I wish I could be like other girls. They're so pretty with their perfect blonde, straight hair that probably wafts strawberries. Supple, smooth skin, completely unblemished and radiating youth. Curves and legs that travel through your mind all day. I want to be that girl you think about from time to time, that smiled to you politely on the street, or said "thank you" for holding the door. The girl you want to get to know: her name, the things she smiles to, the things to protect her from. The girls that always have the perfect hair day, and look perfect doing everything, even "ugly" faces. It would be nice to be like them, I sulk to my own as I watch the prettiest fish in the office swim by me with a whole school following with their eyes.
As a woman, or just anyone who knows girl language, I can tell she likes the attention. She purposefully sways her perfect ass in that tight miniskirt. Bare legs. 9-inch high heels. Bends down like no one's looking. Constantly moving and playing with her hair. Sultry eyes. Shirt unbuttoned on the top two, but signals she's ready for a steamy photocopy session when there are three. I don't hate her because she pushes the definition of "modest" a bit, I hate her because she has no respect for relationships. This blonde bimbo's hooked up with a few guys in the office already, a couple known to be married. She typically strikes during office parties; gives these suggesting glances, touches the guy a little bit too friendly, giggles at all the dumb jokes he makes, whispers something, leaves and, presumably, plows. The boss knows very well of her activities, but who cares as long as she does the minimum amount of work and he gets a blowjob from her every now and then.
There's a clique of ladies, similarly undesirable as me, that commiserate and gossip at lunch about Blondie. They just lost the genetic lottery. Fat, horrendous teeth, paper thin lips, donkey laugh, butterface, butterbody, you name it. But I don't join because I'm not the jealous type. I know deep down their self conscious chips away whenever they see her wrap another man around her finger. And I really feel for them. I felt the same way before I met my husband, Brad. He's the only reason I haven't gotten a cat yet. He's spent every week making me feel special. Buying me flowers, taking me out to dinner, paying me all these sugary-sweet compliments your teeth would just fall out. I didn't even have to ask. He's also sensitive and attentive to my insecurities. After a seeming lifetime of emotional pain I've endured. Watching girls like Blondie have a new man of the week in high school, feeling invisible to guys in middle school, even my own mother making fun of me, calling me fat in elementary school. Time and time again, I'd repair my smashed heart. Eventually, some pieces were so pulverised the dust flew away and never came back. But when Brad entered my life, it was like he gave me a piece of his, and we stitched together this Frankenstein heart. The roses never looked so beautifully red, and chocolates never tasted salty because of my tears again.
My heart squeezed with so much joy, love, and this renewed appreciation for my husband. I can't wait to have children with this man. I love him so dearly, I wanted to surprise him before I go back to work. I park in the driveway like usual, unlock the door, and come inside. I'm practically bubbling inside from how excited I am to see him, despite this morning. Then my heart kind of sinks when I close the door and hear loud, consistent moaning from upstairs. I freeze where I am, hoping I'm wrong, that isn't a female moan. Brad's just jacking off to porn, and I'd be okay with that. But there it goes again, even louder, almost screaming and clapping to accompany it. It sounds too real and loud to come from a computer. So, in disbelief, I creep up the carpeted staircase. It gets louder and louder as my heart sinks to the pit of my tummy. The door is slightly ajar, and when I go to crack it open even more, I almost jump out of my skin seeing my husband balls deep into this strange woman. Their backs are turned against me, the girl on her knees and my husband behind her, on the bed we've slept in since we consummated our marriage.
I'm frozen in place, watching this spectacle. It's the kind of heartbreak where you can feel your heartstrings snapping one by one. My husband is going berserk, slamming himself inside this woman, grunting like a feral beast until he exclaims he's going to cum. I feel a ghostly sweat on my forehead. He momentarily takes out his cock and I see the girl whip back and, presumably, goes down to suck the flowing cum out of my husband's cock. My hands clam up. His guttering moans are the only thing I can hear, his hands going to ruffle this girl's hair, as she comes up to kiss him lovingly. My heart skips where I know I have to move, I know I don't want to, but I have to. Thinking on my feet, I run into the linen closet and shut it behind me. I hear laughing and giggling, followed by a slap.