I straightened up and smoothed my dress down. I looked down at the floor and saw the end of the condom. I knew that if I ever allowed myself to get into this kind of situation again, I sure would not use a condom. Maybe if I screwed I would Oh hell I know I have to, but it is not the same when I suck off a man. Part of the enjoyment is feeling his cock explode in my mouth and to gulp down his hot juice, that in it self produces enjoyment.
We finely came to a stop and I watched the boys get off the bus. I did not want to get off. I took the blanket and put it over my lap. I put my head back and closed my eyes. I felt so ashamed and I was so turned on sexually. How can I ever explain this? I just can’t I hated my craving for sex. I felt like I had just become an addict. You know how they say there are some people that if they ever take one little bit of drug, that they are immediately a drug addict. They say that their body’s just latch onto the drugs and they cannot ever get over the cravings. While there are those that do drugs once, think nothing of it, and never desire it again. Well the more I think about it the more I think that I may have become hooked. In addition, I have no idea how to fix it.
I sat there thinking and soon the bus was underway. I was thinking how long of a Bus ride this was turning out to be. Here it was the second day and we where only in New Mexico. I thought they just drove straight through with stops in major cities. Boy was I wrong they go here, they go there, and they stop in places so out of the way, places with just a gas station, restaurant and always a gift shop. I knew this was going to be a very long and very interesting trip. I say that because so far it has not been boring (at times it has been anything else but that) I rode awhile and decided to pull out the book and finish it.
Boy this girl in the book sure was addicted to sex, she never wore panties or bras, and she got off showing her naked self to strange men and women. Then she would screw anyone (man or woman) anyplace at anytime. Thinking of this really hit me hard, here I was having sex with strange men, (and women) in public places and I was just like her I could not say the word “No” or “Stop It.”
In drug commercials they tell us to “Just Say No” here I can’t say that little word “No” and this girl never would say “No” she was into Gang-Bangs and she loved anal sex as much if not more than vagina sex. Now after reading all this, I did recall what Cynthia had told me. Nevertheless, the way that this book was written it was so hard for me to believe it was made up or fiction. Or that it was even written by a man and not a real woman. Then to be honest I never read anything like this before so how can I even know or be sure.
I could believe everything she wrote because for the last day or so I was doing the same things. Well I may not have done a Gang-Bang but from the way she talked it has to be wild and fantastic. The way she talked about anal sex made me wonder if it really felt the way she described it. I recalled how great it felt when I had fingers in me, but that really wasn’t anal sex. I finished the book just as we pulled into another one of those Bus Stations. The driver said we had a 20-minute stop. I wasn’t hungry and I just wanted to stretch my legs. I went into the gift shop and looked around; to be honest I was looking for something to sort of fill in to help me masturbate, I had to take off this edge this craving I had.
I read about the women using things like bananas, cucumbers, toys like plastic bananas, plastic bats. I had all this going through my mind. I saw one of those small souvenir plastic bats with “New Mexico” written on it. I told the woman when I paid for it that my nephew would love it. I also wanted to check out the ladies room and see if my hunch was right. I wanted to see if there was another bathroom with a hole cut in the wall. I got to the door and it was locked, I waited and as I did a man walked into the men’s room. A minute later a woman came out of the bathroom. She said “be careful in there, there is a peeping tom, I’m going to go complain.”
I went in and locked the door. I could already see the big hole in the wall between the men’s room and ours. I felt instant excitement and my head seemed to swell wit a rush of blood going to it. I went over to the toilet seat I pushed back my dress and opened my legs real wide I acted as if I had not noticed the hole and I opened my paper bag pulled out my new toy bat and edging forward I eased it into myself. I glance down to my right and I could see movement and a red shirt. I knew he was watching me. I reached down and started rubbing my clit as I kept sliding the bat in and out. It did not take long before I had a climax rake through my body and I literally lost control, my body shook violently as I came I felt a warm splash on my arm and saw sperm shooting in through the hole. He must have jacked off and let it fly into my side.