Mistaken Thoughts

Thank you to my two editors and friends who make my stories a much better read, LadyCibelle and Techsan.

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My wife and I have been married over fifteen years now. Three kids later and settled down into a somewhat normal life. I work the afternoon shift at the factory and she works day shift over at the insurance office.

I usually get home around midnight and she is usually asleep. Sometimes she waits up for me if she can. She told me her hectic schedule makes her tired and sometimes she just needs to relax. If she's awake, I lay with her for awhile and talk. If she's asleep, I usually go on the computer and read a few sex stories before going to bed.

I get so wound up on some of these stories. Fantasies and reality, reality vs. fantasy, I get so confused. Are these just the writers' thoughts or do people really do these things? So much cheating going on in the world. Some of it must be true with the divorce rate as high as it is. Cuckolding the husband and swapping wives, so much of it seems to be going around. I do have to say that in fantasy land a lot of it is a turn-on. At first it just seemed stupid: a man wanting his wife to have other men and maybe even be part of it. There were so many stories about it that it must happen a lot.

Sandy, my wife, and I had a pretty good marriage. We made love probably every two weeks, which seemed pretty good for a couple being married as long as us. We did our usual stuff, kissing, hugging and then we would choose a position. I liked it best when I could relax on my back and she would ride me. It gave me great access to her tits and I could talk to her. I loved dirty talk during sex. I started doing it after reading the stories a few months ago. She went along but I think it bothered her. Hell, I know it bothered her but it sure helped me get off.

One morning Sandy was sitting at the table looking a bit depressed.

"What's the matter, Honey? After last night I would think you would be happy. It isn't very often we do it twice. Damn, you were fantastic."

"Jim, I'm worried about us. Ever since you started talking the way you...."

I interrupted her. "Honey, it's just fantasy talk. I don't really want to see you with other men. It just fantasy..."

"That's what bothers me. You can't get off anymore unless you picture me fu... having sex with other men. I'm worried about you, Jim, I really am. It doesn't seem normal."

"For Christ's sake, millions of guys and probably women too think about sex with other people."

"I don't, Jim! I don't need sex with other men to get off. You're all the man I need."

"Are you telling me you wouldn't like some big dicked guy to sweep you off your feet and fuck you all night?"

"For God's sake, Jim! No, I don't want that. If I wanted another man, all I would have to do is dress sexy and go to the nearest lounge. Don't you get it? I don't need other men; I just want you to be with me and think about us when we're together."

"You might say that, but I don't believe you. Everyone desires other people."

"Is this about you, Jim? Do you want other women; do you desire other women when you're with me? Is that what all this sex talk is all about? You letting other men have me so you can fuck any slut you want?"

"No, dammit, it's fantasy talk to bring new things into our sexual relationship."

"So I'm not enough for you?" She started crying and went into the bedroom.

Damn, I didn't want to make her cry; I love her. Maybe she was right; our sex life was good. Why mess with it? I do have to say getting it out in the open might have been a good thing.

One morning I heard the kids get up; we had two teenage girls and a boy who was nine.

"Hi, Dad. Where's Mom? She promised us pancakes this morning and Mom never breaks her promise." Bart was kind of a cool kid. He might be the youngest but he held his own against his sisters. They fought a lot but you could tell they all loved each other.

"I'm right here, Bart. We'll start the pancakes in a minute. Get the pancake mix out and the eggs. Connie, you can fry up some bacon while I get dressed."

No more was said and I figured it would be best not to mention it. Our life seemed back to normal until we made love the following weekend. I had just read some cheating wives stories and began talking to Sandy while I had my dick planted deep in her pussy from behind.

"You like it this way, don't you?"

'Uh, hah," whispered Sandy.

"Can't tell who's fucking you. Could be anybody. You feel my hard cock deep inside you?"

"Yes, be quiet and keep fucking me harder, please!"

"It isn't me, Sandy; it's a stranger plowing his big cock into you from behind. Tell him what you want."

"Just fuck me, make love to me, shoot your load in me. Oh, God, Jim, I feel it coming. Oh, God, so good, fill me, Honey, fill me with your load."

I sprayed shot after shot into her. So damn good. Was she thinking of me or someone else? I couldn't remember everything she said. All I know is that I pictured her being fucked by a stranger and it felt so hot.

It went this way for a couple of weeks. I would say things about strangers and she would answer but I never could remember everything she said. Would she fuck a stranger? I doubted it but you never know.

She told me that the following Friday she had a conference to go to about two hours away. Her office had won an award for being the top office in the district and the whole office staff and the agents were going for a special recognition dinner and award banquet. She was so happy about going and asked me to go.

"Sandy, that's a work night. I'd love to go but you understand that I would have to use a vacation day."

"So you aren't going with me? Thanks for being there for me, Jim." She was pissed at me again.

"I'm always here for you. This is an award dinner. You don't need me to eat; you're capable of eating by yourself." I was just digging a deeper hole for myself.

"Well," she said snottily. "We'll be spending the night in a motel. I'm not driving home for two hours after drinking. Who knows, maybe I'll get lucky."

I was too stupid to stop while I was ahead. "Yeah, maybe you can find that big dicked stranger to plow your ass." I knew it was wrong when I said it but it was too late.

"You mother-fucker, maybe I will find a fucking stranger, just to teach you a lesson." She had tears running down her face as she ran to the bedroom.

Life was cold the next few days and it wasn't the weather. Sandy would hardly talk to me at all, let alone have sex with me. The kids even asked me why Mom didn't talk to me. I told them we had another argument but she would get over it. She always does.

"What did you argue about this time, Dad?" asked Brenda, my oldest daughter.

"She is going away for a one day conference and wanted me to go with her."

"Why aren't you going? You know you should go, Dad."

"Too late now. Their reservations had to be in a couple of days ago. Besides someone has to be here with you kids."

"That's crap, Dad. We'll be here alone till you get off work anyway. You should have gone, Dad; I'll side with Mom on this one."

The kid was right. It might not have been that big of a deal to me, but it might have meant a lot to Sandy. I wanted to apologize to her but she wouldn't listen. She told me to go find a slut and take my anxieties out on her.

"Well, go fuck your damn stranger. See if I care." Why was I saying this? Did I have a death wish for my marriage? I went to the bedroom door to apologize when I heard her crying from the inside. I just shook my head and slept on the couch. I figured I would talk with her first thing in the morning. I drank about six beers before passing out on the couch.

When I woke up the kids were eating breakfast. "Mom threw you out of the bedroom again, Dad? asked Bart.

"No, I just fell asleep here. Mom got up yet?"

"She's up and gone, Dad. She said to tell you she would probably call you tonight if you're home on time."

Shit, I did it; I sent my wife off mad and now she'll probably be mad for a week. Oh, well, not much I could do about it now. Boy, I sure wish I could take back all the things I said. I'm sure glad she's more level headed than me, but I think I was still worried.

I had an old truck I had been repairing and went out to work on it. It was just about ready to be sold. I was hoping to sell it but it had a few minor repairs that if I fixed it would sell faster. I figured if I worked on the truck it would take my mind off of Sandy. I finished up on the truck and headed for work.

It was the longest night of work for me. I wanted to get home so I would be there when Sandy called. I called the kids twice and asked if their mom called.

"Yeah, Dad, she did. She gave us her room number and said the dinner was great. She had prime rib or something. She said they were all going over to the lounge for awhile and said she would call you shortly after midnight. Dad, can you pick us up a pizza? We'll wait up for you," asked Connie.

"Okay, order it and I'll pick it up on the way home."

They were good kids. Most of the credit goes to Sandy. I might have been the financial supporter, but Sandy was the backbone of the family. She was one special woman.

I got home and handed the kids the pizza.

"Thanks, Dad, you're an okay guy," laughed Bart.

Just as I was asking if Sandy called, the phone rang. I quickly answered it.

"Hello," I answered.

"Hi, Honey, you missed a great dinner and my award acceptance."

"I'm sorry, Sandy, I should..."

"It's okay, Lover. I decided to take you up on your dare and I think I found the perfect men."

"What? Who? Sandy, what are you saying?,,,"

"Can't talk now, Honey, they're waiting for me. See you tomorrow, Honey. Pleasant dreams."

"Sandy, no, wait, Sandy?" She had hung up the phone.

What had I done? Surely it was just a joke? I couldn't have sent my wife into the arms of another man, or did she say men? Oh, God, I was becoming a mess. I went and got out some beer and just started drinking. The kids asked me if everything was alright and I told them everything was fine. They ate their pizza and went to bed.

I must have drank seven beers and opened up another. All I could think of was my cute wife fucking a stranger because I was a stupid fucking idiot. That's when I realized that to be a cuckold husband that you have to be a wimp mother-fucker. I started calling Sandy's room about every ten minutes. No-one was answering and, after the third time, I got a busy signal. I kept trying to call and it was always busy. I called the hotel's main desk and the desk clerk told me the person in the room said not to send any calls through.

I was a mess, drunk and worried. I thought about driving to the hotel and confronting Sandy but what good would that have done. It was the wee hours of the morning and I was drunk. Besides I'm the one who sent her there alone to be with other men with my acceptance. I drank till I passed out.

To any asshole like me out there, I have something to say to you. When it is no longer a fantasy and you think your wife is sleeping with another man/men, it is no longer a turn-on. It's a nightmare! It's something I'll regret for as long as I live.

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The next morning the kids were up early as usual. The phone rang and Connie answered it. "Hi, Mom... okay, did you have a nice time?... Great!... Okay, I'll tell him. Bye, Mom."

I heard the one-sided conversation and asked Connie what Sandy had to say.

"Mom said she feels wonderful and will be home after showering up. She told me to tell you that she's not mad at you any more and she had a great time."

I can't say that was exactly what I wanted to hear. I figured I better get up and clean-up myself after my drunken sleep. I couldn't get the visions out of my head. How will I deal with it now? But, most importantly, how will Sandy deal with it?

I took a shower and put my best face on for the kids. It was past noon when Sandy arrived home.

"Dad, Mom's home," yelled Bart as her ran out to greet his mom.

I looked out the window and saw a beautiful smiling woman. She kissed her kids who greeted her. She came in and looked at me and then turned away.

"We need to talk," I said to Sandy.

"Maybe later. Right now I want to see the kids." She smiled and kissed me on the cheek.

"Sandy, I need to talk to you." I said in as low of voice as I could.

She repeated back in a whisper. "Listen, I told you I would tell you everything later. Your fucking fantasies will just have to wait till we're alone."

"Sandy, please! I ..."

"Later, now don't ask me again or you just might regret my answers in front of the kids."

I knew she was serious. I decided to leave well enough alone. I probably didn't want to hear it anyway. It might be the end to a good marriage. I sat there while she told the kids about her dinner and she showed them her trophy for most accurate secretary.

God, did I ever fuck up. I tried to smile when she handed me the trophy. She told us she also received a two thousand dollar bonus because their office was in the top ten offices in the country for their company.

I knew I should have been there to share her joy and accomplishments. I told her she should also receive the Mother of the Year award and of course the kids agreed with me. I got up and got myself a beer out of the fridge.

"Starting a little early, aren't you, Jim?" asked Sandy.

"It's past one and I'm fighting a hangover and the best way to do that is to have a beer," I replied.

Sandy told the kids that she had a surprise for them.

"Grandpa's coming over to pick you kids up tonight and take you to his house. Tomorrow he's taking you all to a professional football game. He wants to leave early so you will all be staying at his house tonight. He had three extra tickets and asked me if I knew anyone who might like to go."

"Wow, Mom, that's great! None of us has ever seen a pro game. Thanks, Mom, you're the best," replied Bart.

"Don't thank me; thank Grandpa when you see him. I knew about it a few days ago but didn't want to tell you about it too early, in case plans were changed."

Later that day my father-in-law stopped by and picked up the kids. He told me that Sandy had called him last night and said that she had plans for tonight and that's why the kids were staying over, just in case she got home late.

I smiled and tried to act like I knew about Sandy's plan. I had no idea what her plans were. We haven't talked yet about her trip. I was regretting my life more every minute.

Ed, my father-in-law, kissed Sandy goodbye and said he would bring the kids home after the game the next day. The kids kissed both their mom and me goodbye and we told them to listen to their grandfather and to be good.

As soon as the door closed, I approached Sandy and said, "Talk to me. What have you done? What are you planning tonight?"

