The next morning we drove down to New Orleans. We checked into our hotel, a little romantic place just outside of the French Quarter. I thought that since it was our honeymoon, we might do it again right when we got there, but Mark was excited to do some sight seeing, so we went and took a romantic carriage ride and went to a museum and spent the whole day sightseeing.
After dinner, we went to listen to some old jazz, and danced a little bit, though I didn't feel like we were really in step with eachother. At ten, we went back to the room. I turned on the TV while Mark was in the bathroom, and I saw there were adult movies available. I had never seen anything like them, because our church taught that pornography was sinful, but I thought that we were married adults now. I was curious, I admit, so I picked one at random, and started to watch it.
The guy in it looked a little plastic, but he was built. It was only after he took his shirt off that I realized he had no hair on his body. The girl in it was pretty and tan and had incredible hair, but her boobs were fake and looked a little silly, especially when she took her top off so quickly. The way she was dressed was incredible. Her skirt barely covered her ass and her top was practically transparent. Then she knelt down and began to take off his pants.
I had never really seen a man's thing before. Mark had been under the covers last night, but I was sure it wasn't as big as the guy in the movie's. His looked like a monster, and I thought for sure the girl would run away screaming, but instead, she started kissing it. I stared as she began to suck it, sliding her head back and forth and moaning. It sounded like she was having a great time.
Just then, Mark came out of the bathroom.
"Kelli, what are you doing?" he said, sounding like my father when he got angry. He grabbed the remote control out of my hand and switched the TV off. "What's wrong with you?"
"I just wanted to see," I said. "I was just curious. It wasn't so bad, was it?"
I didn't think it was bad at all. In fact, I was fascinated by it. The image of that massive thing sliding into her mouth wouldn't leave me, and as I climbed into bed with Mark, I wondered. I knew I wasn't as big as that girl in the movie, but I had a nice body and everyone always said I was pretty. Even Mark's drunk uncle had talked about how lucky Mark was to land a hot piece like me. I wasn't quite sure what he mean at the time, but maybe it was what I had seen.
Between wanting Mark all day long and the few moments I had seen of that movie had me turned on more than I could bear. I slid my nighty up and kissed him. He was still angry about the movie, I could tell, but he let me kiss him, and a few minutes later his arm came around me. I felt him getting hard and rubbed against him.
"Do you want me to kiss it like that girl?" I whispered.
As soon as I said it, I knew it was a mistake. His whole body tensed, and he pulled away with a look on his face that absolutely terrified me.
"I thought I knew who you were," he said. He wasn't shouting, but his voice was hard and cold. "I thought I was marrying a decent, Christian girl, but here you are, watching porn and talking about disgusting perversions. Are you trying to tempt me into sin, like some kind of whore? Never mention that again, and I will forget this ever happened."
He pushed me onto my back then, and pushed his thing into me. As scared as I was of how harsh he had been, I couldn't help moaning as he shoved into me. In just a few moments it was over. I had been so excited for this, all day, and it was over so quickly. I lay beside him as he fell asleep and began to snore softly. I felt like I was on fire down there, and what we had just done only made it worse. Besides that, I was confused and worried. Why had he been so upset? Could it really be that bad?
I knew I wouldn't be able to get to sleep, and showering didn't help, so I dried my hair and got dressed. I would take a walk and try to think things through. I went out through the lobby and started walking. I could hear the noise of people screaming and bright lights in one direction, but I didn't want to see a crowd, so I went the other way. The streets were dark and quiet, and the narrow little houses were hunched close together. I couldn't help thinking of what Mark had said. Was I really a whore?
I had never wanted to be a whore, but when I saw just a few moments of that movie, it had stirred something up in me. Maybe that was what it meant to be a whore. Could you be something so awful without meaning to be? I had always wanted to be a good wife, but if I couldn't stop thinking of those things, those perversions, could I be? And I couldn't seem to shake the image of that giant thing, and the girl stretching her mouth open wide to suck on it.
"Hey girl," a voice said. I looked around, frightened. The guidebook had said that crime was a problem in New Orleans, and suddenly I realized that I was lost, wandering around some neighborhood I knew nothing about.
The man who had spoke was black, very dark, so at first I could just see the gold tooth glistening in the street light, but as he walked out of the shadows I got a better look. He was taller than Mark, and all muscles like a body builder. He had loose jeans on and a sleeveless undershirt, and he wore an old fashioned hat pulled down low so I couldn't see his eyes. He carried a strangely shaped black case of some sort, and he walked like a lion, afraid of nothing and proud.