Moira, my ever so patient black widow, beautiful and poisonous, drew me into her web. Unlike the eight legged arachnid, her goal wasn't to kill and consume me, but to mold me into her vision of the perfect husband, a drone dedicated to his queen, but unlike the drone she had no intention of ever allowing my sperm to fertilize her eggs.
I was falling harder and deeper for Moira. It was easy to explain my attraction. She was beautiful, older, sophisticated, educated, affluent and she kept inviting me over. Her behavior certainly made me feel the attraction was mutual.
The only times I felt rebuffed were when she dated which was tough, but not nearly as tough as when she showed up at a company function with another man. I would do my best to avoid her, but she would seek me out, introducing me to her date as Peabody's genius intern. She dated a lot of different men and while she didn't have makeout sessions in front of me she had no qualms about hugging, touching, hand holding in front of me. To see his arm draped around her tanned shoulders, around her waist, resting on her hip, was painful. Even more painful was knowing after the company function I was going back to my apartment alone and he was going home with her.
While she and I were certainly having a lot of physical intimacy it was certainly not the kind of physical intimacy he was experiencing with her. Unlike him, the only parts of me entering Moira's vagina were my tongue and fingers. The simulated intercourse we did have was when I used her dildo on her. There were no blow jobs and the hand jobs she gave me really did approximate a milking as she started from the base of my penis, firmly grabbed my penis, and stroked upward, stopping short of the head. My ejaculations weren't really climaxes, but a way to relieve without satiating my sexual arousal.
She knew how men ticked and to prevent me from becoming lazy, unfocused, or selfish she kept my arousal just below the boiling point. My milkings were akin to lowering the heat to keep the contents of the pot from spilling over onto the stove.
We didn't really talk about her dates from an emotional angle because it was pretty clear to me who was spending five to seven days each week with her she preferred me to them.
She would bring them up in a round about way by commenting on how well I handled meeting him, "No one would ever guess by your reaction you and I are dating. Very good. I worry your jealousy will get the best of you one day, especially if you've been drinking."
I assured her I knew the risks too high if I blew it. Not only would I damage our relationship, but she would lose her job.
She didn't really ask my opinion of them nor did she volunteer much about any of them. I never saw her with the same man which made me feel she was dating to keep up pretenses. I did wonder why sex with them part of the cover up. She just explained woman have needs they need scratched.
"I could scratch them," I volunteered.
She caressed the side of my face, "You do scratch them, but that itch is different from the other itch."
"I could try,".
"Shhh, cuck. We know we'd both be disappointed. Focus on what you're good at doing." She would then push my head down so I could perform cunnilingus or roll over onto her stomach and have me worship her rosebud colored anus with my mouth.
Deep down, I knew she was right, but I still wanted the opportunity. If those men had cocks the size of her dildo I didn't have a chance with my slender four and a half inches. I swallowed my pride and considered myself lucky for what she did allow me and hoped one day she would allow me more.
Her arousal magnified my own. The more powerful her orgasm the better I felt about myself. Unable to climax because of the cage or to become fully erect, my penis did swell until physically unable to get any bigger and my penis did leak precum.