It's been a long time since things have been normal at home. My husband is a disabled vet and although sex is not completely gone from our marriage, our communication has suffered greatly. You see, my husband has cognitive disabilities that have challenged his ability to remember the simplest things and in turn conversations with him can be frustrating. I love him dearly but sometimes its like talking to a teenager. They comprehend but lack a certain attention span that maturity brings. For this reason romance and arousal have also suffered.
Of course I've thought about leaving and moving on. I've told myself that he isn't capable of a normal adult relationship in his current state and there are no prospects that he'll get better.
Now my friends all tell me to just find a willing substitute for the occasional adult conversation. They've also suggested that I am fully entitled to meaningful and satisfying sex with a normal man. I admit it does sounds enticing but I decided on a compromise.
You see my husband and I joined an adult website several months ago. It was an experiment really. You see I don't have many fantasies. I really enjoy basic sex with no frills and lots of passion. Kissing and oral sex are a result of the moment for me. I am fully content with the feel of a nice hard cock pumping in and out of my sopping wet pussy. There is no better feeling except for the feeling of a man's seed rushing into the depths of my pussy filling me with a feeling of excitement and fulfillment - or my mouth if I'm feeling naughty.
Since my brain has always been my erogenous zone, I now flirt with the guys on the website. I chat with them and see where things go in an effort to get excited the way I used to with my husband. I try to think of them as versions of my husband before he changed. It works. Often I listen to them make comments about my pictures and feel the juices in my pussy begin to flow. When I'm good and damp I attack my husband.
He says he doesn't mind insisting that as long as I'm taking out my desire and sexual excitement on him "What's to complain about?" as he puts it. It works for us.