Waking up nude cuddling my naked Nicole brought flash backs of the previous evening. My head spun in an alcohol induced haze as I remembered the decadence that occurred in my living room with my wife and her gentlemen callers. My head ached as I lifted it from the pillow pushing my out of shape body to a sitting position trying not to disturb my nasty wife from her dreams of ecstasy. I needed something for my head and time to think before confronting her.
Coffee helped clear the cobwebs, but not the doubt. The insecure sick feeling in the pit of my stomach returned with a vengeance. Until last night I considered my home life to be comfortable safe and secure, my Nicole to be honest and faithful. After her declaration of infidelity through out our entire marriage, I wondered why I wanted her to stay in my life at all. The thought of her leaving or one of her fellows taking her away brought waves of panic. I would do what ever it takes to keep her, any thing she asked and the realization she had such power over me sickened me, but so be it.
Last night held many surprises for me. I found that lust brought forth animalistic desire for sexual activity and orgasms brought forth jealously and doubt. I lose interest and turn dirty movies off after I climax from my efforts under the covers, but I couldn't turn off Nicole and her friends after I climaxed. I had to watch their obscene behavior, becoming angry, defensive and extremely jealous as they played and fondeled each other only a few feet away.
My hurt feelings of betrayal changed to feelings of desire only moments later, fueling my imagination. I imagined I was along side Nicole helping her satisfy her urges as well as her men friends. I was so involved with her performance on her knees I prematurely ejaculated with out touching my self as my chauffer spilt his seed on Nicole's face and breast. As with my earlier climax I wanted to turn it all off but couldn't, once again I find myself in conflict with myself.
One disturbing yet intriguing surprise of the evening awoke me to the fact, naked men and erections aroused me. Jealously moved through me all evening some times jealously of the men and some times jealously of Nicole's womanhood, the ability to have sex with any one you wanted and to be desired by so many must be intoxicating to say the least. With a body such as Nicole's its no wonder she can't be faithful.
Coming home unannounced created more surprises for me than Nicole, the one intended. My decision not to call in advance set off a chain of events that continued even now. My first morning home after a business trip the chauffer, maid, and grounds keeper reported to me at breakfast, but this morning the house is quiet and seems deserted.
After refilling my mug, I ventured up the stairs. Entering the bed room, I heard the shower running. Nicole's scent lingered in the empty bed still warm from her body. My reflection in her mirror surprised me; I avoided looking at myself. I'd let myself go over the years while working and traveling for business. Nicole kept herself in top shape with the help of trainers in her home gym.
I'd lost my voice I couldn't think of any way to start the conversation I knew we must have, avoiding it wasn't going to make it go away. Nicole pranced naked into the bed room drying her hair.
"What's with the long face Richard, having second thoughts, cat got your tongue I hope not I was going to put it to use."
My shocked expressions betrayed my emotional turmoil. "Nicole we need to talk."
"Ok talk Richard let's clear the air once and for all, what do you want to know? I cheated, so what, you're gonna divorce me or what?"
"I'm sorry I'm confused, it's not normal for you to run around uncovered, do you realize I've seen you naked more in the last ten or twelve hours then our whole time together?"
"So has a lot of people, seen me naked more than you I mean."
"NICOLE! Have you no shame?"
"Temper, temper Richard and for your information yes I did feel shame occasionally, but you made it easy to ignore and finally it went away, in its place is anger, anger you've neglected me for so long. Do you realize most people make love more in a month then we have our entire time together?" I could almost see steam rising as her anger over took her making her nipples hard and her cheeks turn red. "If you want me to stay you have to prove it and if you don't just say so, but decide now, I've wasted enough time on this!"
Flaring tempers tainted the room with emotion brought on by fear, fear of betrayal, disloyalty and infidelity possibly resulting in loneliness, hatred and finally divorce. Nicole seemed to fear being trapped in a marriage to an unresponsive husband and living a life cast in despair and boredom not able to express her self or indulge in pleasures of the flesh. She'd been aroused, pleasured and sexually fulfilled by illicit sexual behavior and seemed determined to continue down this path of depravity.
"How would you like me to prove it Nicole? After last night me being here should be proof enough, don't you think?"
"No I don't think! Although I didn't expect you to hang around after finding my pussy stretched and bruised and you coming down the stairs was a little disconcerting for the boys, but it helped changed my mind from leaving you especially after you helped yourself to a blow job. Maybe theirs hope for you yet."
"I'm confused; you want me to prove what exactly?"
"Do I have to spell it out Richard, you have to come to terms with my sexuality but more importantly you have to come to terms with your's as well. From this moment forward if we follow the same path we both have to be comfortable with the destination."
"And what might that be?" I asked afraid of the answer.
"I can only speak for myself, but I intend to expand and enjoy my sex life as long as the urge moves me. I've found when I'm honest with myself I'm happy and fulfilled and I do things that are good for me like work out and eat right. It makes me smile and I like smiling."
"What am I supposed to do sit back and watch, like it or lie about it, what?" I couldn't get passed the insecurity I felt while talking about this. I was angry, confused and on the verge of chucking the whole mess when the phone rang taking Nicole out of the room to talk privately with the caller.
"My trainer is on his way over, so let's get this over with Richard," Nicole said as she disappeared into her walk-in closet. "Where were we, oh yes as to what you are supposed to do if you want us to stay married? If I were you I would think about a diet and getting to know my trainer. You'll never be able to keep up with me in the shape your in. Secondly Richard you really should consider something to boost your libido. Sex twice a month is just not healthy."