My husband Martin has asked me to be intimate with another man. His constant asking messed my mind up, really, because I do find myself attracted to Geoffrey, our contractor, who renovated the entertainment and pool areas in my home. In fact, Martin and my best friend Caitlin keep telling me to seduce him.
What disturbed me most was my pledge and devotion to Martin. I was afraid of what the consequence would be if I do it in my marriage. Does he get jealous? Is it just a fantasy? Does he want another woman? All these questions kept haunting me.
After much contemplation, I decided to approach a marriage counsellor. I called her and fixed the appointment for the next day.
When I went, she put me at ease. I told her why I had come to see her. The first question she asked received the response, "No."
"Is your husband abusing you physically or mentally in any way?" She stopped and said she couldn't help me. She suggested I consult with a sex therapist regarding my concern. She let me know there was one in the same building and even called to set up an appointment for me, handing me the receiver.
I have been to see a therapist, Lucinda. She was very nice and really professional. I explained everything in detail to her.
Then came her concerns: "Is my husband really serious about that? How jealous is my husband? What is his hidden motive for this?"
She asked me to fantasize about scenes in which I had sexual relations with another man-but not as a fantasy, like it was real. This would be a test and give me my concerns.
Some of her own concerns were regarding myself:
"How do I handle this? What are my feelings towards the other man? What are my feelings about my husband? What do I want? Do I want this?
I told her that I managed our make-out session properly. I'm not in love with Geoffrey, and I still loved Martin. The last question gave me something to think about. That is a fact that keeps bugging me, I fantasized about Geoffrey's cock and thought of how it would feel when he fucks me with that monster. It did tempt me.
She reflected upon Martin's behavior, too, and came to the conclusion that he is not a cuckold or wife watcher; he is an alpha male, the victor, the one deriving the satisfaction of claiming his wife back, making her his. That, too, was a revelation for me.
After that, I really felt a lot better about the situation. I am now really keen to see Martin's reaction if his jealousy gets tested.
That evening, Martin did manage to catch me off my guard a little.
"I saw you were at the Menlyn Office Park," he says. "You had a meeting with someone?"
I nodded, without making eye contact while sipping my tea. "It was a counsellor, actually."
The air sucked in in the room, and in an instant, his mind began racing. "What is it, Andrea?"
I took a deep breath, my stomach bubbling with excitement and apprehension all at once. "We discussed your idea."
"The idea?" Martin's eyebrows shot upwards. "You mean."
"Yes," I said, holding his gaze. "The idea of me.with someone else."
He leaned back in his chair, a smug smile playing in the corners of his lips. "And what did she say?"
I paused a second, savoring it. "She said it may be one way to explore our boundaries, to draw closer."
The smile broadened. "See-I knew that wasn't such a crazy idea."
"But," I said, "she also said it's important to dip our toes in the water, you know, to see how we actually feel."
Martin nodded, a gleam of anticipation in his eyes. "So, when do we start?"
I decided to play along. "How about tomorrow? I'll invite Geoffrey over under the pretense of extending the deck out at the pool."
Martin smiled predatorily. "Perfect. I'll be home early."
Day one, I slipped into the most skimpy bikini that I could find-the one in which my ample assets barely stayed inside. I knew it would send Geoffrey crazy and give little doubt as to my intentions. I smeared on sunscreen and caught my reflection in the mirror; my heart started to pound in anticipation. Was I actually going to do this? For Martin's sake, and maybe a little for my own curiosity, I really had to give it at least a try.