The gentle piano music and the cacophony of the background restaurant conversation seemed to fade into inconsequential as I look across the table at her. Her teardrop face accentuated by the flickering candle that sat in the middle of the table. Her deep brown eyes glistening despite the dim lights of the intimate venue.
"To us," I offer raising my glass of Prosecco towards her.
"To us," Tilly my wife of exactly twelve months offers with out pause as she raises her own glass and gently clinks it to mine, "Happy anniversary...thank you... thank you for everything... even now I don't think you know how much I love you."
Her broad smile speaks more than any words could for her. The same words I find hard to find myself at times, such is the nature intensity of my love for her. She is my everything. As I watch her take a sip of cool crisp drink my mind wanders on the last twelve months and the almost two years that had proceeded that. Tilly was, and always had been, my personification of perfect. A reciprocated love to the extent they I could not have imagined or asked for anything more from our relationship, or our marriage.
Life had, by our own choice, become so much different over the last twelve months of marriage alone. Life develops and alters for everyone, for Tilly and I it was to the point whereby we had not completely ostracised ourselves from a friends and social circles but in the contentment of one another's company we had slipped away to the fringes. The pair of us blissfully happy in one another's company alone. Meeting up less and less so with our circle of friends who largely led carefree, single life existences.
"I'll grab the bill shall I" I offer slipping my hand into my jacket pocket for my wallet.
"Yes," Tilly responds her eye line barely breaking from mine, "Are we going to find a bar for a drink or two... or just grab a taxi?"
"A taxi home sounds a good idea," I offer with a little smirk to the corner of my lips.
"Sure," she nods a devilish smirk crossing her own lips "You do realise I'm a sure thing, don't you?"
"I do now," I offer on a grin, "I wasn't a hundred percent certain your favourite restaurant was enough to secure the deal."
Tilly simply drains the glass of Prosecco whilst sat across the table from me, glancing to the silver bracelet sat around her delicate slender wrist as she sets down the long stemmed glass.
"The jewellery already got you between my legs tonight," Tilly offers the statement rather crassly, her grin now infectious as she presses her chair back and rises from the table. "Shall we?"
Taking her lead, my heart racing and my mind wandering on the prospects of the remainder of our anniversary, I rise myself and set my napkin down on the table.
"Let's," I offer casting my eye over my wife's incredible slender form that is clad in a satin royal blue dress that sits just above her knee.
Fifteen minutes later Tilly nestles up against me shivering as we queue for a taxi. As I cast my eye along the queue ahead of us, I anticipate at least another four fares between us and salvation from the biting freezing wind. Feeling Tilly wrap herself around my right arm a little tighter, her frame trembling despite her leather jacket, worn now under my suit jacket. I do not complain against the frosty night air, stoically I endure the elements for her. Even if I silently plead for a procession of available cabs to pull up and offer salvation and carriage home.
"Next date night... I wanna go there..." Tilly offers.
Without need to follow her eye-line I glance back across the street. The queue of revellers stretching, despite the winter conditions, along the front of the building and around its corner. Red neon lights above the main glass doors reflect on the dark wet pavement.
"I've heard all sorts of rumours," I offer sincerely.
"So have I," Tilly offers her teeth chattering a little, "Let's find out for ourselves...live a little."
Punctuating her words she squeezes my arm, playfully, insistingly. I have no genuine objection to her request. The recently opened venue I am sure cannot be anywhere near as raucous and debauched as its burgeoning reputation suggested.
As I look up across the front of the building, I surmise that good marketing and careful PR are probably as responsible as any word of mouth.
"A date night at the Dark Star then" I offer as my prayers are answered and five taxis pull into the taxi rank in unison.
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Three months later I cast my eye around the reasonably busy venue. I had expected so much more, more in terms of the decor and the basic layout of the city's most notorious venue. Theres a total lack of atmosphere in the cavernous dark room even as music blares from speaker stacks and lurid bright lights strobe around the venue.
