I do not know what came over me. Was it the idea of seeing dad naked, aroused and fucking like an animal or was it watching two people make love, no fuck, I was washed over by an overwhelming feel as I began touching myself. My body ached for more. My pussy lips trembled. It was wet and it wanted to be touched, prodded and fucked. I wanted to be fucked. I inserted a finger into my pussy, with no caution of a first timer. I knew I wanted to masturbate and I half wanted t be caught. My pussy lips gave in easily and I was ht by an inexplicable feeling of pleasure that was at once amazing and addictive. A soft moan escaped my lips. The rhythm of dad's cock fucking matched my finger fucking, until it reached a frenzy and I closed my eyes as I felt my legs weaken and I slumped down.
I was breathing heavily. My bosom heaved like tides of waves. My parents were still fucking, my mother's moans growing louder and my dad's animalistic grunts getting more pronounced. But now, I was more focused on the pool of mess I was sitting in. Did I pee? I inspected it. It sure wasn't pee. But I was the one who made it. I saw my pussy was wet and dripping. I touched it again but this time I shuddered. It was really sensitive. Did I just squirt? Is this what squirt is? I had over heard Riya, a girl in my class, talk about it a few weeks ago. She had said that only a small fraction of women can actually squirt. Does that make me special or weird?
I heard a long drawn out moan escape from my parents signing that their sex session was drawing to a close. The reasoning part of my brain weighed in that now must be the time I should consider leaving the spot, although I couldn't stop wondering how it must feel to have dad shoot his load. 'Kelly stop. Stop' my mind warned. It was a filthy thought and I shouldn't be be having it. It's better to just leave.
Hours later, I was back in my room. My mom bustling about in the kitchen and my dad in the dining room, working on his papers. I was on my bed, reading a book, or convincing myself to read it. It was Biology and I had a test that week. Although I was pretty good in the subject and it was something I loved reading, I could pull myself to actually concentrate on it. My mind was still frozen at the images of my naked parents, the grunting of my dad as he thrusted his hip into mom's labia. I imagined his sweat covered body. His lips mouthing obscenities. I imagined his powerful thrusts as he fucked with scant regard to the pain he would inflict. But underneath him, it wasn't my mother who lay with spread legs; it was me.
I snapped back to reality. It was a disgusting thought, really. Fantasizing my own dad. I felt so repulsed at my self. If someone has asked me who did I love more-mom or dad, my answer, as it would with thousands of other children, be 'both of them'. But if I were being honest, I'd say dad. Not because I harbored any kind of sexual fantasies for him- I did not know I did, until today- but because I liked him. I don't know as what or about the mechanics of it, but I did like him more. He was in his late forties and was a tall man, with strong arms, a powerful neck, almost chiseled torso, although he did sport the beginning of a middle age paunch. He had a greying hair but that only made him look more hot. Mom, on the other hand, was a chubby woman in her early forties, with long hair and thick lips. She had a round frame, which meant her breasts, although big, didn't gain much prominence in her physique.
I clambered out of my bed, partly out of desperation and partly instinctively. I looked at myself in the mirror. I was wearing a red top and a tight shorts. The top wasn't tight but it definitely didn't do a good job in down playing my bust. I have always been a curvy girl, so much that I used to get looks from the men when I wore anything that accentuated my curves. I know their lustful looks as their eyes wandered around my body. And that would make me feel good. I knew it was a sin to enjoy a male's gaze, that they are only thinking of impurifying my body, but I would enjoy that attention. Yet I never stepped over the line. That is, until now.
I was a 34c cup, a rather big chested girl for some one my age. I touched my breasts. They were quite large. Standing in front of the mirror, I pulled the top down so that the neckline plunged down, revealing my prominent cleavage and putting my boobs on display. I wondered how many men would like to see that. And I wondered how dad would like to see that. And so, without a second thought, I removed my dress and stood naked in front of the mirror.
I gazed down at my thick thighs and my wide hips and at my pussy. I evidently looked more mature than a girl my age. There was patch of light, black pubic hair right above my pussy lips and stray strands of hair on the side of my pussy. Instinctively, I slid my middle finger into my pussy. It wasn't as wet as it was a few hours ago, but it was moist. A little shiver slithered up my spine. With my free hand, I touched, teased and pinched my nipples. Brown and perky, they had become hard and erect. I knew I was crossing the line as I fingered my pussy, but I wanted to. I was becoming a bad girl and that excited me. I imagined laying on my parents bed, naked, legs spread while my dad mounted me and fucked me hard. A moan escaped my lips as I saw myself finger so shamelessly. I bit my lower lip and looking straight at my reflection I mumbled 'fuck me'.
