A.The Confession
"I have a confession to make," I said with a little giggle.
"Is that so?" Tom answered with mock concern. We were on the bed, me lying on my side with my face tucked into the nook between Tom's neck and shoulder. This is the position we use when we do "fantasy talk" as part of foreplay; it's easier for me to make up dirty, slutty fantasies when I'm not looking Tom in the eyes.
"Well," I continued, "ever since you started encouraging me to make up fantasies about doing things with other guys, I find that I'm actually thinking about doing things like that."
"Really?" Tom said, and this time the concern in his voice was real. "What do you mean?"
"Like, if I'm walking down the street and I see a nice-looking guy, in the past I might have thought to myself that he's cute or something, but now I can't help wondering how big his cock is, or wondering what it would be like to fuck him."
"I see," Tom said, with just a hint of excitement in his voice.
"And the other day, a guy from the cable company came to my apartment to replace the cable box with a new, hi-def one, and I just couldn't stop thinking about having sex with him. I noticed how big and rough his hands were, and I started fantasizing about him pawing at my breasts with those rough hands, or grabbing and squeezing my ass cheeks with them."
"Uh-huh," Tom muttered, starting to breathe heavily. I reached down and found that Tom's cock was rock hard, and started gently stroking it.
"We were all alone in the apartment, standing just a few feet apart," I continued. "I couldn't help thinking how easy it would be to reach out and put my hand on his crotch. I was sure he wouldn't object. I really wanted to pull down his jeans and suck his cock until he was about to come, then bend over and let him fuck me from behind."
"Did you do anything?" Tom asked, sounding excited but slightly bewildered.
"Of course not," I said, "but as soon as he left the apartment, I had to take off my clothes and masturbate. My pussy was soaking wet, and I came really quickly!"
"Wow!" Tom exclaimed; his cock was throbbing in my hand, and I realized I was getting moist between the legs as well.
"That got me wondering – what if I'd actually done it, or did something else like that? Would you be upset or hurt?" I was sliding my hand up and down the length of Tom's shaft, reaching down to fondle his balls every few strokes. He was so aroused that he had a little difficulty forming words to answer.
"Well," he managed to say, "I think part of me would be really turned on by it, but I might also be a little hurt, especially if I didn't know about it and found out later. For some reason, I think it might be easier for me to handle if I were present while you were doing stuff with another guy."
I was a little disappointed by his answer. I know it would have been easier for me to act on my fantasies when Tom isn't around, and I wasn't sure how such a scenario might come about where he was present. But I kept stroking his cock, and getting hornier by the minute. In a moment, Tom gathered his thoughts again and said, "I've seen ads in the free press for a swinger's club right in this neighborhood; maybe we should go to one of their parties, just to check it out."
"You really think we should?" I asked, trying not to sound too excited by the idea.
"Sure. We can go and just see what's going on, maybe fool around with each other if we feel comfortable enough. And if you feel the urge to do something with another guy while I'm watching or while we're doing things to each other, I'd be okay with that." Tom was breathing hard between words, and began letting out soft moans as I quickened my pace on his dick.
"Are you sure?" I asked, "I mean, would you want to set any limits, any specific things I shouldn't do?"
Tom thought for a few moments, then managed to say, "I think I'd get off on seeing you sucking another man's cock or being fucked by another guy, even in the ass. But I don't want you to kiss any other guys – for some reason, that seems much more intimate to me."
"I can understand that" I said. The idea that this visit to a swinger's club might actually happen was intoxicating, and I started rubbing my clit with one hand while continuing to stroke Tom's swollen cock with the other. But then suddenly I felt a sense of anxiety.
"Well, this brings up a fear on my end," I said. "I know you're turned on by the thought of me having sex with other guys, but I definitely don't get off on the idea of you having sex with other women. I'm worried that if we go to this club and I actually do something with another guy, you'll feel like you should be able to get it on with a woman there, and I don't think I can handle that." I said this somewhat nervously, aware that there was some unfairness about my attitude.
To my surprise though, Tom quickly reassured me: "Listen, I know that this is my fantasy, it isn't yours, and I really don't want to do anything to hurt you. So, if we go to check out this club, even if you do things with other guys I promise I won't have any sex with other women."