To say that my wife was a prude would have been a gross understatement. She had never been adventurous and it took all of my charm, which I have a limited supply of, to get her to suck my cock once in a blue moon. Variation in the bedroom seemed to require an act of congress. I just got used to it after a while and dealt with the boredom.
Money was the catalyst for our only expressions of passion, and not the sort that ended up with us in the bedroom. On the contrary our situation had become seriously dark, with little or no hope of reprieve in sight. Her sister seemed to have it all, she had money, mostly because she had tricked her dad into rewriting his will, and the divorce papers to have her become his beneficiary upon his death. That and they had manipulated the property so that when it sold none of it came my wives way they had also somehow fixed it so that when he died, my mother in law would lose her retirement. The stress of the situation resulted in an early demise for her mother.
This only added to our economic struggles which resulted in my wife resenting me more and more. Finally it had gotten so bad that I had moved myself to the garage where I slept so I wouldn't have to deal with her bemoaning our situation as I attempted to sleep. Oh I still slept in the bed once in a while because I wanted to get back to where she and I were at least 'normally' sexual with each other, only her demeanor, after a while, made this less and less frequent. Still...I made the effort.
Up until the death of her mother my wife was your typical mom. She got the groceries, cleaned the house and did all the stuff expected of a home business mom. She ran her business via the computer and was able to make a decent living helping the household out when things got tough. We had been living an okay life, but not the one she and I had planned on. We had anticipated a struggle, but not such a protracted struggle. To say that it had worn us down was an understatement. The day we put her mother in the ground I noticed a change in my wife. It was not a 'dark' change but a spirited one. I guess when we are faced with mortality there is this realization that life is to be lived in spite of everything.
Years before, when things were 'okay' between us I discovered that she had the hots for her ex-boyfriend mostly because I violated her privacy and read her journal. This was because one night when I had slept in the bed I heard her dreaming and she apparently was busy in her dream with him at least it was 'his' name she called out in her sleep. I later read that she had been dreaming of having sex with him for years only they never got to the actual act until one night...when in her dreams they made physical contact and actually fucked in her dream, the night I was in the bed. All I heard were moans and mumbled conversation. If she came in the dream I saw no evidence of it.
After this I decided that if she wanted him 'that bad' I would give her the freedom to pursue him if she honestly wanted to. I then told her I heard her calling his name in the dream. I told her this so that I could give her the understanding of what I knew. She simply shook her head and said "It was only a dream" and proceeded on with what she had been doing. Nothing was mentioned of it again, at least to me.
It wasn't until after the death of her mother that she apparently started considering my offer. It had been a few months so I really did not expect her to bring it up. But as we rode in the limo back to the house after the funeral she said "Remember when you offered to let me pursue my ex-boyfriend?" I nodded but said nothing. "Well, he was at the funeral today as you know. He and I spoke briefly this afternoon at the funeral home. His wife left him last week...because she believed that he and I were having an affair. He was calling my name out in a dream, much like what you heard me do. She has no grounds for divorce but the idea that he was dreaming of me was too much for her." She paused considering her next words carefully. "Anyway, I guess he never got over 'us' and it was showing a bit more frequently than he realized. So when she couldn't take anymore she left. Anyway, to top it off, we spoke and he confessed his feelings for me...and...I confessed mine in return." Again she paused and looked hard at me before asking "How serious were you about your proposition about my seeing him...' she gulped nervously, 'physically? Did you mean what you said? Am I allowed to pursue him physically?" she asked.
I sat back stunned. I never expected that she would ever consider it, especially after having rebuffed the idea when I'd mentioned it before. Only I got hard as I thought about her being with him. "I-I was serious...very serious. If you want to pursue this my only request is that I be made aware of it so that we are above board with it. It wouldn't do for me to walk in on you if you happen to be in our bedroom."
She turned to look at me mildly exasperated "You actually expect that I would do this in our house, in our bed?"
I grinned at her and said "Well, if this is going to be something you 'want' then I expect that there will be times when the passion of the moment takes over. I am aware that it could very easily end up being expressed in our home...especially now that I have given consent." Again she stared at me with mild exasperation that seemed to fade as she thought about it.
Leaning back she set her head onto the cushion looking at me "So you actually 'want' me to see him? Does that turn you on or something?" I nodded grinning. She did not move but turned to look out the window in what I recognized was exasperated but deep thought.
Then out of the blue she started to talk as she continued to look out the window. "We were in the private reception area set aside for family to compose themselves or be alone. He and I spoke for a bit remembering mom and all those times we had fooled around in the house right under her nose. Remembering the times we nearly got caught and those times we didn't.' here she looked at me, 'It was then that he kissed me and...and I did not stop him.' She paused again turning to look out the window 'We were, well, fully in the moment. Had my aunt not knocked on the door...which we had locked...it is very possible that we would have taken things much further than just kissing."