It is also quiet, no where near as many patrons as I had anticipated. That being said it is still early, a little after nine thirty and we had deliberately arrived punctual on recommendation of the online reviews which heavily suggested pre ten o'clock arrival to ensure guaranteed entrance at the weekend. The queue that had built steadily behind us had been testimony to a wise decision on my behalf following research.
At my side Tilly beams, her head turning left to right before she looks back over her shoulder at everything we have already passed.
"This place is amazing," she offers with an enthusiasm I cannot share at this point of the night as we approach the vast main bar with a dance floor to our left.
"Oh my god I wanna dance tonight... I so wanna dance tonight," she excitedly continues.
"Drinks first," I dryly offer as we find space at the marble topped bar. "Maybe lots of drinks if you want to get me dancing."
Five minutes later as I take a sip of my pint of lager, I am regretting such a proclamation with little short of shrapnel in coins received back from a twenty pound note handed to the pretty faced barmaid with dark curly hair for the two drinks we receive.
My gaze casts to my left as I watch Tilly take a sip of the murky yellow cocktail of choice, a Disaronno Sour. Turning her back to the bar she feasts on the spectacle of the venue that by my own admission has grown far busier even since we entered. My concentration is not on the venue though but on my wife.
The strapless short black dress that clings to her body accompanied only by silver ankle strap high heels is new, at least I have certainly never seen it before. It accentuates and elevates her frame and displays her long toned legs perfectly as it sits across her mid thigh. Mahogany brown hair is scraped back off her face, into a ponytail. Her face is made up slightly more heavily than normal, her eyes shaded darker than usual, and her lips painted with a dark red glossy effect lipstick.
Sensing my gaze, she looks across her exposed right shoulder towards me, a smirk come smile crossing her lips as she deliberately coyly looks at me. "What?" Tilly offers feigning innocence.
"Just appreciating how beautiful you are?" I sincerely offer.
The slight blush that instantly crosses her cheeks, noticeable even in the dim light of the club, is instantly endearing. My comment not meant or required in any kind of over flattery, just intended on the love that I have for her.
"So, you'll chaperone me into the dance floor then" Tilly gently teases.
"I'll need a few more of these before you get me dancing," I prudishly offer taking a sip from the expensive pint of lager whilst wondering just how expensive the night out will prove to be.
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A little after one in the morning I find myself pressing through the same hoards waiting to enter the Gents toilets as I had stood among only moments earlier.
The club is insanely busy, I cannot look left or right without witnessing a general level of debauchery I find fascinating and distasteful in equal measure. That around an hour ago there had been a live sex show much to the pleasure of a baying crowd speaks volumes for the reputation both Tilly and I had heard of but until tonight not quite believed. Openly unashamedly many of the patrons around me openly consume narcotics. How the establishment expects to uphold let alone maintain its operating licence is beyond me.
Making my way back towards Tilly who I had left at the far end of the bar I park such thoughts. The constant dance music reverberates around the venue. The queue at the bar five or six patrons deep. It is why I am glad on simple enough conversation to have inadvertently fallen into the company of the owner of the establishment. Under pleasant enough discussion we had then soon found ourselves escorted into the private members area of the bar at his invitation. He has barely left our side since.
The complimentary drinks and the subsequent amount of free alcohol I had consumed blurs my mind a little, my steps a little hesitant as I head back towards Tilly who is locked in conversation with our host and seemingly newfound best friend.
Pausing at a distance as I watch Tilly laugh out loud throwing her head back on a comment made into her ear as her left hand falls upon his right forearm. There was a rough charm to our host, yet at the same time there was something I could not quite put my finger on. A side to him that he hid well beneath the finely tailored suit he wore. Standing still in the relative darkness I casually observe for a moment even as I watch while he presses something into Tilly's hand.
Tilly looks up at the dark haired male then back to her hand, there is a reticence to her expression, an uncertainty that almost alters her body language at once. I watch her shake her head a little as she takes half a step back, a distance he soon closes. Tilly brings her hand up before her eye-line inspecting whatever it is he has handed her. A slight grin passing her lips but still she shakes her head gently from side to side on a negative reaction.