Actually I'm wearing one of your t-shirts, the one you gave me as birthday present last year, the Iron Maiden t-shirt. John, my love, I am so sorry I have caused you to doubt me and lose your trust in me.
I promise you that I will do all I can to restore that trust. I'm coming home to you, I should have never left. That is one of the many mistakes I have made. I am so sorry my love.
Luisa and I had a heart to heart after I received your email. It brought home to me so many things I had not really noticed. It also made me realise how stupid I am.
Yes I know my job is a PA to a CEO. So, you would think I would see a predator and avoid them. First of all, I did not know Robert Jenkins would be on the ship.!t was a shock to see him on board.
I did make the mistake of talking to him. Yes it was at the bar in the nightclub. I know you and Luisa do not believe me but its true! I was not expecting to see him there. I know my words don't mean much at the moment.
John, my love, over the past couple of months it is true he and I have been on lunch breaks at the same time, but not "together" he was sat opposite me on several occasions and he and I would talk to each other, about work, occasionally he would tell me about himself, which by the way I know now is total bullshit.
I must stress it was never a "date", I never went out with him, it was never him paying for my lunch it was never in a place where we couldn't be spotted.
In short the three times we went for our shared lunch break it was either with other people or in very public place's.
I admit I didn't know he has been married 3 times. It honestly never came up in conversation. After all why would he tell me that information?
And you know I'm a private person. If someone wants to tell me something, I will listen, but I rarely ask a private question and I don't listen to gossip. It is true he was telling some sob story about being misunderstood and being treated badly by people in his past.
Of course I didn't realise it was all bullshit. I am sorry to cause you to think bad of me. Iknow I should have told you about him and yes I should have told you about our lunches.
I understand where Luisa is coming from. I know she is looking out for me and for you. I also understand why the captain and Luisa had a "Talk" with Robert Jenkins.
They spoke to him yesterday and I think Luisa scared him the most. He hasn't spoken to me or approached me since that "Talk". I understand he confessed to going after me. He knew I was married but, apparently, that's his thing.
He chases after married women and I might add, he likes the gullible ones. I'm sorry but I "could" have been just another on notch his bed post.
I assure you in the strongest possible way, I would not and will not cheat on you. Yes, he is younger than us, yes, he is tall and handsome, but, so are you. You are big, broad shouldered, tall and handsome, and John, my love, make no mistake.
It's you I love, it's you I will always love. John, I now realize that I have made many mistakes. For the past couple of month's I have lost focus. I have lost focus on the most important man in my life, you. John, please forgive me.
