I always felt that something was wrong with me. I loved the thought of my wife fucking another man or even multiple men. I wasn't always that way though. I used to get extremely jealous to the point that I would drive off my girlfriends due to my possessiveness and jealousy.
As I got older, I started reading Penthouse Letters. I started off just enjoying any letter that involved fucking, but slowly gravitated towards the wife fucking letters. I guess it was the taboo of it all, seeing one's wife in the throes of passion with another man but knowing her heart belonged to you. Once I realized that as long as my wife's heart belonged to me I didn't have any jealousy then I was fine with the fantasy.
I married my childhood sweetheart, Susan. It wasn't like everyone else though, meeting as children and knowing you would be married. Her father was military and they moved away when she was 10 and I didn't meet up with her again for another 37 years, after I had started my divorce from my then current wife. Susan is very proper and conservative, but she does have a wild side to her. She loves sex and will engage in play with me, most of the times in public places.
Doesn't matter where it is, she will look around and grab me, or rub up against me. I know for a fact that I have her heart and she has mine.
With that in mind, I started thinking about what I would do if someone flirted with her. I thought about how I would react, how she would react, what would happen if things went further.
I started envisioning her rubbing up against another guy, letting him kiss her, letting his hands wander across her body. I then started fantasizing that he was stripping her slowly, all the while I would be there quietly watching the events unfold.
This fantasy slowly built in intensity to the point that I blurted it out during a late night romp with her. We had a bit to drink so I think she chalked it up to that. Still, she wasn't sure whether to be hurt or what concerning my revelation. She admitted that the thought was enticing but was adamant that she would never do anything like that as it would undoubtedly ruin our marriage. Still, I did notice a slight change in her. She would occasionally ask me during our love making sessions if I would be excited to watch her dance with another guy or let someone have their way with her.
This continued until one night we had a heart to heart talk about things. She just came right out and asked me why I had this fantasy and did it mean that I wanted other women. I assured her that she was the only one for me and that this would never be something to consider unless we were absolutely sure that our marriage was solid. I told her that it wasn't about her finding another love, but enjoying sex to the fullest. Seeing her in the height of passion was something I longed for. As we talked, I started caressing her breasts and her pussy. She was very responsive and wet. I told her I loved her with all of my heart but that I wanted to see her let loose and enjoy her body even if it meant with other men. We didn't talk any more after that, but enjoyed some frantic fucking.
This was the milestone in our marriage that I can look back on and see the change in her. She started dressing more revealing and more outgoing when we went out to clubs. She was more willing to dance with other men but would still not allow them to take any liberties with her.