I am writing this with the help of my husband, Ted. I wrote the story in my own words and thoughts, then he read it and edited for me. Ted told me to not try and write a "hot" story, just tell it like I would to a friend.
I first saw Ted sitting on the curb near the Hospital I was taking classes at. He was dirty, no filthy is a better word, head down, hair a mess. But a block or so away, I turned and looked back at him. He didn't see that, of course, and I have no idea why I took notice.
It was a few weeks later that we were assigned to find someone and try and nurse them back to something resembling human. On the way home that evening, I spotted him across the street, and made up my mind right then.
The next day, I confronted him on the street. I was scared to death, I had no idea at all what he would do. But at my orders, he got up and meekly followed me.
At the Hospital, I made him strip and shower, he did as I said. I looked him up and down, the frame was skinny as a rail, yet still, this was a big man. Something happened to me right there in that hospital room, that first day. I think it was his eyes, he looked at me and saw my heart.
But there was no male reaction, he stood there naked and unashamed, and did my bidding.
In just a few months I was looking at a big strong male, energetic, intelligent. He threw himself at work, almost like he used that to cover the pain. I knew by then of the loss of Carol, his first wife, that caused the crash in his life.
One day at his apartment, we looked at each other and knew we were in love. We just melted together, his touch had me in orgasm before he ever entered me the first time.
We married and began a life, one day his past found us. There was quite a large settlement from the tragedy of Carol. We used most of it to build the home we live in today.
The next 20 years or so of our life could well be described as normal. We weren't swingers, I never cheated, and even though I was well aware that Ted would offer a lady client pleasure as part of one of his massage sessions, you would need to know him to realize this is normal for him, too!
I have watched this man touch a new leaf on a plant, just looking and feeling it in appreciation. I saw him catch a wounded Crow one day, where most would have simply dispatched it, he treated it, nursed it back to health, and let it go. I have watched him sit out on our porch and catch Hummingbirds with his bare hands, I have no idea how he does that. He strokes them for awhile, they seem to sit calmly in his hands, then he lets them fly away.
Even after 20 years, he can look at me and make me wet, and bring me to orgasm just by teasing my breasts!
One day Ted asked me to be a massage model for one of his students, Carey. I like massage, but I can also do without but I agreed. Ted was there during the session, and said nothing when Carey began to take some liberties with my body. I was well aware of Ted's past, and the experimentaion with sex so common to youth. But he had never really approached the subject with me. Thinking it was what he wanted, I allowed the touch, soon Carey had his face between my legs, and I wanted him! Lord, I wanted him! So much so I told Ted, he just nodded and arranged another session.
Ted watched as Carey took me, the expression in his eyes was one of pleasure, but for me, not himself. Carey was nothing like Ted. He pounded into me and I loved it, I wanted more! So much so that I even thought it was where I belonged. I figured Ted would be all right, he suffers from periodic depression, which some medications keep in check. I didn't see the crash coming, and crash he did!
Our first argument, or first breakup, in fact this was the very first stress in our lives I can think of.
But the day I went to get some of my clothes, I simply could not keep my hands off of Ted. Not even with Carey sitting out in the Van waiting. Carey was furious, and hit me, and Ted was there! He just overpowered Carey, and pinned him to the ground. I knew which one was the man. Ted just gently cleaned the blood from my lip, and took me back into the house. I was home.
We had many long discussions after that. We both knew we had to be able to seperate the pleasure in our lives from the "us" in our lives. I told Ted of my sometimes need to be just ravished, Ted explained that he liked to see me dress sexy, it was exciting. He told me that it was always in the back of his mind, but suppressed. I realized it was sometimes in my mind, too.