"Come back here, faggot," Clayton yelled from behind me. I was running but I'm not an athlete. Clay Barnes is an athlete and he wants to catch me. Not to give me a well deserved hug and not to help me with my homework. I am too smart and trying too hard at school, he doesn't like that. I guess I'm a nerd but I feel like I'm just a normal kid with different interests. That's not how Clay sees it, he thinks that different should be punished or at least immasculated. I managed to stay ahead long enough to get into the library where I got close to the protective bubble of the librarian. She smiled down at me with a motherly smile that made me feel safe for a moment. Clay walked by the door calling to me, "Smell ya later, Stein." My name is Kevin Stein.
Many of my school days started with some sort of attempted bullying. Some were quite successful. I've been hung by a wedgie from a fence post. I've had my pants pulled down in front of the whole school. I've been thrown in a locker. I've been beat up, chased, intimidated, humiliated, and the teachers can't do much. I'm not the only one in this situation but it feels like I'm the main target. Some of the others are my friends. I have three close friends, Eddie, John, and Chris. We were a group of nerds. We studied together, gamed together, and hung out a lot. The four of us were good students and wanted to get into great universities. We were driven and goal oriented. I had a personal plan that extended into my 30's. I guess I am quite different because people like Clay don't think past what's for lunch today.
I thought that entering high school would change things but now as a sophomore it just seemed more violent, more personal, and more humiliating. It seems like many of the other nerds had outgrown the bullys. However my personal hell continued on. It was now only the jocks that tormented me. Why? I don't know why. I wish I did, because then I could figure out a solution. Every problem has a solution and that's what I'm good at.
At the end of school one day, I happened upon a scene that made me stop and watch. A group of cheerleader type girls were laughing and teasing an overweight girl. Yes, actually I would call her fat but not to her face. The girls referred to her as Miss Piggy, her name is actually Heather. I felt a great deal of empathy for her. In my case physical abuse is bad enough but for girls, how you look is everything. I had always wondered why bystanders just stood and watched as I got beat up or humiliated. Standing here it dawned on me that speaking up makes you the new target. I have nothing to lose though. I'm already a target every day.
I got my nerve up enough to say, "Hey, why don't you leave her alone. Go binge and purge or measure your waist or something."
That got me some stern looks from the girls I could never talk to before. I guess I broke the ice but not in a good way. They took their nasty tone and lobbed a few pot shots at me.
Then Judy Johnson spoke up. "Clay is not going to like this. I hope he kicks your fucking ass." Judy was Clay's girlfriend and didn't mind using his name to strike fear in others. It worked. I was afraid for my life but at least I had spoken up.
The next day at school was hell for me. I wish he had walked up to me at the beginning of the day and killed me. All I could do is go through the day wondering when it would come. After being tortured like this all day, I thought I would get home unscathed. But when the final bell rang and I walked out the front door, there he was waiting. He had a sinister grin on his evil face. "Where do you think you're going, Stein? I think you forgot what you did yesterday. You don't talk to my girl like that and get away with it." He closed in on me as he was talking. When he was in range of me he thrust his hands into my chest and sent me tumbling backwards. I ended up on my back.
I scrambled to my feet just in time to catch a strong punch to my jaw. I was surprised and disappointed that I didn't get knocked out by the viscous blow. I fell to my knees and waited for the next assault. Then I heard a voice yell from behind me. "Get away from him Clay, you asshole!! Why don't you go sniff some jocks." I felt a set of hands on my shoulders. "Are you Ok? Come on let's get you out of here."
"Oh, so Miss Piggy and the pansy are friends now. How sweet," Clay said sneering at us. I felt her hands go under my arms to help me up and immediately head back to the front door of the school and hopefully safety.
She stayed with me in the school office and we talked. "You are one brave fucker," she said smiling. "You knew this would happen when you defended me yesterday."
I looked into her concerned eyes and saw a tear forming in the corner. "You don't have to worry about me, I'm used to it by now," I said as I looked at my feet now.
"Bullshit!! You don't get used to it. Remember who you're talking to here." I realized now she had beautiful eyes. I'm also impressed by her strong attitude. I feel like I should try to keep her around, make her my friend.
"You want to hang out with me and my friends later?" I asked hopefully. I know it's clichΓ© but I was drawn to her personality after talking only a few minutes with her.
