It seems life has always been a struggle. Coming from a poor family, I tried hard to be a good daughter. Married at 18, I tried hard to be a good wife. Pregnant for the first time a year later, and again two years after that, I tried hard to be a good mother. Now Iâm trying hard to get a higher education.
It hasnât been easy. When I married my husband, he was a football star. We dreamed his talent would take us to bigger and better things. When he tore apart his knee a year later, our dreams were shattered. Instead of going to college on a football scholarship, he became an apprentice at a local factory.
My husband never approved of my efforts to resume my education, so it was hard to earn my General Equivalency Certificate but I finally did last spring at the age of 26. This led me to apply to the local college where I began taking courses two nights a week this fall. No one from my family had ever been to college before.
I was really nervous the night of my first class. Everyone else seemed younger, better dressed, more affluent, and more confident than me. I had tried to dress âyoungâ, but I guess I came off looking like âtrailer trashâ. I was so relieved when one of the students â Roger â came over to talk with me during the first break.
Over the next few weeks I began to look forward to seeing Roger as much as I did going to class. He was mature for his age â 19 â and was living in the college dormitory. I found him very handsome and was flattered that, with so many other attractive young women in the class, he seemed so interested in a mother of two.
My husband begrudged every moment I spent at college. He wanted me at home, serving his needs. Married life had become like a prison whereas my time on campus, especially my moments with Roger, were a release. I had even begun to have escapist fantasies about us, which was just foolish.
One night after class Roger asked if I would join him for a drink at an on-campus pub. Oh, how I wanted to say yes, but I knew my husband would be furious if I arrived home late and smelling of alcohol. I declined and said I had to hurry home.
Later that week, at the Thursday night class, I felt that Roger was acting a little distant. I feared that my rejection the other night had upset him. I didnât want that so after class, when he offered to walk me to my car, I gratefully accepted.
It was cold outside as we walked along, and I suppose I complained a little. Roger then put his arm around me to keep me warm. Not wanting to discourage him, I did not object. In fact, I responded by putting my arm around his waist as we walked silently through the shadows like teenage lovers. I knew I was courting trouble.
Sure enough, when we got to my car, Roger tried to kiss me. I knew it was wrong, but for just a moment I let him. In a rush of naughty pleasure, I even put my arms around him and ran my fingers through his hair. When I felt his tongue on my lips, though, I pushed him away, got in the car and left. Of course, I fretted endlessly over the weekend. Why did I let Roger kiss me ⊠and why did I stop him?
Next week at class I wasnât sure what to expect of Roger, but I found him to be as cheerful and gracious as ever. When class was over, I again let him walk me to my car and again we ended up kissing. I was prepared to push him away if things went too far but instead of rushing, he took his time, giving us both a chance to savor every delicious sensation. As my body pressed against his, I felt him become hard.
This time I confess it was my tongue that brushed his lips. Our kissing became hot and wet ⊠and I knew it would soon have to stop. When he moved his hand near my breast, I whispered âPlease donât.â He stopped. Not sure what to do next, I said âIâd love to, Roger, but I canât.â Then I kissed him deeply, broke our embrace and left.
I couldnât wait for class two nights later. I hadnât felt like this in years. I loved the way I felt in Rogerâs arms. After class he asked if, on the way to the car, I wanted to stop by and see the dormitory where he lived. Iâd never been inside a dormitory before. I was worried about where this might lead, but since it was cold outside and I knew we would make out, I gladly accepted.
It felt strange: the kids all seemed so young compared to me. Roger shared with his room with another 19 year old named Hank. Theirs was one of six rooms attached to a common area with lounge chairs. This was where Roger introduced me to his friends. By their comments, it was clear they knew all about Roger and his married âgirlfriendâ. As we sat and talked, Roger put his arm around me and began nibbling on my ear in full view of his friends. I felt uncomfortable and whispered that we should go somewhere more private. Without another word, he led me to his room.
As soon as we were inside we fell into a passionate embrace. In no time at all I felt one of Rogerâs hands slip under my sweater and move to my bra-encased breast. I should have said something but I didnât. Instead, I poured gasoline on the fire by rubbing my leg against his. Encouraged, he picked me up, carried me to his bed and laid me down. We kissed madly. I let my legs part. He began feeling me up through my jeans. My hips responded as if they had a mind of their own.
I wanted him with an urgency I had never felt before. I reached for him and felt his hardness. In no time it was out. Here I was, a mother of two, in a college dormitory with a teenagerâs cock in my hand. While I played with him, he removed my clothes. When he touched me, he discovered what I already knew: that I was wet with desire.
Without waiting any longer, he rolled me onto my back and climbed between my legs. Then he brought the head of his cock to my pussy lips and, after teasing my clit for a few minutes, he slid its full length inside me. He was the first person beside my husband ever to be inside me like this. As his rhythm increased, I began to moan.
To encourage him, I reached around with my hands and cupped his buttocks, trying to pull him close. God I loved the feeling of him inside me. As I approached orgasm I heard myself call out âYes. Yes. Yes.â He came right after that, leaving me on the brink of my own orgasm. I didnât care. I felt great. I felt more alive than I had in years.
Aware that it was getting late, I cleaned myself up and went to leave. Roger offered to walk me to my car, but I declined. If we began making out again, I might arrive home so late that my husband would become suspicious. As I left the room I realized that Rogerâs door had been ajar and that his buddies had listened to our show. At least I think they just listened. Embarrassed, I pushed past them and made my way home.
It soon became our habit to slip away from class early and go back to Rogerâs room, where I experienced sensations I had never thought possible. I hit the books hard to make up for lost class time but, in truth, making love with Roger was really all I thought about: I found myself sleepwalking through the rest of my life.
One night in late October I decided to surprise Roger by coming to class bra-less, wearing a loose sweater. I also wore no panties underneath a mid-calf skirt. I changed into the outfit after I left home so as not to arouse my husbandâs suspicion.
At the break, I led Roger down the hall to the fire escape stairway. We sat down at the top of a flight of stair and were soon locked in a passionate embrace. His hands quickly made their way inside my sweater. âYou naughty girl,â he said when he felt my bare breasts. I lay back, letting my legs fall apart. His hands were soon roaming up the inside of my thighs. I could sense his surprise and excitement when he first touched my snatch: bare, wet and ready for pleasure.
I loved the way he was playing with me there, in the fire escape. I loved the way even my softest moans echoed through the staircase, but I was determined not to let things go too much further in so public a place. I asked him to stop. He did so reluctantly, saying I owed him one.
We left class early and, on the way back to his dorm, passion overcame us both. He took me standing against the wall of the chemistry building, in the shadows near the pathway. Passersby must have heard us, but I didnât mind. In fact, the possibility of being discovered seemed to add to our excitement. It felt deliciously wicked to let him play with me in public. When we got back to his dorm, we had the hottest, wettest, wildest sex yet. I arrived home quite late that night. Luckily my husband was already asleep.
Over the next few weeks, I developed the naughty habit of regularly going to class wearing neither bra nor panties, and it seemed that my husband was almost always asleep before I got home. Once he asked why I was getting home so late. I told him that, after class, I did research in the library until it closed, then went to an late-night coffee shop to complete my homework assignment for the upcoming class. That way, I told him, I could be there at other times for him. He bought it hook, line and sinker.