to her: