"Honey, we need to talk," are words that send a chill down any man's spine, no matter how secure he may be in his current situation. Given that I was out of work, and my wife was being paid to be used as a sexual lure by her boss so that we didn't become homeless made me feel less than secure. Julie was always an incredibly sexual creature, and the fact that her boss Doug made videos of her exploits so she could share them with me made me feel as if I had a modicum of control over the situation. I still felt like shit putting her in that situation, though. I wished to god I could find good paying work like I used to do so that my wife could stop being, for lack of a better term, a corporate whore.
Men may fantasize about having a whore wife, and I have to admit that since she started working late there were absolutely no inhibitions in our bedroom. The sex between us was great. The problem was, so was the sex between her and everyone else. She loved me so much she would do anything for me, including selling her body. She loved the freedom, the power, and let's face it, the sex. Some days I wasn't as conflicted about it; today, however was not one of them.
"Mark, could you come in her please?" I guess I needed to have this conversation, although I was pretty sure I wasn't going to like it.
Julie was dressed in around the house clothes: a tight fitting black tank top that highlighted her magnificent breasts, and equally magnificent nipples, and a tight fitting pair of jean shorts. Her hair was tied back in a ponytail. When she was dressed in lingerie, looking the part of the wanton vixen, I could usually get turned on by the thought of her being with other people. When she looked like Julie from around the way, they beautiful, sensuous girl next door I married, that was when the situation was the hardest to take. That is when my jealousy flared.
Julie was seated in front of the computer. I walked up behind her, wrapped my arms around her and kissed her on the back of her neck. "What's up, darling?"
"Well, I just got an E-mail from Doug about the next night I need to work late for him. He needs to know if I can go away for a weekend with him to a conference in Seattle. We'd leave early on Friday and return late that Sunday. What do you think?"
"That not the deal, that asshole. One night a month. Not a whole weekend. What is he looking for, a girlfriend experience. I told you I was uncomfortable when it was just you and him. I don't know if I can sign off on this."
"Well, it wouldn't be just the two of us. He said there were clients there he would like me to meet. Honey, I know you think there are some feelings on Doug's part, but really this is just a business transaction. I of course will decline if you want me to, but I really think this is OK."
She turned around to look at me, and waited for my decision. She would abide by it, no matter what it was. Of all the days she had to ask this, a whole weekend, it had to be today, a day I felt like crap about the situation and was miserable. "Can I have an hour to think about it?"
"Of course baby. I didn't mean to put you on the spot, but he did say he needed to make arrangements, so I figured I would ask. Take as much time as you need." She stood up, wrapped her arms around me, and kissed me deeply. "I love you baby, just say the word and I'll say no." I kissed her again, went to the fridge for a beer, and went outside to sit on the back porch to watch the sun go down and think.
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"Honey, we need to talk." That was how she brought up this whole arrangement about a year ago. I had just gotten back from my job as a night bartender, my third job since I lost my real job six months prior. It was about three in the morning and I was exhausted. I was surprised to see her awake since she had to be up in about three hours to get ready for work.
"What's wrong baby? Did another check bounce?"
"No, I think we've got the situation stabilized for right now. I just don't think our accounts could handle any surprises. First of all, I wanted to let you know how much I appreciate how hard you've been working since your layoff. I know you hate this bartending job, and I'm sick to my stomach thinking you'll be starting a security guard job this weekend. I'll never get to see you, and I don't really want you to work yourself to death."
"Hey, this is just a temporary setback. I'll find work, and we'll be back to where we were in no time."
"That may be true, but I was offered some overtime today that I think might solve all our problems."
"Oh yeah, tell me about it."
"Why don't I get you a beer first?"
"That be great, sweetie." She got up from the living room, and my eyes were glued to her as she walked to the fridge to grab me a beer and walked back. She had on a sheer white teddy, and was wearing no panties. She lightly padded up to me on the loveseat, opened the beer for me, and sat down in my lap to hand it to me.
"This is going to be hard for me to say, so I need you to hear me out and not get mad. This is going to be shocking, so I need you to promise you won't get mad. Can you do that for me?"
"What the hell kind of overtime is this anyway," I said with a chuckle. "Honey, I'm too tired right now to get mad. Just say what you have to say, and I promise I'll love whatever it is."
She took a deep breath. "Well, basically, Doug wants me to have sex with clients in order for us to increase our business. It would only be one night a month, and he would pay me $10,000 each time." I burst out laughing, but the look on her face told me she wasn't joking. I exploded.
"That asshole fucking geriatric pervert. I knew that fucker wanted to get in your pants. Who the fuck does he think he is. Are you fucking kidding me with this?" I was so angry I didn't know what to do. The adrenaline kicked in and I stood up, tossing Julie from my lap as I did. She lay crumpled on the floor, defeated. For the first time in my life when I looked at her I actually saw fear in her eyes. I had gotten so angry, the woman that I loved, the one who I had made countless sacrifices for, actually didn't feel safe with me right now.
"Julie, Julie, I'm sorry baby," I said kneeling on the floor next to her. "Are you OK? Look, I'm really sorry for how I reacted."
She burst into tears. "How else were you supposed to react? Baby, it's not that I want to do this, I don't. But I lied earlier when I said that things have stabilized. Today, I canceled the cable and internet access. I bought generic food from the grocery store. Our savings have dwindled to $36. Even with you working two jobs, I'm going to have to get a second job soon to make ends meet. Doug offered me $120,000 a year. I had to think about it. I had to bring it up."
This brought me to tears. I had spent these last few months feeling sorry for myself, and bemoaning my bad luck. I thought things would turn around quick and we would go back to the way things were. But in this economy, that was unlikely to happen. I had let the situation get away from me, and this was now the option that my wife thought would best solve our problems?