Letters of Apology

# The Wedding. #

The days and nights leading to the wedding were not so great, every day i would think about my confessions to raj, It was a risky move, I know that raj accepted it, didn't question my character... but still... it was quite a string of emotions until today..... I was reflecting on the conversation we shared, it all just felt so close and exciting for us to share in the future but in the back of my mind I always wondered what if I had hurt raj in someway.

Well wedding night was bright and joyful with 100s of guests.

Day 1: Mehndi Ceremony

The Mehndi ceremony was the first major event. My hands and feet were adorned with intricate henna designs, symbolizing love and prosperity. Friends and family gathered around, laughing and chatting.

Asha (my best friend): "Niddhi, your Mehndi looks amazing! I bet Raj won't be able to find his name hidden in there."

"Asha, you know he's up for the challenge. He's been talking about it for days!"

All of us danced and sang along with the music. My mother Sunita could not stop smiling as she saw me.

Sunita (my mom): "You look so beautiful, beta. This is just the beginning of a wonderful journey."

Day 2: Haldi Ceremony

The turmeric paste had people smoothening it all over my skin because they want me to attain a glowing skin complexion and drive off all evil spirits. Here is my cousin, Akash: "Niddhi, get ready to be covered in yellow! This is just a preview of how colorful your life will be with Raj."

I was smeared from head to toe, laughing because of people playfully doing it for me. Meanwhile, Raj's family had their Haldi ceremony simultaneously, and I could only imagine all the fun they were having.

Day 3: Sangeet Night

This was the Sangeet night-that was all about music and dance. There was some sort of a friendly competition between my family and Raj's on who would come up with the best choreographed dances.

My younger brother, Arjun: "Niddhi, our team will surely win this dance-off! Raj's family cannot compete with us."

"We'll see, Arjun! I just want everyone to have fun. Espicially You. My Sweet little brother.", giving him a small kiss on his cheeks. He is fluffy and looks so cute, He is fluffy and looks so cute. At just nine years old, he is always mischievous and constantly has one complaint or another from school.

When it was my turn to dance, I felt the thrill of excitement. Raj watched me with admiration and I could feel the love in his eyes.

Raj (whispering to me after my performance): "You were amazing, Niddhi. I can't wait to dance with you at our wedding."

Wedding Day: Baraat and Ceremony

Finally, the day of the wedding arrived. I was full of mixed excitement and nervousness. As the baraat, the groom's procession, neared, the lively beats of the dhol drum mingled with the joyous shouts of the guests.

My cousin, Shweta: "Niddhi, look! Raj is on a white horse. He looks like a prince!"

I peeked out and saw Raj, dressed in a stunning sherwani, looking regal and confident. He waved at me, and I felt my heart flutter.

Jaimala and Varmala

The ceremony began with the Jaimala (garland exchange). Raj and I stood on a decorated stage, ready to place garlands around each other's necks.

Raj (smiling): "Are you ready, Niddhi? I hope you're not planning to make it too easy for me."

(both laughing): "Let's see how quick you are, Raj."

We playfully tried to avoid each other's garlands before finally succeeding. The crowd cheered and a sense of bonhomie and happiness washed over us.

Kanyadaan and Saat Phere

The Kanyadaan was an emotional moment. My parents placed my hand in Raj's official entrustment of his care for me.

My father, Ramesh: "Raj, take care of our Niddhi. She is a precious gem for us."

Raj (deadpan): "I promise, Uncle. I will always love and protect her."

We then walked to the Saat Phere or the seven rounds around the holy fire, each step representing a vow we were making to each other.

Panditji (officiant): "With each step, you both promise to hold these promises and forge a life of love, trust, and mutual respect."

Sindhur and Mangalsutra

Raj applied sindoor on my forehead and tied the mangalsutra (sacred necklace) around the neck; that marked me his wife.

Raj (softly): "This is the beginning of our forever, Niddhi."

Bidaai (Farewell)

Bidaai was the emotional part of marriage. Now it was time for me to leave my house and go with Raj's. Tears were burning, how much I was holding my parents and brothers in my arms.

Mom (tearfully): "Niddhi, always be happy and keep smiling. You're starting a new chapter, and we're always here for you."

(crying): "I'll miss you all so much. But I know I'm going to a loving family with Raj."

