Trigger Warnings:
Polyamory, group sex, marital complexity. Trolling / triggered-bellyache comments will be deleted, constructive crit is welcome. Thank you!
...he was finally yours.
After decades of hardship marked by the tragic passing of loved ones, of a prior relationship with a woman who'd nearly stripped all your financial and material security away, of soul-gripping numbness of heart and constant tension in your muscles, quite suddenly he was there. Like Apollo cresting the horizon upon a golden chariot, the sun had risen in your life the moment you began talking to him; for though your heart had hoped and wished sincerely for his love and companionship, you never believed he'd truly be
your man
...but he fought. Oh how he'd made war against the odds, just to have you.
Your life had been guided by a personal code of
juchae
- self-sufficiency against a hostile world. You'd never depended on others after you became an adult, insistent on carving your own way and even pulling the weight of those you loved; they fought you, as was the custom of people in your ancient land of jungles and mountain ranges. You'd almost given in to despair. Sinking into the muck of your misfortune, even then you'd fought onward, but at the end of the tunnel he was standing there with his radiant smile. Waving at you, beaming, shouting and making a racket like he does when he wants, and then he was running down that tunnel toward you to sweep you off your feet and carry you into a life bathed in vernal, eternal sunlight.
Once, you'd felt like a terribly dull, quiet thing; but through his incredible desire for you, you'd come to see your mystique and charm.
Once, you'd seen a tired, tense-shouldered girl; but with years of his easygoing love and care, the burdens had slid away into insubstance.
Once, you'd wondered if you were just...sexually numb; but with his mere
words
he'd stoked the flame of your lust higher than anyone ever had. He didn't even have to touch you or be in the same room.
Though your land was ancient and his was young, his people were many millennia old and he'd inherited a respect for certain ritual behaviors that worked to reinforce and temper the passionate romance between you. He insisted on smiling every time he looked your way, and you'd followed his lead in developing this reflex. Loving him has been the easiest thing you've ever done in a life of trial and challenge, and for these past years the hardship just seemed to have...dissipated.
Finally there was someone with broad, powerful shoulders to carry you and give your aching body and heart some respite, and in turn you poured the overflowing cup of your adoration over him...and he
basked
in its glow.
Finally. A partner who matched the passion that you'd once dialed back for others, who responded to your affection and dedication with honest joy and heartmelting reciprocation...and good
lord
did he fuck like a rockstar. Supremely attentive and fascinated by the lithe curves of your body, you in turn were quite addicted to his physique; those big, gentle dark eyes whose umber and evergreen gaze melted your heart every morning, whose shape suggested his mother's Heilongjiang origins...his long torso and broad shoulders, the V-shape of his body and tigerish definition at odds with the whip-thin men and caffeine-hardened girls you'd dallied with.
The long, curved, perfect girth of his circumcised manhood, the way he knew how to use every inch of his lance to please you from the ridge of his glans to the swell of his frenum...he always stirred you to thunderstorm climax and banished your ever-present chill by filling you with his fertile heat.
Encouraged by his fever-pitch attraction to you, you'd started to dress and behave with far greater confidence than before; he'd told you so many times how incredibly sexy you are to him, you'd finally begun to believe it...and besides, he was really good at letting others know. No man in your life had ever done anything like that before - they were territorial, possessive creatures who often grew insecure against the passions of other men, but after you'd encircled his finger with gold and crushed a glass underfoot, he never wavered in his belief that you loved him above any and all. So assured in fact, you can easily recall his words during these...particularly thrilling events:
"She has lovely, sleek legs doesn't she...I caught the way you were looking at them - nah it's okay, I'm looking too. Wonderfully long and strong...see the way her sinews slither under that caramel-dark skin, the lines that travel upward between her thighs?" He'd remarked casually to an almost androgynously pretty Danish boy he'd caught eyeing you one night in your (terribly short) dark green shorts - he did, in actuality, talk like that, gifted with all manner of language and expression as he was.
...and of course, he wasn't the only one playing that game; oh the things you had to say about him...
"He is cute, I agree...and he does have a really nice chest, but...I saw you eyeing his bulge. And yes. He is indeed gifted down there - how do I know? Well...funny story that..." That was down on the beach in Campinas last year; your cousin's pretty, teak skinned friend with her shaven head had blushed, unable to keep her eyes off him. Later she'd been unable to keep her hands or tongue off either of you.
You can't blame her, or any of the men and women you'd taken to bed. Your fingers brush over your lower belly, sheened lightly with sweat after the passionate intensity of your pre-club love making...and you'd done it mostly clothed, one of the benefits of this scandalously short leather skirt. Leaning back on the bed, you watch him dress, unable to tear your eyes away.
Your man has an impressive presence. You're gazing at his back, running your eyes from the freshly cut, nearly buzzed hair on the back of his head to the shape of his neck. His shoulders are strong like you'd imagine a knight's or some hero from one of your fantasy novels, trapezius muscles standing out like the buttresses of a cathedral; the lines of his deltoids slide like tensed cords of steel underneath his tanned, gold-tinted exterior and you love the way they move and shift beneath your fingers. He is somewhat zealous about exercise and nutrition; as he buckles an elegant black leather belt to hold up those attention-grabbing package-flattering dark gray, pinstripe slacks, half a protein bar is clenched between his teeth.