Early May 1991continued.
A week in Chicago with Melanie.
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Lynn decided I should take Melanie, in her place, on a business trip to Chicago. Lynn and Kate were staying home to spend time together.
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During our ride to Chicago, Melanie and I talked for the most part, for the first time. The four of us had been screwing over a year at this point but never really discussed anything of importance. With the four of us constantly together it was difficult to have a serious conversation. There wasn't a topic that we didn't cover on this day. It was refreshing for us both and we learned so much it's hard to describe.
The conversation inevitably turned to relationships and sex. We discussed our wants, needs and desires for our growing relationship. I got the feeling there was something on Mel's mind and she was having trouble getting there. Mel wanted to know my feelings about each pairing we had. I told her that I get something very different from each of them and I am also a different person when I'm alone with each of them. She wanted me to explain what I meant.
"Like most people, we act differently to the people around us. When you are at a party you act differently with one person and different still with someone else. People bring out certain qualities in us."
"An example is, Lynn allows me to be submissive and I enjoy that because I can give control to her. I don't have to think, I just do what she wants because I trust her. At work I have to be in total control and it is great to leave that behind for a night. I think Lynn likes that roll more than she will ever admit, her job doesn't allow her to be in control, she can only react to a given situation. I know she would like more control at work, our sex life lets her have that."
"Another example, I am different still when I am alone with Kate. After a few nights with her I knew that the submissive side of me didn't do anything for her. She wasn't as turned on as I expected, so I showed a different side of myself to her. I was more assertive. I feel like I demand more from Kate than I do with anyone else, because that turned her on. It's more like a bullfight than a dance with her."
Mel said she understood and said, "Sometimes I feel like I am competing with Kate for Lynn's attention." She didn't say anything more.
"I think you might be reading more into this than is actually there." I threw the conversation back to her. "What do you get out of this relationship?"
She began, "With Lynn, it's..." she paused a few seconds, "It's hard to explain the difference between Kate and Lynn. For me, I sometimes feel like I am competing with Kate for Lynn's attention or affection because they have been friends for so long. More than ten years before I ever met either of them.
I told her she had nothing to worry about. That Lynn gushes like a schoolgirl when she talks about either of them and explained that Mel should feel secure in the fact that we all loved her deeply. I also said I see how Kate looks at her when she thinks you don't see her.
She continued, "Lynn is submissive in some ways to Kate but at other times she is the one in control, we don't do anything like that." She said pointing back and forth at the two of us.
I said, "I understand, she is submissive but taunts Kate at the same time. It's how they have fun when they're together. In some erotic stories I've read, they call it 'topping from the bottom.' With Kate and Lynn, they most likely have been in love with each other for years, before they slept together that first time, they just didn't realize it. Lynn and I have been in love for many years and we have our tender moments and we have our kinky moments. It's all good.
You and Lynn, you're still in the early stages, just as it is with you and Kate, the playfulness will change when the time is right. Of the possible six pairings between us, Lynn and I are the oldest, Lynn and Kate are 'friendship' old but not sexually any older than with you and Lynn. With every other pairing it's new and we are feeling our way together. Pun intended."
I went on to explain, "The four of us found something crazy and it works for us. Don't ask me why because I have no idea. I know it works for me. If that first Saturday, the two of you came over to help Lynn 'teach me a lesson' had gone different, who knows what would have happened. Something wonderful clicked for us and now we have each other.
"Yes, when Lynn is with me it's soft and nice, it makes me feel warm inside, loved. When I am with Kate it's the same so I must still have a few issues of my own to work through." She looked down the road deep in thought. "What about me? How would you describe you and me?" She asked. We had both avoiding this part of the conversation.
"I don't like this word but, we are normal, and still in the new place." She looked confused and her expression made me want to search for a better explanation. "We don't show different facets of our personalities to each other, you are still the person I first met at that Christmas party a long time ago. We are just ourselves whenever we are together, we all are like that for the most part, so maybe I don't know what I'm talking about. I think we just fit well together. You're quiet like I am, remember that barbecue last year at Kate's, the two of us sat and talked most of the night while Lynn was doing the social butterfly thing, I love her for that. Lynn and Kate are the extroverts and I need to be with an extrovert sometimes, especially when I'm at a party and I don't know very many people, it keeps me from retreating into myself. You and I work well together."
Mel put her head on my shoulder and gave my arm a hug, "We do fit well together!" The miles clicked away.