Raj held my hand, offering comfort and strength.

Raj: "We'll visit often, Niddhi. You'll never be far from your family."

When we had to leave, I felt a few bittersweet moments. I was leaving behind life for something new that held all aspects of love and promise.

Reception and First Night

The reception was beautiful. It was a celebration close to the people's hearts and those who were really important in our lives. Raj and I met all the guests and greeted them, thanking them for being part of our special day.

Asha: "Niddhi, you are so radiant. I am happy for you both!"

"Thanks, Asha. Today was just perfect."

Later, towards the end of the night, and finally when we got some time to ourselves, Raj said,

Raj: "Today was just amazing, Niddhi. I'm really glad we are finally married."

Me: "Me too, Raj. Couldn't have asked for a better day."

While embracing each other, we both felt immense happiness and tranquility. Our journey had just started, and I knew we could conquer anything together. The wedding was not just a ceremony; it was the beginning of our lifetime of love, trust, and adventure.

# My First Night #

As night fell, Raj and I finally found ourselves alone in our room.

I was waiting for this night for such a long time and felt a mixture of excitement and nervousness. Raj, however had other plans.

Raj (smiling): "Niddhi, I know you're expecting a wild first night, but I want us to take it slow. Let's change into something comfortable and save this beautiful lehenga for our first night in Manali."

I was surprised but also touched by his thoughtfulness. Though I felt a bit sad, the promise of a special night in Manali filled me with excitement. It was like a dream come true, My faviourite travelling destination.

Me (softly): "Okay, Raj. I trust you."

Next Day: The Journey Begins

The next morning, we were all set to move for Manali. A Swift Dzire tourist car belonged to Mr. Malik. Raj introduced Malik uncle as the neighbor uncle who used to live in that society. He stays somewhere else now.

Raj: "Niddhi, this is Malik Uncle. He'll be driving us to Manali."

Malik (smiling): "Hello, beta. Congratulations on your wedding."

Malik was almost 6 feet tall, muscular and powerfully built. His age could be estimated to be around 40 years, but there was something about him that was satisfying and reassuring.

Raj and I settled into the back seat, and Raj continued changing into comfortable trousers and asking me to wear a crop top and tight-fitting black leggings he had gifted me. I was unwilling and quite shy as I had never worn any such outfit in life.

Me: "Raj, I'm not sure about this. It's so revealing."

Raj (pleading): "Please, Niddhi. I want to see you in it. You'll look amazing. I promise."

With much playing-pleading and begging from Raj, I finally agreed, feeling a mix of nervous and excited.

As we embarked on our journey, Malik shared more about his life.

Malik: "I have two kids and an awesome wife who stays home in hyderabad to take care of them. I'm usually out of town driving & live here in mumbai, but I make sure to spend at least one week at home every two-three months."

Throughout the journey, I found Malik to be extremely calm and respectful. It was clear that Malik and Raj had a very good bond. We started talking on many things, and I couldn't help but see the respect Raj had for Malik.

"Raj, how long have you known Malik Uncle?"

Raj: "For years. He's always been like an elder brother to me."

As we traveled, I started to feel comfortable in my new clothes. Raj could not stop gazing at me, and I felt empowered.

We finally arrived in Manali resort, and I was just a bit more than excited. Malik saw that our luggage had arrived and gifted me a present.

Malik: " Congratulations once again, beta. I wish you a happy honeymoon."

Curious, I opened the gift once we were in our room. It was a beautiful 22-carat gold ring.

"Raj this looks expensive."

Raj: "Malik Uncle owns five different tourist cars. He's a very successful and respected man. It's only natural. But look, this is stunning. What is it exactly?"

(examining it): "I think it's a nose ring. But it's so thick. Maybe it's for something else?"

After Settling In.

It was time now. Raj and I were in our room, and the tension between us had charged. I had donned the wedding lehnga, and I was still not over the excitement of my wedding night. Raj has come back to me. His eyes look so full of love and lust.

Raj (whispers): "You look stunning, Niddhi."

He gently cupped my face and gave me this soft kiss. The kiss deepened, and soon his hands started stroking my body to create a shiver in me. I also returned him the gesture-my hands tracing along the lines of his back.

Raj (whispering): "I can't believe you're finally mine."

