I was curled up after another sex session that morning with Dharamji's hairy arm around me when there was a knock on the door. I was petrified because I was buck naked, as was he.
"Hain?" he grunted loudly.
"Parth bhaiyya is in a taxi." I heard Bhima's voice say. And then I heard his footsteps trail away.
Dharamji gave my breasts another squeeze and rolled away, saying,
"Take a bath."
That's when the haze of sexual delight cleared and I realized that I had only 20 minutes to wash all the sex off me before my husband got home! As I got dressed quickly and walked down the stairs, my mother in law was standing there.
"Take a bath." she also said.
As I stripped before the bath, I noticed that the bruise on my face was indeed almost gone. This again made me suspect that Pritha had first hand experience of being with Dharamji.
It's been some years so it's hard to remember exactly what I was feeling then. The years since have changed me a lot and added a fresh perspective on things so maybe I'm projecting backwards.
But the four orgasms he gave me that morning seemed to mark a big change because honestly, that was the best feeling I had ever had. That huge wave of tingly and quaking happiness....I liked it. Which made me feel guilty. Which made me feel sad. Which made me think about the sex again to feel better.
Parth spoke to his mother and Dharamji after returning before speaking to me. It was all in front of me in the dining room and I was amazed at how nonchalant they were being. My own heart was racing. Here was my husband, talking to a man I had just been ravaged by all morning. And the mother in law who enabled it.
When my husband did talk to me, it felt like small talk. How are doing doing? Feeling fine? Ma said you were a bit ill. Okay, good. I have brought you some jewelry from Dubai. Etc.
With Parth's return, things returned to the way they used to be. For a couple of weeks at least. Many times, I thought about telling the stranger in bed next to me that his wife had been penetrated multiple times by his "benefactor". But how does one even say that?
It was two nights before Parth made a move on me in bed. We had sex. It was.... Nice. But the nice feeling inside me never crossed beginner levels. I didn't inhale in pleasant discomfort at his girth or size. His smooth handsome young body didn't have that raw masculinity I had been introduced to. And of course, I had none of the pulsing throbbing orgasms the old man had given me.
But still, it felt nice, having sex with Parth, even if in a less moving way.
Looking back, that week is when I truly started enjoying sex, be it with anyone. I started liking the feeling of a warm hard penis probing my insides. It's the best happiest feeling ever.
A couple of weeks later when my mother in law saw me reach for a sanitary pad when I was in my bedroom, she looked a little annoyed.
"You aren't taking pills or anything, right?"
"No, maaji."
"Hmmm." she said and walked away, clearly upset that I wasn't pregnant. I knew it was most likely because of the pill.
About ten more days went by and my encounters with Dharamji started seeming like a distant memory. He still joined us for Sunday dinner and still stared at me even in front of my husband. But otherwise he had gone back to what he used to be, mostly out of sight and out of mind.
One afternoon, Pritha and I were watching TV and Parth was sitting nearby working on his laptop when the maid came in.
"Dharamji is asking Shama didi to go up for some work."
I was stunned! Last time, he had given Parth being out of town as a flimsy justification for forcing himself on me. But now he was summoning me as he was right here?
The maid gave me a long knowing look and wiped her lips lightly with the back of her hand. Had she been on her knees in front of him? I felt an irrational pang of jealousy before my nerves kicked in.
"Go, beti." Pritha said.
Parth didn't even look up from his laptop as I got up and went upstairs.
Dharamji started off doggy style on the bed this time. Really hard doggy style. Like saving all the intensity since the past 3 weeks. The bed creaked so much I wondered if Parth could hear it downstairs. Pounding me hard, pushing my face into the bed, he rode me.
I might have cried a little then, and he might have thought it was because I was being forced. But it was because of my guilt at how much this horny ugly old man was giving me more pleasure. When I hollered through my first orgasm since Parth came back, I wondered if he could hear that too.
Maybe because it had been a while, Dharamji didn't last as long as he usually did. After depositing his sperm inside me, he slapped my naked ass as a signal for me to leave.
When I returned after cleaning myself up properly, Parth was in the bedroom reading the newspaper. He looked at me calmly and asked,
"Ho gaya.....kaam?"
Later I thought about the pause. You see, that question, in everyday terms, means "done with work?" but it could also, in another context, mean "done with sex?". Because kaam can mean both work and sex (hence Kaam Sutra).
"Ji." I said, expecting him to ask something more about exactly what it was that Dharamji needed me for. But he went back to reading the newspaper.
I managed to find Bhima quickly and asked him to get me more of those pills. He nodded and set off. I did enjoy sex with Dharamji but I didn't want his ugly babies! I had no idea how to make sure it was only Parth's baby. Like I said, orthodox society, no sex education. No smart phones. I just knew the morning after pill as advertised then on TV.
I was alone in the kitchen a while later when I saw Bhima return on his bullet motorcycle. My mother in law was in the front yard by the tulsi. She saw me and Bhima exchange looks. And then she saw the telltale medical paper bag in his hand.
The look she gave me! It still chills my spine! It wasn't anger so much as disappointment that I wasn't as stupid as she thought I was. She asked Bhola to hand her the bag. She confirmed its contents and then started walking towards the house.
My heart was pounding against my chest as the door opened and she walked in. I was readying my speech when she said,
"Shama, I'm going to be as direct with you as I can."
The calmness in her voice threw me off. I had expected her to be angry.
"The earlier you get pregnant, the easier everyone's lives will be. Don't you want to have a baby?"
"Maaji I do, but I want to have..."
She cut me off and what she said next showed she knew exactly what I was going to say.
"Shama, you're not stupid. Listen to me." she held me by the shoulder gently. "The only thing that matters is you have a baby. Nothing else matters. Do you understand what I'm saying?"
I didn't then. I did a while later. I was not being whored out to Dharamji for a random kinky reason. I was being bred. By him. For him.