She smiled lightly like she was hoping I would offer. "Sure, I guess. Give me your address and my mom will drop me off."
That was the beginning. We hung out a lot with my friends and we stuck together at school as much as possible. It seemed that since we teamed up, the bullying became much less of a problem. It turns out they only like to bully one person at a time.
The next year I realized how much I liked Heather. Even though I loved her as a friend, we had not become romantic yet. So when the junior prom came up, we thought it was just too easy to go as each others date. I kissed her for the first time that night.
The next day we got together at her house. Her parents love me and treat me like thier son. Heather asked, "You wanna go for a walk with me?" I said yes of course, I actually love walking, it clears my head and calms my nerves.
We talked nonstop while we walked. "The doctor said I have a thyroid issue. He gave me pills that should help. He said my weight issue could have a lot to do with it. He told me if I start exercising more I could lose weight faster." This was great news for her. I was very happy she had hope to get thinner. I tried to picture her thinner but it was hard to imagine. From that day on, we would walk every time we got together. It was working too. She gave me updates on her weight loss periodically and I would give her a hug of encouragement.
By the time senior prom came around, she had lost almost 50 pounds. Our walks were now 5 miles long. We had talked so much that we knew each other better than ourselves. We agreed that we were now boyfriend and girlfriend, exclusively.
Our whole group was excited for prom. We all worked hard to find dates for all of us. This prom should be one of the few bright spots of our high school years.
Heather looked amazing even if she still had some fat on her. Her face was strikingly beautiful now. She cut and permed her hair. The dress she wore accentuated her best assets and hid some of her leftover pudge.
We were all having a great time and made plans for the rest of the weekend. Just about two hours in came the surprise. Judy Johnson made an announcement that there was a video presentation. The video was just a Power Point with photos of students' daily lives set to a couple good rock songs. At the end of the second song, the music became Kermit the frog's 'It's not easy being green.' The video became a moment of Kermit and then me, then a moment of Miss Piggy and then Heather. Then Kermit and Miss Piggy kissing followed by one of us kissing.
It was a hit. Everyone not at our table was laughing. Obviously I was humiliated but I could see Heather turning red as a beet. She was undoubtedly royally pissed and humiliated both. I grabbed her hands and tried to get her attention but she stood up and yelled "FUCK YOU ALL." She turned on her heal and booked it out of there with me trying to catch up.
I did catch her and we said nothing at all. I just hugged her and she wept for 10 minutes before I suggested we take off until it was time to meet the others. She just nodded.
Heather had no doubt been scarred by the emotional trauma. We went through the motions for the remainder of the weekend even smiling and laughing but deep down I knew that there was now a chip on Heather's shoulder.
Tradition would say that prom night is the night to have sex for the first time but not us. I couldn't imagine any scenario where that could happen. We were both now living under the weight of that night. We had both just turned eighteen and I wasn't fully sure how she felt about me.
Heather and I were now running our 5 or 10 miles at least four days a week. We even entered a few races just for fun. She hadn't decided what to study in college yet. She had excellent grades but no direction. She decided to stay home and go to the local community college. I had been accepted to the school I had planned to attend since eighth grade, MIT.
"You better come back to me," she said with a tear rolling down her cheek.
"Heather, I'm only going to be two hours drive away. I'll be home pretty often. I'll take it that you want us to stay exclusive." I said it with hope in my voice but I'm not sure she heard it.
"Yes, you fucking idiot. Don't you know by now that I love you. Don't you love me?" Her big, beautiful eyes made it obvious she was feeling very vulnerable now.
"Of course I love you. We just hadn't ever said it out loud before. I want to come home to you as much as possible, but it's MIT, I'm going to be working hard." We embraced and kissed long and hard.
The summer after graduation was big for us. We had sex for the first time that summer. We both were virgins but it seemed like we did a great job for our first time. We knew enough to use foreplay which seemed to make it much more fun. We gave each other orgasms with oral sex which helped eleviate the nerves. Finally we consummated the relationship in three positions. We each came four times that night.
Heather and my parents saw me off to my first day at MIT. It was a big day for me. The opening of a new stage of my life. Living away from home and needing to be self motivated. No video games and no Star Trek. Today I had to get serious about my plan and my future. My plans now included Heather, marriage, kids, a big house, and a great career.