I was new in town. My husband seemed to be working all the time. I knew he'd be away often and for long periods, but he stayed away even when he was within traveling distance. I hadn't yet found full time work so I was very lonely.
While I was on the computer one afternoon, an ad for an internet dating site popped up. I wasn't interested in dating, so to speak, but maybe.....my mind wandered for a bit, thinking about the possibilities.
I signed up. I made it very clear in my profile that I was attached and not looking to change that. I stated clearly that I was looking for one partner, I had no desire to 'sleep around', I just needed something more... some intimacy, some human touch, a little companionship. When I checked again about a day later I had received so many responses, so many that I was overwhelmed. I tried reading through, but one caught my attention.
His profile, it said, was not available to be viewed, whatever the term was I forget. He had sent a simple email. I think that's what attracted me to it. Very simple, straight forward, he said he was looking for the same. I replied.
We messaged for a few days. I was having doubts about what I was doing, I told him. I had never done anything like this before and now that I had initiated it, I was feeling very nervous. He was great, very patient, very gentle. We decided to meet at the local coffee shop instead of going right to a motel room.
I was so nervous as I got ready to meet Andy for the first time. I showered at least twice. I discarded many outfits before deciding on a simple top and shorts. I put on a little makeup, and went to meet him. Of course, I was very early. I knew he was coming from work and wouldn't be there until 12:15. I almost left a few times, but I stayed, and waited.
Andy had the afternoon off. He had been on sick leave at work, and was just starting back on half days for a couple of weeks before going back full time. I knew what vehicle to expect. When he pulled in, I recognized him immediately. He came over to my truck. I was so nervous that I could hardly speak. Within a few moments, I suggested that we go to the motel after all. I followed him to a lot across from the motel. He picked me up and I drove over with him. I couldn't quite make myself park at the motel, yet.