In the midst of our passionate kisses, I felt Raj's excitement pressing against me. He slowly guided my hand to his dick, which I hesitantly touched for the first time. To my surprise, Raj's body tensed and he ejaculated almost immediately.

Raj (embarrassed): "I'm so sorry, Niddhi. I was just so excited."

(smiling reassuringly): "It's okay, Raj. I loved every second of it."

Despite the initial embarrassment, Raj did not stop from making me feel loved and appreciated. He continued to kiss my neck while his tongue trailed across my collarbone. His touch was soft, but passionate.

Raj (on my neck): "You're so beautiful, Niddhi. I just can't get enough of you."

We kissed for some more time, and Raj again attempted to penetrate into me. This time, he was much more calm. He took a more controlled pace, ensuring I was comfortable and as aroused as possible. When he finally entered me, it was a short and intense experience, lasting only two minutes before he climaxed once again.

Raj (breathing heavily): "I'm sorry Niddhi. This has never happened to me before. You are just so gorgeous that I can't control myself."

(soothingly): "Raj, it is all right. I really enjoyed every part of it."

We lay there wrapped in each other's arms, basking in the afterglow.

Raj simply could not stop praising me, words being honey and nectar to my ears.

Raj (stroking my hair): "You are amazing Niddhi. I feel blessed to have you."

"I feel the same way, Raj. It's been a long time since I felt this connected to someone. Thanks for making this night so special."

Hearing these words, I was overwhelmed with joy. He hugged me tight and whispered sweet nothings in my ear.

Raj: "I promise to always make you feel loved and cherished. This is just the beginning of our beautiful journey together."

We decided to go shopping the next day, as Manali looked very beautiful and we wanted to utilize our honeymoon fully. We walked through the market, when I came across some beautiful western dresses.

"Raj, look at these dresses. They're so pretty."

Raj (reluctant): "Niddhi, you know how it is. Your parents are expecting me to give you sarees or salwar kameez. It's a societal thing, really. But if you want, we can buy these and you can wear them on vacations or when we're alone."

"I know, Raj. I understand the expectations. But I would love to have a few of these for our private time."

Raj (smiling): "Then let's get them. I want you to be happy and feel beautiful."

We bought several dresses, and I was thrilled with Raj's understanding and support. He made me feel special, respecting both my wishes and the traditions we needed to uphold.

Our honeymoon was filled with laughter, love, and lots of shopping. We explored Manali, tried different cuisines, and created beautiful memories together. Raj was deeply in love and it showed in every gesture, every word.

Raj (while shopping): "Niddhi, do you like this dress? I think it would look amazing on you."

"Yes, Raj. It's beautiful. Thank you for being so understanding."

Raj: "Whatever you need, my love. Always. I want you to be happy."

And as we spent more time together, our bond become powerful. We spoke of our future, our dreams, and how we wanted our marriage to work.

Raj: "Niddhi, it's nice that we are here together. It feels like a dream."

"I feel the same way, Raj. This honeymoon has been the best part of my life."

One evening, while relaxing in our room, I brought up the gift again.

Raj: "Let's wait till we get back. Till then, let's just enjoy our time here."

"Raj, do you think we should ask Malik Uncle about the ring?"

On our last day at the resort, I felt a mix of sadness and happiness. Malik Uncle arrived to pick us up, and we thanked him for his help and the beautiful gift.

"Thank you, Malik Uncle. The gift is beautiful, but we're not sure what it is exactly."

Malik (smiling): "It's a navel ring, beta. It's meant to be a special gift for a special occasion."

I blushed and smiled, "Thank you so much, Malik Uncle. Never in my life have I worn a navel ring, but this is such a unique gift and so beautiful. I shall keep it safe for our special occasion.

It was a nice feeling when we were coming back home. Since I had many experiences and people's company along the ride, I didn't feel as if I was returning home.

Raj and I had become closer now and had the promise of our first night in Manali, which kept excitement alive.

Raj: "Niddhi, these past few days have been incredible. I can't wait for what's next."

"Me too, Raj. Thank you for everything."

When we came back to our place, I was thinking at peace with so much anticipation for what lies ahead of us. The ceremonies, the trip to Manali, and all the special moments we shared had brought us closer to each other; I knew our lives would be made up of love, trust, and adventure.