We retrieved our two kids from Ann's parents late Saturday morning and to their delight took them to McD's for lunch, and then dropped Patty off at a friend's birthday party. We took Meghan to the playground and then a store for a new toy to make up for the deprivations of not having been invited to the party for older kids. Late in the day I mowed the grass and scrubbed mold off the north side of the house.
Things seemed normal, but in my head they were far from normal. Truth be told, after an hour's sleep the night before, I woke up and relived every second of the evening with John and Carol over and over, particularly the part where I watched John sink his cock into Ann. I could recall every nuance of the monumental event. The experience was mind-blowing in so many ways.
During the day, Ann and I kept looking at each other, without saying a word or acknowledging what had gone on the night before. I was hyper aware of her. I think we both wanted to see if the other had changed; that, plus neither of us wanted to start a long discussion with either of the children around.
My brain and mind kept tumbling between nearly orgasmic arousal and epic depression and fear about the dissolution of my marriage and family. My thoughts were irrational and jumbled. Even in the clear light of day I kept replaying each scene from the night before as we started to get into the undressing and sex, each time with a different resultant set of emotions from elation to melancholy, and everything in between!
I replayed the looks on Ann's face as she kissed John with their tongues twirling together in mid air, as he sucked on her breasts, as he shoved his cock into her vagina for the first time, how they moved as he pumped his shaft into her, how her breasts shook, the ripple of the muscles on John's back, and lastly as they had their shared orgasms. Beyond a doubt, she was in love with him. Where did that put me? How would I now react? What kind of a future would we now have together, if any? Was my time with her now limited before a not too subtle suggestion that we live apart? Where would I live if we separated? Would I ever find someone else to love? Could I ever trust anyone else enough to love them?
I'd been raised to think you could only love one person, but as Ann pointed out and as some of the books we'd read discussed, we loved our two children and each other. So I could love multiple people, but then there was the sex and what that implied about the
kind
of love and the extent of the love. I argued back and forth with myself about the differences between love with sex and lust. As I worked on the lawn and house I found myself talking aloud part of the time.
After dinner, we did the kids' baths and bedtime stories, tucked them in and then went downstairs to have our usual glass of after-dinner wine. We went out on the screened in porch.
Ann snuggled up against me, smiled, and immediately asked, "Are you OK ... with what happened last night?"
I took a long time to answer. "I'll be honest with you; I've replayed it over and over again all day long - and even last night after I woke up after a short nap. The mixed emotions I expected are all there - grief and anger over the loss of our exclusivity, but ecstasy and arousal over the sex. Would I do last night again? Probably. God, I don't know. If I could re-do the past couple of weeks, would I? Probably not. My mind is really a mess right now."
"Thank you for being honest."
"You love John, don't you?"
"Yeah, probably. I have strong feelings for him ... but I have stronger feelings for you, stronger after last night because you are letting me experiment and self-actualize in a unique way. I know very few husbands out there would let their wives do what I've done in the past week or so, especially last night."
I asked, "What will you and John do for lunches now, come back here and fuck or make love or whatever you want to call it?" My voice was not sarcastic or angry; just neutral and full of curiosity.
Ann thought, "No. We won't come here unless you're here. I don't want to start arriving at the house for 'nooners' because he'd expect that everyday and I don't want to have to turn him down. Several of our good friends are neighbors and don't work, so the unusual presence of a car in our driveway at mid-day would attract attention and raise questions."
I chuckled but appreciated her stance; I told her so. I followed up, "If the two of you go to the reservoir again - or somewhere else - just be sure to tell me about it later. I'm not sure how I'll feel - probably aroused, and I'll probably want to make love to you, but it'll scramble my brain too. I'll be thinking of you two together
every
lunch hour from now on." I didn't realize it at that moment but I had just given Ann carte blanche to fuck her brains out or whatever else came to mind any time she wanted.