I had, until then, never used any kind of expletives, let alone fuck. The word rolled out of tongue naturally. It excited me. The sound of it, the filthy images it brought and the traces of dirt the word left behind in my psyche. 'Fuck me', I said again as I inserted a second finger into my pussy and began masturbating thinking of my dad's cock. I had become a dirty girl.
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Over the period of next few months, I immersed myself a lot in porn and sex sites and health magazines to know all there is about sex and fetishes. I started reading it to educate myself about what I was doing but it soon became addictive. I read up on the positions, the experiences, the fantasies and fetishes, the kinks and the twisted minds of humans. I would masturbate twice or sometimes more in a day. I realized if I hooked my finger when I was fingering, it would make it more pleasurable. The scriptures began to get fainter and distant as my mind filled with images of thick, big cocks, the positions of fucking and of the many perverse acts of sex.
I was getting more and more bolder with my sexuality and my body as the days passed and I saw a drastic change in how the world perceived me. I started wearing more body fitting dresses and some purposely tight, so that my curves are accentuated and put on a display. I would make sure my boobs and ass were prominent and almost always a hint of my cleavage will be shown. At first my parents had a few issues with it but soon they realized they weren't going to win the fight. I soon developed a love for scarlet red lipsticks that complemented my full lips. I learnt that while walking, if I keep my spine erect and slowly push my bust forward, it would create a subtle arch and that would grab a few more eye balls.
I loved the attention I got. I loved the way they stared at my boobs and my ass. I loved the lust in their eyes as they imagined me in every dirty way possible. It turned me on that I was becoming an image of fantasy for someone, someone I didn't know. That they would jack off to me in their mind. It was perverse but I liked the idea of being the dirty girl. Yet I never made it all too evident. For I knew mom and dad would bring hell fire on me, if I dared to cross the line.
In the span of few weeks, I was friends with the class's minx, Riya. All my life I had avoided her like flea because she was bad company. She was the first in our class to know about sex and she was the first in our class who openly claimed she is not a virgin. So, it was no surprise when my devout christian faith made me stay as far away from her as possible. She was evidently trouble and I knew it. But now, I was actively seeking it. I knew I was going to be a wicked one. So when she came up to me one afternoon for notes, I complied. Soon we were talking about movies, maths and men. It surprised me that in no time, we bonded and we bonded strongly.
Riya was a short girl with a rather round frame, but with well pronounced assets. Just like her body frame, her boobs were round and big and so was her ass. She exuded a sense of mischievousness paired with sensuality. She came from a broken family. Her dad was a good for nothing man who only knew to drink and beat his wife. The image of a drunkard father whose role was to beat his wife and kids was so burnt into her psyche that she had grown to resent married men. Especially fathers. I pitied her but never said anything.
True to my intuition, she spelled trouble. I was getting more and more attracted to her wayward ways. We would exchange porn magazines during school break and talk about the men we wanted to sleep with. In our bucket list of men, there were teachers, some of our classmates, men from the neighborhood and celebrities. We spared no one. We would discuss who would be packing the largest cock and who would be dirty in bed. Through her I learnt many cussings, so much that when I said them it felt natural to my tongue.
Soon enough, I had to pay for it all. With my new found attention in sex and masturbation I slacked off in my studies. I almost failed my biology and maths. A student who was consistently at the top of the class failing all of sudden is never dealt with carelessly. The school called my parents to discuss my problems and offer any plausible solutions. The panel of teachers consisted of Sunita Miss, my biology teacher, Nazir sir, my class teacher and Hari sir, my maths teacher.
"What is happening, Kelly?" Sunita miss asked me.
I stared at my toes. I could feel the eyes of all the teachers and my parents pierce my face. I couldn't tell them the truth, so I decided to let silence speak for itself. I couldn't tell them that I was so obsessed with sex and masturbation that anything that can be fit into my pussy, I would probably masturbate with it. That I was horny almost all the time. The fact that the room had both my dad and hari sir, the two men of my fantasies, didn't help either.
But my silence didn't help. They decided that the course has become tough for me and that I needed to be tutored privately. After a lot of convincing and coaxing, Hari sir agreed to teach me on weekdays.
"Kelly is a good girl. I'll tutor her and she'll be just fine. I know she'll be. After all, she has always been a good girl."