She looked at me and stared, "What the hell do you mean talking to me like this. For six fucking months, it was, 'Sandy, fuck a stranger. Sandy, can you take two men at once? Sandy, do you want a strange cock in you.' Well, Jim, I was sick and tired of hearing it. I told you over and over again to stop with the sex swap and cuckold talk, but, no, not you. You got worse and worse and worse. Well, don't blame me for doing what you've been begging me to do for six damn months."

"So you did it?" I was devastated.

"Yes, I did it, everything you wanted me to do, only it wasn't with strangers. It was with a couple of the guys from work. I'm going to tell you the whole fucking story. How they took your sweet wife and spread her ass cheeks and stuck their big cocks inside her."

"Don't, Sandy, I don't want to hear it. Please don't tell me any more."

"Bullshit, Jim, you told me to do it; now you can listen to how I sucked my first cock. It wasn't so bad and if we stay together, maybe I'll start sucking yours."

She reached over and felt my cock. It was damn near dead. I could hardly reply to anything she was saying. I honestly wish I was deaf for the few minutes she talked to me.

"Terry was the first to fuck me. You know Terry, the black guy from work. He was good. He wasn't any bigger than you which made me a bit disappointed. You told me to find a big one and I thought all black guys were bigger. Guess I was wrong. Oh, but how he could fuck. He kept calling me 'White trash mama.' Guess he likes to degrade white women. While he was fucking me, Bill from sales came in and put his dick next to my mouth and Terry told me to suck it. He pulled my hair back till I opened my mouth."

"Stop! I've heard enough..."

"Terry said from now on, I'm his slut. He wants me to shave my pussy. He says there's too much hair on my bush. What do you think, Jim? Should I shave it?"

"Please stop, Sandy.."

"Answer my fucking question. Bush or no bush? I know, I'll just trim it up nice and maybe Terry will be happy with that."

She was walking into the bathroom, leaving the door open as she was taking out her shaver.

"What are you doing?" I asked.

"Where have you been the last ten minutes? I'm trimming my bush. Terry said there was too much hair and you wouldn't answer me."

I didn't know what to say, as she was trimming her bush. I couldn't even get a hard-on.

"Oh, I forgot to tell you, Jim. Terry and his wife are coming by tonight to swap partners. You get to fuck his slut wife. Ever fuck a black woman, Jim? Now you get your chance. You also get your chance to see his cock enter me from behind."

"If that mother-fucker comes by my home, I'll blow him away! Stop it, Sandy. Stop it right now. I want it back to the way it was. I want my Sandy back. Please, we can do it. Forget about other men. I'll try to be a better husband. If you go through with this, I'll have to leave. I love you, Sandy, but I can't live like this. You'll have to quit your job and we can move and start over."

"What are you talking about? You beg me to fuck other men and, since I said okay, you want to uproot the whole family. I tell you all about me fucking men and eating cock and showing you my pussy and you can't even get it up. What the fuck good are you to me?"

"I'm moving out, Sandy. I'm sorry, I know I started it as a fantasy but now I wish it had never happened. Please forgive me but it was the biggest mistake I have ever made. I'm so sorry."

I walked into the bedroom and took out a suitcase. I had tears running down my cheeks.

"Jim, stop packing. I have something to tell you."

I looked up at my beautiful wife.

"I made up the whole story. None of it was true. I've never been with any other guys. I did it to show you what could happen if I did what you asked. I love you, Jim, and only you. You have to understand that. There isn't and never will be another man for me."

"I called last night and the phone rang and rang. Later it was busy and I called the front desk and they said you didn't want to be disturbed."

"My roommate Rita was trying to sleep and you kept calling. I told her about your fantasy and how I was going to show you it was wrong. She suggested I just take the phone off the hook. So that's what I did. Earlier I called you from the room to start off the whole thing. I know it was wrong to do it to you, Jim, but I was afraid you were going too far. I did it to save the wonderful marriage we have. I hope you understand why I did it."

I went to her and kissed her over and over again. "I love you so much. I'm so sorry I put our marriage through this. No more fantasies of other men. I learned my lesson. I promise you."

As we were kissing the doorbell rang. Sandy glanced out the bedroom window and said, "Oh, shit! It's Terry and his wife, Lisa."

My mouth feel open, I couldn't breath. Was everything she just said to me a lie? I couldn't speak; I stared at Sandy as the doorbell rang a second time.