"Thank you ... and I'd like that too. It's important that we talk a lot while all this is going on." She raised her eyebrows and said that she wouldn't consider the reservoir because there were too many people in the parking area around at mid-day, but that maybe there were other ideas. She also said, "I also don't fancy sitting around work in the afternoons reeking of sex with fresh cum from a hot cock dripping out of my cunt - yours or his, so it's more likely that you'll find us back here in the evenings now and then. I hope that's all right; I'd want you to join in too - and Carol if she can be here."
Ann normally didn't use such crude and graphic language as her 'reeking of sex with fresh cum from a hot cock dripping out of my cunt,' but when she did, I realized she was loosening up and maybe even teasing me. She was clearly oversexed about this situation, and I figured I would be one of the beneficiaries of her moods - along with John. The only time I'd felt as though I got enough sex with Ann was when we were engaged and able to be alone, or on our honeymoon.
We made love later, and even as I penetrated her and shot my sperm into her, I could still imagine John's cock penetrating her quim, or see her bouncing up and down on top of his prone form as he fondled her breasts and sucked on them. Then there was all the kissing and romantic moves between them. The situation was arousing. We had sex twice. Sunday we repeated things, except we had sex four times during the day and evening. We were having sex almost as much as we did when we first started dating.
Monday was a stellar day for me. I went into work feeling like I'd lost my virginity over the weekend but still with bouts of angst over what Ann might be doing with John at that instant. I had a vivid imagination.
My new boss, a really big wheel in the company, deigned to come down to my lowly office from the executive suite. He looked around at my cramped cubicle and said, "I want you to move all your stuff upstairs to the office next to mine. I want to be able to walk out my office into yours when something important is underway. Please do it today."
I called Ann to tell her I was moving into an office on rug row - the executive suite. She was out (doing what, I wondered), but I left a message and told her my news in a happy and elated voice. I told her I'd be home at the usual time. I spent the rest of the day happily packing up cardboard boxes of desk memorabilia and bookcase materials, and dumping the remaining pieces of the projects I had been doing onto others in my old unit. I'd moved upstairs by the end of the day.
I left work early. It would practically be the last day I'd leave work early or even on time for the rest of my career. I pulled into the driveway at the same time that Ann did. She had both kids in the car. She hopped out of her car and came over and gave me a huge hug and congratulatory kisses about my new job and my newer office in the executive suite. The kids didn't quite understand the joy, but knew that something special and nice had happened to Daddy. They were screaming and yelling and we were all celebrating my joy and dancing around in the driveway. The only part of the whole episode they seemed to understand was that Daddy now had a carpet in his office and a great view of the city out his office window.
A few minutes later John and Carol arrived in two separate cars. John had a bottle of champagne in one hand and bottle of fine wine in the other. He bolted over and also gave me a congratulatory bear hug. Carol held back a little. As we were all walking inside, she pulled me back for a moment. We were just inside the garage and the kids were inside the house when she approached me in a vampish way and wrapped her lithe and sensual body around mine, even hooking a leg behind one of mine to pull me closer to her. She had her tongue deep in my mouth in seconds and left no part of my body unloved in a full-press long kiss that she slowly delivered. At the end of the kiss, she bit my ear lobe and ran her tongue around inside my ear. She whispered, "Congratulations, Mr. Executive," in a very husky Marilyn Monroe kind of voice; "we're here to help you celebrate and to fuck your brains out." Whew! My temperature had just passed the boiling point. Steam must have been blowing out the top of my head.
A few moments later in the kitchen while Ann and I worked on dinner, I told my story about moving 'upstairs' and enjoyed the great repartee of good friends. We decided to anoint the occasion with several pepperoni pizzas and a salad, as well as the wine and champagne John had brought. At one point John and Carol secreted away only to return with a hastily wrapped present that they had bought. I unwrapped an executive looking pen set on a marble base containing a brass plate with my name - a set truly befitting of only an executive's new highly polished wooden desk like my new one. More hugs and cheers continued. We were jubilant.