I stood nervously at the door to her apartment wondering whether I should go through with it or not. In reality I had no choice. At least, not if I wanted to save my marriage! For the hundredth time I wondered why I had been so stupid as to have an affair. True, it had been very exciting and the sex had been out of this world, but my husband was bound to find out. There were only so many times that he would believe that I was working late. I was at the office every time, but I was never working! Finally, he got suspicious, turned up at the office and found me on the Board Room table, legs akimbo, being fucked senseless by my boss who received a bloody nose for his trouble.
As I stood outside her door I had very mixed feelings about my husband, Steve. I definitely didn't want to lose him, I loved him, but I was angry with him for making me do this. I had always been a strong minded woman, I had gone out of my way to ensure that my whole life was not wrapped up with Steve. I had always been career minded, maintained a separate set of friends and had days shopping and nights out with the girls whenever I wanted. When Steve found out about my affair he had immediately left and gone to live with a friend, leaving me an angry note in which he repeatedly referred to me as a slut. He didn't contact me for over a month and I really thought I'd lost him. And then finally he called.
Deep despair turned to hope, hope that he would be coming home. Hope turned to horror, horror at what he was proposing. Calmly and without any emotion Steve told me that he would be willing to come home on two conditions. First, I had to change jobs to get away from the man with whom I'd had the affair. Second, he had to be sure that I would not stray again. The first condition was no problem, the affair had ended and I was keen to move on.
As a vivacious, attractive female lawyer I had no problem in standing out in job interviews among the grey suited, boring male candidates. The second condition was a bit of a shocker. Steve told me that he had arranged for me to receive some training at the hands of a lady called Helen Carmichael. He told me having a slut for a wife was not entirely unattractive to him provided that he could be sure that I would be his slut, submissive and faithful. He had found Helen Carmichael on the internet, though I had no idea what search term he might have used. I had thought about his proposition for a sleepless week as his deadline for a decision raced up on me. In the end I decided to agree, after all, how bad could it possibly be?
So there I stood, hesitant about knocking on the door, delaying the moment when I was to be at the mercy of Helen Carmichael. I adjusted my tight pencil skirt, pulling it further down so that it finished just above the knee and then I buttoned up one more button, making sure my cleavage couldn't be seen. Of course, I knew that these were only temporary measures, that in all likelihood I would not be wearing my skirt or blouse within the hour. At my feet sat my red suitcase containing everything I would need for my stay with Helen, or so I thought. Steve had booked me in for two weeks, I would still go to work as normal but instead of going home each day I would be going back for my training with Helen.
Finally, I knocked timidly on the door. After what seemed like an age, the door opened and Helen Carmichael appeared. In my mind's eye I had built an image of a severe looking woman. I couldn't have been more wrong. Helen was tall, but slightly built, very elegant and extremely beautiful. Black hair, green eyes, long shapely legs and, as I now know, a 36D bra size. I was speechless, mainly because of my nerves, so it was Helen who broke the silence.
"Samantha I presume?"
That was the first surprise, no-one called me Samantha, I was just plain Sam. She gave me no time to answer.
"Come in and go through to my study at the end of the corridor," not so much a suggestion as a direct order. I picked up my bag and walked through to the study followed by Helen who went behind her desk and sat down. I began to pull up a chair when she barked, "you will not sit down and you will keep your mouth shut unless given permission to speak". "Do you understand?"
My head was in a spin as Helen looked me up and down with her piercing green eyes. I nodded yes.