Chapter 7 (Ending 1)
"Go on Jill, make your statement. Give your deposition. But remember you are under a marriage oath. You MUST be truthful. Tell me everything and omit nothing. If you don't, if you lie, then there will be a death of some kind. You might say an execution of relationships... husband/wife, son/father, friends/lovers, maybe even mother/son."
The sky grew darker and more foreboding as Jill began to whisper her testimony.
"The reunion weekend... It was so nice to get away... Do you know that it was the first time in 6 months I was off by myself for longer than a trip to the store. I was by myself, no husband, no Jake Junior, just me. All by myself, in Miami. The resort was so beautiful. The warm tropical breezes, rum drinks, hot salsa music. Beautiful people.... Jake it was just so sexy there," Jill sobbed.
I didn't respond to her, but thought to myself, "Does geography make a person unfaithful. If that's the case then Jill better never go to Hawaii or Las Vegas by herself!" I continued to stare at my wife, until she became uncomfortable and finally continued.
"Jake, everyone was there and we were having such a good time. It was like I was back in school. Before us, before Jake Junior. It was like I was my own person again. Not responsible for anything, anyone but myself."
"I have always let you be your own person Jill. I have always given you space if you told me you needed it," I responded. My voice was dull and unemotional.
"I know Jake. It's not anything you have done. It's just life..."
I couldn't help but interrupt. "You wanted to get married Jill. I thought as much as I did. And I know you wanted to have a baby...."
This time Jill stopped me. "Yes, I did. I wanted marriage and a baby. I love you Jake... Oh God this is so hard!"
"Do you want me to help Jill. I'll ask some questions if it will help you get it out. But before I do I want to hear that one thing from your loving lips." I stressed the word 'loving' and saw Jill flinch. "Just say it, Jill."
I saw the tears well up in her eyes again. Nothing was said for several minutes. The only sound was Jill's quiet sobs. Finally she whispered, "I was unfaithful Jake."
"What, I didn't hear you!"
"I was unfaithful."
"You fucked someone else Jill?" I said rhetorically. "You cheated on me?"
"Yes, Dam it... YES! Please stop torturing me with it. I know that you know! I know.... And it is killing me."
I couldn't help but laugh at that. "If it is killing you Jill ... just imagine what it is doing to me!"
She couldn't respond and just hung her head.
After another few minutes of silence I finally said, "Knowing the type of infidelity will make understanding it easier. Tell me Jill is this a one-night stand or a long term affair? Were you drugged? Did you cheat due to a mid-life or life crisis? Did you cheat because I can't satisfy you. Maybe you have a sexual addiction and can't help yourself."
I let those reasons sink in for a moment, then continued, "Jill, did I do something wrong? Maybe you did this as an act of retaliation? Did you do it to get even for something I did? Or are you looking for a way out. Did you cheat as a way to force the end our marriage?"
I had just listed all the reasons that I could think of for a person to cheat on their spouse. I really wanted to know why Jill had done it. Knowing 'WHY' would help me determine if our marriage could survive.
"Oh Jake no...let me think. I am so confused...."
"Well let me go through them one at a time. Maybe it won't be so difficult that way. "OK Jill, was this a one night stand or is it a long term affair?"
"This is the first and only time... I promise Jake... I have never been unfaithful to you before."
I noted to myself that she didn't say she would be unfaithful in the future, but I let it go for now. I would be coming back to that point. "Were you drugged, then taken advantage of Jill."
"Oh Jake, I had a lot to drink and I did smoke some marijuana. But I did it myself, no one forced me too."
"So you can't claim rape then, can you Jill."
"No, I can't. I was swept up in something, but I wasn't forced to go along... I am responsible."
"Well maybe...." I said before catching myself. "Are you having some kind of life crisis?"
"I don't know Jake ...maybe. Its not that I am unhappy, I love you and little Jake, but like I said before.. I.. I... I felt so free and irresponsible. It felt good."
At the word "Felt good", I made a little 'hurrrruuuuummmmp' sound. Jill noticed and her face fell. She hadn't meant it in a sexual way, but she could tell that I had taken it that way.
"Do you have a sex addiction Jill. Are you a nymphomaniac or something now?"
"Oh God Jake no... I won't deny that I have been thinking a lot about the experience... but it is not an addiction."
"I guess I don't satisfy you anymore?"
Jill began to sob! "Jake... no you are wonderful....."
After a few minutes Jill collected herself. "Like I just said, I have been thinking a lot about that night. Jake I won't lie to you..."
"You had better not lie," I growled.
"This may hurt you. Listen, you are a great husband and lover. I love making love with you. But this one night was something different. Jake, I have never had a night like that before! It wasn't better than when we are together. Just different. It was......it was...."
"Amazing Jill.... Isn't that what you want to say. It was amazing. I heard you tell Sally that on the phone."
"God dam-it ..Yes Jake it was amazing. I have never had orgasms like that in my life. OK... that's the truth. But it doesn't mean I love you less. Happy now that I have said it. I loved every minute of it. Yes it was amazing!"
"How many times did you cum Jill?"
No response....
"How many... 1, 2, 4, 6, 10..."
"Stop please..... stop..."
"How many Jill... more orgasms than I have ever given you..."
"Yes dam you... yes! I came and came and came... I must have cum 8 to 10 times... over and over again."
I sat in silence.... Finally I said. "It was Juan right?"
Meekly Jill said, "Yes." She knew how I hated him. She knew that having an affair with him was the worst thing she could do. "I am so sorry," she added burying her face in her hands. She had finally said her lovers name.